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‘I am surely in the toils’ is the fanciest way to say ‘fuck my life’ ever and I can’t wait to say it to the next person who asks how I am

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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See I'm not a parent but I think that something you should know before having kids is that if you are not very nice to them they will not like you. Much like any other human being.

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been home for under 4 hours and my "leftist" mother is being transphobic. she keeps misgendering my boyfriend and making comments about the Olympics like fucking hell man

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my mum told me and my sister that a joint a spliff and a blunt are the same things. had to restrain from correcting that one

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im just so overstimulated and feel like im acting like such a prick because of it

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and hot drinks plz just wait for it to cool so i dont have to hear

Sluuuurpppp

all people who slurp cereal when eating are not seeing heaven

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got diagnosed with adhd today and feel so strangely happy

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So sick of dog motif what about cat motif.

I love you but we don't love the same. I can't be near you when you want me to be. Your love is smothering and your need to keep me safe is trapping me. I'm my own person but I don't know how to show you that. I lash out and hurt you even though I don't mean to. I need you to move slowly around me or I'll bolt. I love you, even though I don't say it. If you stay still I'll sit next to you, and even though we don't understand each other we can be together like that.

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“I don’t know what my goals are, no. Thanks for asking.”

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a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

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all people who slurp cereal when eating are not seeing heaven

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i hate working in customer service when the fucking customers give me the flu

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an addition to my disturbing cups of tea