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Don’t let something you don’t fully understand unravel everything you do know.

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The reason we mormons don’t talk much about what goes on in our temples is because they’re like Zelda temples. Every mormon has to solve puzzles and defeat a boss, and we are strictly told not to spoil anything for others.

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Soon to be.

It's still crazy to think I will be someone's Mom next year. That my hubby will be someone's Dad. Some days I dont even believe I'm pregnant until I hear that little heartbeat. Everytime I am on the verge of tears listening to it and smiling from ear to ear. And a little more than a week and we find out what we having. So we can put a name to our little nugget. Each day and each week gets us closer to holding our baby. It excites us just thinking about it.

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We have to break up. 

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Bunch of bitter bitches.

I know online there are always people who tend to be braver, ruder or harsher with their words than if you were there in person.

I remember before we officially started “trying to conceive” I went on a forum and asked a very innocent question. I asked, “for those trying long, what are your tips or motivation to keep on trying. I am just about to start out and want some advice since it took my sisters years of trying. I am expecting the same.”

I thought I get some great advice instead of got lots of backlash. Like “why are you writing on this forum you’re suppose to write on another group.” or “just because it’s your sisters, its not going to be you. get the fuck off this forum.” etc.

Bitter ass bitches. 

It has taken me 4 + years for us to finally expect our very first child and in all those years, I have never been rude to anyone who was expecting, trying or about to try. Why would I wanna be bitter and pity myself when even though I wanted to be a mother so bad..I have so much shit going for me. Some ppl just need to go drown in their own pitty of hate and leave the rest of the world alone.

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Tomorrow 💋

I'm so excited for tomorrow. My first ever pregnancy appointment. I get to see my little nugget nestled in my tummy that I've only dreamt of the last 4 years. Not only that, we decided to share the news with our family. Oh this precious being means so much to us already, sacrificing my body for this love bug has been tough but I always manage to find little happiness because this baby is our little happiness. tomorrow can't get here any sooner😍😍

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keeping it in.

Currently it’s hard to keep our secret that we are pregnant. Only because these symptoms are hindering me from “acting” normal. My family just thinks I am just a lazy bum, but really don’t know I’m exhausted and feeling nauseous more often. But within 3 weeks they will they will know the truth!

And I’m excited to tell them so they get off my back. haha.

I already told my two bestie’s because..why not! lol

Gotta few more weeks tho.

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B I G & F A T!

Over 4 yrs of trying got my first ever positive pregnancy test. It was actually a huge surprise and I wasn't expecting it... Esp after so many negatives. But somehow, I did! And I'm so obsessed with my little nugget in my belly. Currently 5weeks and few days according to my blood test. I've never been this excited to go to my doctor. Feel so blessed.

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Science was my toughest subject.

I’m not a rocket scientist here but ...

Husband aka the penis : proficient in sperm count and performs when needed.

Wife aka whirlpool : testosterone levels sometimes elevates. however subject does respond to medication w/ease as well as ovulates when tracked.

Now throw in 4.5 years of trying and “trying but not trying” ..what do you get?

No baby?! No false positive?! No slight faint hint of positive?!

Da fuck am I missing here? 

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It's been a year of me working out and I can finally see baby abs forming. I may still weigh the same, same size pants but I FEEL healthier. Ya, I probably could speed the process if I ain't way cleaner but I love food and rather enjoy life +strive to be better with little accomplishments.

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Sailor moon is me

When you can’t help yourself

Sailor Moon

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Prepping for that wedding like.

Anyone go through this stage at one point in their lives? I sure have!

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back at clomid.

I may or may not have been subconsciously procrastinating taking clomid. I guess between my ankle sprain causing me to miss workouts and my past experiences with clomid makes me more nervous than excited.

I know not wanting to gain weight isn’t vanity reasons. It’s a combo of working hard to get to where I’m more comfortable with my body and gaining it to only be disappointed that I’m not pregnant and needing to move to other options.

Fuckin nervous as fuck to start!

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Second Chance Clomid

It’s been almost 2 years since I stopped using clomid. It’s a scary thing to go back on because I worked so hard to control my weight, set my mind on positive thoughts and pick up the courage to TTC again with medicine.

I know it seems like “whatever bitch that is this and that of you.” No, when you’ve been trying for almost 4 years. it’s COURAGEOUS to keep pushing, to keep from being bitter, to be happy for others pregnancy, to still love yourself for the achievements you’ve accomplished even though you rather have “pregnancy” as one..or rather pregnancy just ONCE.

But I’m hoping I’ll have some good news in the next few months whether it would be baby related or not. I want to give this a real good go before we move on to other methods.

wish me luck!

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