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[cinderpaw11]

I don't get it. They-- Kamado may hate me but at least I can kind of understand why. This?? It doesn't make sense

hey man have you ever heard of moral ocd. i think you're appropriating the struggles of real people with moral ocd by cosplaying a disorder that isn't yours for attention. and also you're irredeemably evil btw.

What??? wait no, I don't know what that is?? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I don't-- I didn't mean--

[cinderpaw11]

Text sent. hopefully uh. she doesn't mind how late it is. or try to call me.

Oh hey, it's Mother's Day!

... fuck.

[cinderpaw11]

wait that makes sense. okay. but why would they lie to me like that. are they getting something out of it???

hey man have you ever heard of moral ocd. i think you're appropriating the struggles of real people with moral ocd by cosplaying a disorder that isn't yours for attention. and also you're irredeemably evil btw.

What??? wait no, I don't know what that is?? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I don't-- I didn't mean--

[cinderpaw11]

that sounds really wrong, especially considering some of the thoughts I have would be a crime in Jubilife and that Kamado is constantly breathing down my neck for it...

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

Okay. Okay, it's late but the day isn't over yet. I'll do it

Oh hey, it's Mother's Day!

... fuck.

[cinderpaw11]

it’s me boy I’m your mental illness speaking to you inside your mind

leave the catperson you don’t need them

come with me, play my games, we’ll achieve moral purity in space

aaaaaAAAAAAAA who is the cat person

[cinderpaw11]

But how do you know ? I've never heard of this before

hey man have you ever heard of moral ocd. i think you're appropriating the struggles of real people with moral ocd by cosplaying a disorder that isn't yours for attention. and also you're irredeemably evil btw.

What??? wait no, I don't know what that is?? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I don't-- I didn't mean--

[cinderpaw11]

Yes? ... I think?

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

hey man have you ever heard of moral ocd. i think you're appropriating the struggles of real people with moral ocd by cosplaying a disorder that isn't yours for attention. and also you're irredeemably evil btw.

What??? wait no, I don't know what that is?? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! I don't-- I didn't mean--

[cinderpaw11]

I don't. understand. Is that not what I'm doing by wanting to stay? Actively screwing my better self over?

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

An idea worth consideration. But the day is almost over. do you think a text would suffice?

Oh hey, it's Mother's Day!

... fuck.

[cinderpaw11]

but doesn't that make me selfish

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

Yeah, so living a lie? That's not the easy way out. That's the bad way out. Trust me on this. The only way out... is through.

That's what I was GOING to do, but then. this happened. and I feel so weak for it. I don't know if I can make it, now, if I go back.

... and regardless, I don't know how I got here in the first place. for all I know there's some invisible timer and I'll wake up tomorrow back in Hisui.

[cinderpaw11]

are you telling me it's normal to be cruel and selfish?

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

well first of all put away that guilt because it's not like you deliberately body-hopped into a better timeline to steal from your alternate self. (hi. did that a while back. I'm normal now.) second, the time will pass anyways and also you don't know what their relationship with their mom is like. Stop seeing yourself as a parasite, okay?

But what if I didn't do that but now want to. What if I want to take the easy way out. what does that make me.

[cinderpaw11]

strangers from the device. what do I do if I don't remember my own mother but my presence here means I've robbed my alternate self of celebrating mother's day with their mother. who is also technically my mother. but if I call and try to pretend to be them I might just break down crying?

Oh hey, it's Mother's Day!

... fuck.

[cinderpaw11]

Oh hey, it's Mother's Day!

... fuck.