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I feel this on so many levels. And most people I care about don’t seem to care...

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Words of mean people beat you down. Actions of nice people pulls you up.

I feel this on soo many levels

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WHY???? YES!!!!

Me: Why?

Boy: Because I like you. Isn't that enough?

Me yelling: No! It's not enough! You have to prove how much you like me! You have to prove how loyal you will be!

Me talking normal: I've been hurt too many times. I... I can't take the risk of getting hurt again... I'm sorry.

Boy hugging me: I get it. And I am so sorry that you've been hurt. But I have been hurt. And I'm willing to try this with you. That says alot.

Boy pulling away from me: I like you enough to risk myself getting hurt. And no matter what, that won't change. I would risk my life for you, if you were in danger.

Me: I love you

boy pulling me into another hug: I love you too

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I wonder what it’s like to be loved by you

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I’d rather be an OUTCAST!

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ALGEBRA SUUUUUUUUCKS!!!

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Never do it.

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so... so, true...

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Hold on, I still want you

Come back, I still need you

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I used to anyway. Some one made me promise not to do it anymore.... I guess I’m not good at making promises cause I still do it. lol

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Chapter 5

I grab the blanket from the recliner next to the couch. We lay down on the couch and I cover us with the blanket. He wraps his arms around me slowly, pulling me against him. He puts his face against the back of my neck. I smile and close my eyes, slowly falling asleep. I feel Jasons breathing slow down and I could tell he fell asleep. 

I wake up and look around. Jason is no longer behind me, and the room is dark. I get up slowly, wrapping the blanket around myself. I walk to the kitchen and see him standing in front of the sink. I walk up behind him and hug him. He turns around and pulls me into his arms. I feel his lips against the top of my head. I close my eyes and pull myself closer to him. ‘How did we go from barely knowing each other to dating in one day?’ I ask Jason through my thoughts. 

“Cause. We fell in love as kids. And once angels fall in love, they don’t forget it. They can’t love anyone else,” he says. He grabs my chin, pulling my face up to look at him. He leans down and softly kisses me. 

“Well. I’m glad I fell in love with you then,” I say blushing. I grab two of his belt loops and pull him closer to me. I suddenly realize that I have never done anything like this before. I have never been with a guy before. He wraps his arms around me, interrupting my thoughts. I smile and kiss him.

He lifts me up and sets me on the counter. He places his hands on my hips, not letting them wander. I set my hands on his chest, feeling the muscles under his shirt. I open my lips, deepening the kiss. Jason sighs against my lips. We sit like that for an hour.  Out of breath, Jason grabs two glasses of water and hands one to me. A few minutes pass and my breathing has slowed. 

I look at the time and it’s almost 5 a.m. I look for the blanket not knowing what had happened to it. I step on something fuzzy and look down. I must have dropped it when Jason and I were hugging each other. I walk back to the couch and put the blanket down. I sit down and hear the water from the shower running. I slowly walk towards the noise. I run into Jason as I am walking into the bathroom and he’s walking out. 

“Umm...I got the shower... ready for you… I hope it’s not too hot… if it is I’m sorry… Um… there are clothes in there for you. If you need anything… I’ll be here,” he said. 

I don’t like the way he was being so awkward about it. I mean… I understand why… but I don’t like it. I smiled, and walked into the bathroom. It was huge. I hear the door close behind me. I  turn around, hoping Jason was there, but he wasn’t. I slowly get undressed. I get in the shower and look at all of the settings. I laugh when I hit a button and I hear music.

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AAAAAAAHHH!!!

I have to go into the hospital for my shoulder. It hurts soo much

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I feel that...

I have never been as anxious about my life or my future as i am right now, i really don’t know what the fuck i’m going to do and it’s fucking killing me 

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Hello. Good afternoon

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