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TDIAG CHAP 11.1, OUT ON PATREON NOW

You’ll text me when you get home.

Safe and sound. She feels something wedged between her molars — seaweed, maybe, and the bitter tang of unease. A faze that washes over her tongue as she prongs it out from its enamelized prison. She’s safe and sound, sprawled over linen, and somehow the churning behind her ribcage doesn’t simmer away.

She’d been instructed to send a message, actually. It’d been a command. The first time is an accident, but she begins to wonder if she’s breaking some unspoken, unagreed upon rule when she airs Harry Realtor’s Good morning text the next day, sidling out of bed to haphazardly attempt taming her mane of sleep-mussed hair for the workday.

She thinks, it must stipple more into a morally ambiguous territory, rather than a simple sex-rule-disappointment thing, when she notices his Everything okay? message a few hours post her lunch break… and opts to silence his notifications entirely.

She doesn’t know what she’s running from. Seeing his texts surge through the aether and light her LED alive makes a raw panic curdle her bloodstream, but she’s known for weeks that the leather and chains — an alter ego she’d become well accustomed to — was entwined with the seemingly sweet real estate agent, masquerading.

Metathesiophobia. That’s what it’s called on the internet. A long word for a throbbing affliction. Harry doesn’t text again. Dissecting the root of the discomfort feels like discomfort in and of itself.

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hi cherry, i hope you’re well 💗

hi lovely, thank you <3 i hope you’re well too!

[cherryjuiceblues]

i’m so excited this is finally here! 🩷 please support miss titz if you can! i have experienced first hand, for the last month, how much love she has poured into so many beautiful pieces of writing for you to enjoy. you don’t even know how good these stories are!!! she cares so much about her art and takes so much precision over every word. the quality of her writing is some of the best i have ever had the pleasure of reading and she deserves all the love and support for how much passion she has put into this <3

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT (TDIAG + PATREON)

Hi lovely friends!!

I am so excited to announce that I have LAUNCHED A PATREON! Woohoo!! I’m even more excited to announce that the debut is an early release for the long awaited chapter 11 of TDIAG! ((the chapter will be uploaded on to tumblr and wattpad two weeks after its patreon upload)).

It’s $5 a month, and alongside early access to TDIAG updates, my patreon will offer exclusive teasers, unannounced ficlets (some patreon exclusives, some early release) like Gladiator!Harry, TA!Harry, Angry ballet man, a gruff vampire x his familiar, TRIVIA MAN, and a possible patreon exclusive unfinished fic that stands at over 120K in word count! There will also be early access to the second part of Ride the Tiger (pornstar!au), to Glaze (second part of pottery man), and patreon exclusive extras for both TDIAG and Ride the Tiger! I will also be writing patreon exclusive blurbs unrelated to the aforementioned, and I am open to taking requests!

For now, I am aiming to post two pieces a week + exclusive teasers, polls, and check-ins. I am absolutely brand new to patreon, and have so much appreciation for your patience in this first trial month. I’m eager to hear your feedback, your requests, and ways that I can possibly improve my patreon to make it an awesome space for you guys!

I hope to see you there (✿◠‿◠)

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take care of yourself, you’re amazing💗💗

thank you so much 🥺 so are you 🩷

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Just wanted to leave this here ❤️❤️

you are so sweet 😭 thank you lovely 🩷 he is such a good egg :’)

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Hi bestie, remember that you don't owe anyone anything especially on tumblr. I know when you find yourself in an anxiety spiral where you want to have things done but you just can't bc of your stress and so on it can be frustrating to have lots of people tell you stuff like that but it is the truth. Bear in mind that everyone has their own, unique path and you will figure it out. It's uncomfortable and frustrating but with time things will work out. You can very proud of yourself for what you've achieved so far even if right now you feel like it's not a lot

thank you lovely, this is so beautiful :’) you’re very right and i’m still coming to terms with the fact that my journey is atypical by society’s standards, and unlearning norms and expectations is super hard, but with time i hope i’ll be happier in myself. and be better at celebrating the small victories! 🩷

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sophiee:( 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

thank you my lovely, those are some really good hugs :’) 🩷

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Aw honey I really hope you’re okay! Something I found helps me with productivity is when I do have spurts of getting stuff done, I let completed fics pile up in my drafts until I have a good few written and edited and I schedule for like one every two weeks or something that way when I do struggle and can’t produce anything, I already have stuff lined up and it takes some weight off my shoulders (I do this for patreon so I don’t have constant pressure to write all the time when sometimes I just can’t)

Sending you all the love x

thank you lovely :’) that would be my ideal plan too, and it’s my goal to get to that point eventually. i know it would ease so much stress to have things lined up. i think i got myself stuck at a point in my writing and it’s just led to complete avoidance and writers block that i need to push myself past but i’ve been struggling. i’ll get there soon enough. lots of love to you 🩷

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Sophie, love, I just read your little post about your struggles and I just wanted to say.. Take your sweet sweet time. You too deserve all the happiness and I just wanted you to know that we, or I should say I love and appreciate your work on here so much, your writing is amazing! And it doesn't matter if you're not as productive as you wish to be, not to me anyway. I get wanting to push yourself, I do it too, but it's okay to not feel it, and not do a damn thing if it's simply not working out. Mental health is the most important thing out there.

Think about yourself, care about yourself and damn love yourself because you deserve everyone's love but mostly your own!! 💕

this is so gorgeous of you, thank you. i know you’re right. i feel so strongly about this when it comes to everyone else but yet i still struggle to be kind to me. i would never be half as mean to someone else as i am to myself and i recognise that but it’s so hard! thank you for these kind words, i’m really really moved 🩷 lots and lots of love <3

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self pitying brain dump will probably delete

i really struggle with not associating my productivity with my self worth. and in life, at the moment, i am struggling so much every day and every time i feel like i might be okay enough to be productive something happens that sets me back 2 weeks and i’m stuck in this cycle of anxiety and meltdowns. i have chronic fatigue, i am in constant pain, and i’m too damn tired to do anything. i know self love is important and disabilities don’t have to define a person but i really don’t like myself or my life with them and i feel really hopeless about it all. and it makes me really sad. because i love writing and i want to do it all the time. i had these grand fantasies of sharing all these stories, not being burnt out all the time, and maybe even being able to start a patreon one day to support myself a little as i cannot work. but everything feels so stagnant despite the fact that i’ve made so much progress in life recently, i still feel so hopeless. i take one step forward and ten back. i’m sure no one is wondering but just in case anyone was in terms of my lack of updates and empty promises. i don’t want pity or anything i just feel as though i have to explain myself because i suffer with a lot of guilt. it’s unnecessary guilt but i’ve had nearly 20 years of feeling like an alien and it’s hard to not feel like a burden all the time. and i think i have a really unhealthy relationship with tumblr and linking it to my self worth that i need to work on. i said to myself i would stop complaining all the time on here but that hasn’t quite worked out. if you’ve read all this, thanks for taking the time. i needed to type this all out even if i delete it later. and i really can never stress enough how grateful i am for everyone who’s ever said nice things to me. your patience and generosity never goes unappreciated and i just hope you know how much your kindness stays with me 🩷 lots of love now ignore this, go about your day so i can delete it in 4 hours and wallow in my embarrassment

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BESTIEEE HI

howve u been:))

hellooo!!! STRESSED! lol. had an overwhelming few weeks recently and i am still recovering 😵‍💫 hope you’re well 🩷

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hi cutie pie bestie, missed you lots :) sending all the smooches to your brain 🩷

hi my lovely, thank you :’) i missed you too!! mwah mwah 🩷

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Hi baby!! Miss you, hope you’re so well 🥹💞

hi lovely, thank you miss you too 🩷

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RUGBY HARRY WHEN??? IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH IM S A T IM BARKING IM DOING WHATEVER HE ASKS ME TO💪🏼💪🏼 RELEASE HIM

hi baby my brain has needed some kisses lately 😣 thank you, sit tight i appreciate you loads 🩷

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HEYYYYYYY QUEEN what’s up

hello!!! 🩷 i logged out for a min. needed some time away :)

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i luv u cherryjuiceblues

i luv u too 🩷

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naurrrr bestie

.......hellaur 😀