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academic validation hits hard. after my glorious rotting and skipping classes for 1,5 months today was the first day i went to class (just to ace one of the finals with an automatic pass and easily submit a few little tests in latin so i get advantages on my final and have only to translate half of the exam text instead of it fully)

now the dopamine hit hard and i feel unstoppable enough that i’m sure i can get my 2 term 30 page papers done in 5 days (guess we will see)

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just finished “nightbitch” by rachel yoder.

first, oh my goddess i suffered. gut wrenching.

second, it’s the first of many books i’ve picked up recently that has A HAPPY END? the one i expected to have the worst end of them all? what.

btw 10/10

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on a dark & stormy night, there was a creature . & you’re never going to beleive what it did next

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“live laugh love” no. divine smite.

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it’s crazy how every 2 years there’s a new misogynistic hate campaign against a woman in entertainment started by some man and people eat it up every time and then 2 years later are like wow we were lied to and deceived :-( but THIS woman is definitely a manipulative bitch this time

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"Art is what makes us human," says the artist.

"No," says the storyteller. "Stories are what make us human."

"Wrong," says the wise person. "You and your friends can make up a bunch of guys and send them to die in a dungeon. You can roll dice to see which of them survive. That shit owns."

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hehe i haven’t showed up in class for 1,5 months and have a few papers missing and the exam season is coming and i feel like a rotting corpse but my profs are nice and i hope i can use teachers pet privileges and maybe i’m starting to feel slightly better BUT here’s a cute moon i found during a mental health walk

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year long challenges? brennan lee mulligan crabwalk? a lou wilson boyband? that i could take. that is game changer.

BUT THREE JOKERS DOING AFFIRMATIONS AND A DANCE TO KISS FROM A ROSE?! GAME FUCKING CHANGED, OKAY NOW YOU GOT ME

truly none of the episodes of the 6 seasons have shocked and left me mouth gaped this much. i’m dreading the next one.

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advice for students:

DONT WORK IF YOU DONT NEED TO

let me explain

i got a job while on am academic break and i’m telling you - the happiness you get from an immediate reward for your effort (aka you did a thing you got money) has ruined my study motivation

since my curriculum doesn’t do grades until the finals season i don’t really get any proof that i did well, no emotional reward or material proof, unlike with work: you get money you buy food stuff you need and like and you feel good about yourself. in comparison to that studying feels like a black hole that absorbs all my effort without giving back. of course, the idea that in the future my degree will help me lots isn’t lost on me, but this concept is so distant and impalpable that my mind doesn’t register it as a real one.

i used to be an academic weapon but now i won’t work without a promise of a little treat.

so the moral here is: if you know yourself to get easily addicted to sth, try to, if possible, avoid activities with immediate positive consequences, especially, material rewards.

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the past week digest!

spring = allergy and depressive episodes so i didnt do much. missed classes all week, have a missed assignment on my final paper and that makes me feel even worse.

i did compensate by reading like hell so:

1. all the hunger games books! (5 of those). finally matured enough for them i guess and i didn’t expect how good they are!!! the writing is immaculate

2. finally resumed the scarlet letter

3. finishing a really good book about the angarsk maniac by sasha sulim (she’s a great true crime journalist here in russia) and planning to later watch her interviewing him

also i’ve been on edge a bit cause my student is on the final stage of the english olympiad and i was worried about him (he did all right! very proud of him)

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(crawls on all fours with blood drenched on me) I have to do arts and crafts

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i did have an all-nighter but itd be better if i just slept with how little i did

did i have a low blood pressure episode middle of study? yes. did i almost faint on the subway? yes. did i finish the paper due tomorrow? no obviously

i mean i’m feeling better now but it’s 10pm and i probably have to do an all-nighter bleh

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did i have a low blood pressure episode middle of study? yes. did i almost faint on the subway? yes. did i finish the paper due tomorrow? no obviously

i mean i’m feeling better now but it’s 10pm and i probably have to do an all-nighter bleh

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i adore this painting

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very disappointed cause my 7 year old headphones broke and now im stuck with wired earbuds that only connect to my phone so i cant listen to my youtube study playlists because theres no adblocker on my phone, its only on my laptop.

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study buddy search!!

hey there! let me reintroduce myself:

im cemetery, she/her, 19, based in moscow (GMT +3)

1st year history student

im searching for accountability, late night video calls study sessions, mutual support in studying and productivity

welcoming to any majors, i think diversity is fun

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