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"Диско-фанко терапія..." 🪩⭐️💃

A little test of a new artstyle in a form of a portrait of Danya from the band Ziferblat . I have genuinely been obsessed with their music so you can expect more fanart coming soon! In the meantime, hope you enjoy! ✨

Also have a little close up, because lowkey I slayed with the details

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so i'm currently looking at all my persona charts in sidereal - and tell me why I feel more drawn to the sidereal groom persona chart than the tropical? it took some adjusting when i first saw the tropical one, but when i saw the sidereal for the first time - it was almost love at first sight lol.

that or its the fact that the crushes i've had over the years have some of the same signs *coughs sagittarius*

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has anyone compared their tropical and sidereal solar returns? I'm doing so now in preparation for mine happening in two months time and i feel like i've entered a new world

like my tropical is full of punches, screaming "transformation!" and my sidereal is a lot more...grounded lol.

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Robert Stawell Ball - Nebulae, “An Atlas of Astronomy”, 1892.

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You know I'm gonna be honest. I don't think all these apps really need access to my precise location

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Everything feels better when the majority of countries I've rooted for made it to the Eurovision finals, payday is next week and life didn't end when I had to wake up early to interview people for nearly 2 hours and still have some semblance of energy.

That or its the average Friday feeling...

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(gonna wake up later on and delete this, but I need to get this off my chest)

I find it worrying that conversations surrounding one's mother tongue have steered more towards shame and mockery, especially when people come out and share their own personal experiences - which requires an empathetic ear, which has been close to non-existent.

This is not to say I agree with those who deliberately distance their children from their home language because there is this inferiority complex they have towards them, separating them from what they call "hoodrats". Not only is that view very reductive, but it mirrors the relationship that society here has with English. That if you are fluent, more opportunities will open. And while that is unfortunately true, it doesn't mean that indigenous languages have to be pushed to the way side. If you have the privilege to, please teach your kids their home language. It unlocks the key to also understanding the beauty culture and dynamics a little more better. Cause contrary to what some may say, the possibility of indigenous languages going extinct is NOT a good thing.

Why do I use the word privilege? Because as mentioned at the beginning of this post, people have their own personal experiences. As somebody who couldn't speak until I was around 5, I had a rather shaky introduction to the power of language and my own voice. Under the advice of a speech therapist, they thought it would be best for me to learn English. And despite this being the language I am fluent in, I find myself still making the most silliest of mistakes, and found myself in a weird dichotomy of tolerating my voice more (cause I ended up getting poked at for how squeaky it is and that I carry an accent) and absolutely despising its imperfections, especially when it comes to pronunciation. That's neither here or there.

Anyways, family, friends and co-workers have been extremely supportive and accommodating, and I am even able to understand what they are saying. I just respond in English. There have been many a case where I want to say something in a different language, but it comes out sounding...wrong. And whilst living in a country that thrives in comedy can make for a good time even in the most difficult situations, the jokes that are made when one tries doesn't bode too well for one's self-esteem.

I know that a bunch of assumptions will arise from this, and I want to make my stance clearer. No, I do not at my big age have a desire to be white.

No, English is not that fundamental of a language to disregard others in its entirety.

No, I am not ashamed of my culture mor the country I live in.

If you see somebody struggling how to pronounce certain words, instead of ridiculing them, help them. Then maybe you two can have a nice ol' laugh about it afterwards.

Its a little heartbreaking when people bring colonization into this conversation. Because while that is a HUGE part of it all, language is not the only thing that is at stake here...

...its the spirit of Ubuntu.

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i think one of the most concerning things happening is the lack of understanding and nuance, which results in not being empathetic to situations different than your own. quite frankly, its a little frightening when it's your own peers that share the same mentality as the people they had criticized before (and are not even aware of this irony).

one could talk about the reemergence of conservatism as that is certainly a key factor, but that is another conversation that can unlock some pretty uncomfortable societal issues...

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Help my Son " Ezzdeen "

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Help my Son " Ezzdeen "

🌟 Our campaign is vetted by

🇵🇸 @/gazavetters List at #291

I want you to know that my Ezzdeen is "ADHD" and very picky in his food, and now he is suffering from huge weight loss, because the crazy expensive prices for the food ,so that we can't afford to buy what he accepts, without you Ezz will not regain his health.

We needs your support more than ever, the daily costs of living, the expensive treatments, I hope that through your support I can reach safety with my family.

Please Take Action Now‼️

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Help my Son " Ezzdeen "

🌟 Our campaign is vetted by

🇵🇸 @/gazavetters List at #291

I want you to know that my Ezzdeen is "ADHD" and very picky in his food, and now he is suffering from huge weight loss, because the crazy expensive prices for the food ,so that we can't afford to buy what he accepts, without you Ezz will not regain his health.

We needs your support more than ever, the daily costs of living, the expensive treatments, I hope that through your support I can reach safety with my family.

Please Take Action Now‼️

GFM Donations Link Here 🍉🇵🇸

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adulting 101: nearly getting scammed, but it failed because I'm too broke.

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Positive update: I manifested headphones.

I've been wanting to get wireless headphones for a while now (and I technically did back in February, but the quality was abysmal) and even went headphone window shopping nearly two weeks ago. Today I went to donate blood at work for the first time since high school and I know that they sometimes gift you with something. That something for me was the headphones!

I was immediately reminded of a TikTok I saw a while back where someone also received free headphones after donating blood and remember thinking "Oh that will be cool if I were to get that"

Now for the quality, definitely better than Feb's purchase and the wired headphones I use for work. Sound wise, I still prefer the earpods I'm currently using because I love me some bass. I'll try to alter the equalizer settings and see if it has any effect (although to be fair, the wired headphones are not bass heavy either)

This also so happened on the same day the sun is out for the first time in what feels like eternity (the city has been experiencing a lot of rainfall recently)

It might seem minor, but after the rough few months, I needed this sprinkle of positivity in my life. Hopefully things will get better from here.

(Also thank goodness Mercury in Retrograde is over. I know this frequently happens, but 9/10 times it's not really fun for a Mercury dominant (Virgo + Gemini) like me)

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If this week couldn’t be any longer, I ended up getting harassed at work. How fun

Update: told my colleague and managed to get that sorted out before I went home that friday. new week, new flu i guess

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I don't know who needs to hear this, but please do not tie your whole being to work and office politics. Yesterday was quite the eye opener for me, and despite how crappy it felt at the time (and still does to an extent, it's only been 24 hours), I needed to have this realization. Everything that happens here does not determine my self-worth nor abilities, and that I need to connect to more with things that make me happy, something I have neglected for a while now.

Cause if I tie myself to this place, I foresee a life full of stress and misery. And that is not the life I see for myself, and neither should you.