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it doesn’t have to be good it just has to be done

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why the hell do i have to "cite my sources" like what happened to BELIEVE WOMEN????

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I did 5 pomodoros today and finally finished re-reading the novel I am analyzing. It's not a lot but at least it is progress.

There's 30 more days until I have to hold a presentation about my topic. I'll try and write about the core arguments so I can present them and actually get feedback on the contents of my thesis.

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i need to lock in fr

messy notion page save me

save me messy notion page

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I sat in a spot at the library where someone left a pile of books from the previous day and they came into the room, glared at me and then took all the books into another room. now I am scared to go outside because what if they think I'm not serious about this study spot and I only sat here for my own sick enjoyment of seeing other people suffer

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I forgot the ONE book i needed today at the library 😍😍😍 my level of idiocy is beyond measure

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whisper of the heart + writing

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what studying literature feels like

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I'm applying for a traineeship and I'm grateful to have passed the first round but at the same time I'm so frustrated because I'm at university and I've spent so many years studying and yet it's seemingly not enough and even with my master's degree I'm gonna have to do another 2 years of training?? And it's not even a field I'm particularly interested in, it's just the most accessible. I'm not asking for an exciting job that pays me thousands, I just want a normal desk job in a nice city that leaves me with time to actually pursue things in my downtime. Why is that a utopian ideal?

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The buildings in my uni were giving the vibe of Soviet Russia buildings and when I was studying I felt quite awkward.

{Çınar}

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me when my supervisor asks how my thesis proposal is going

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I've felt so tired and drained the past week and procrastinated on my thesis, but I promised my professor to send him an outline by Friday so I gotta work on that. I wanted to go to the library today but couldn't get my lazy ass over there so I'll have to force myself to be productive at home

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most of the reason why i procrastinate on research projects isnt even because im lazy but because when i do the background research while trying to form an idea my entire internal monologue is just “YOUR THOUGHTS ARE BASIC AND UNORIGINAL”

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I have theories that even I don't give a fuck about

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trying to make a nice notion page for my thesis notes but it just looks like I threw cheese slices against the fridge