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Always the one to make sure others are ok but no one cares in return

The forgotten one

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Reblog if you actually give a shit about anyone who’s suicidal or depressed.

No one should scroll past this

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Standing there, she doesn’t know what to think Always wishing she could be like them Be the one that everyone sees Instead she is the broken mannequin The one stuffed in the back of the closet Stuck there with no one to help her, panicking Standing in the dark, she chokes on her tears Knowing sound will only show abandonment All that will come is pain and suffering She wishes someone to come save her now But knows it’s worthless wishful dreaming Then the door opens, They come to take her out Hoping to be appreciated, she makes her best pose Thinking she will finally not be worthless anymore They place her on a pedestal All at once, her hopes are gone when They begin to dress her Worthless clothes are thrown her way She is told the clothes match what she really is Plain and Worthless

Never good enough

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“I didn’t understand what hate was, until I started looking in the mirror more often.”

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It’s funny how broken people act happy like happy people should, while happy people act broken like the broken should

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Always being told that I should get over whatever I’m struggling with because there are people starving or getting beat and killed while I'm sitting in my own room in my house with a family.

It’s something I can’t control, it just HAPPENS

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So I’ve become aware that I’ll always be a fat ugly fuck that should just kill herself because she is worthless and no one would ever love her

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Afraid for when you will leave because you see me as I see myself

A Disgusting Worthless Burden

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I wonder what it would be like to love and accept yourself all the time. I wonder what it would feel like to be able to accept compliments given to you and not feel disgusting.

I truly wonder what it would be like to be pretty and to actually have friends that hang out with you and care about you.

I wonder how much different my life would be if my life included both of those things.

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Especially when someone tries to comment on something, you go home and pick apart every flaw in whatever was mentioned never believing a word

I will sit here and easily tell you how beautiful/handsome you are. Easily tell you I think you are absolutely perfect to me. Easily tell you that your body is great and you don’t have to hurt yourself to be where you want to be.

Overall I can tell you everything amazing about yourself, how you shouldn’t have to struggle and that you don’t deserve it. But why can’t I tell myself that? I’ll see beauty in everyone who thinks it’s all flaws but never for myself and it eats me alive.

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Messed things up before they could even begin, just like I always do.

…..am I good for anything at all?

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Little things that make me cry

Of relief:

“It’s not your fault”

“You dont have to apologize”

“You’re not wasting my time, and you’re not a waste OF time.”

“I’m sorry that happened to you”

“I’m here”

“If you need somewhere to go you can always stay with me.”

“You’re pretty!

You’re sweet”

Things that cause tears of pain

“I’m sorry you decided to feel that way”

“That doesn’t change anything”

“You should’ve done better “

“You apologize so much it doesn’t even mean anything anymore”

“Prove it”

“What’s the truth huh?? Your story keeps changing.”

“Why do you always LIE”

“Why dont you just admit it. You’re starving.”

“Go AWAY”

“I wasn’t talking to you, I was talking to your father. It’s none of your business, leave us alone.”

“Youre delusional”

“That’s not what happened. That’s not HOW it happened”

“Why can’t you control yourself?? You’re manipulative and just trying to

Drag everyone else down too.”

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I need to stop being so fucking ugly and worthless.

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i don’t deserve anyone’s love and affection I don’t deserve it I don’t

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So true

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