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I’m not that close to the relatives of my father but I’m kinda closer to my mother’s side. All of them have that good relationship towards each other. Tensions between them occur frequently. 

My parents married on 1999 but my mother does not have that good relationship to some siblings of my father. It’s just that there are times they don’t actually agree or have that good understanding to one another. There is no attitude alignment and may take some time in order for them to fix their own problem, and have that good relationship.

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My Kind of Love.................❣❣❣

  “ I was used to being alone,       my days were gray      But I remember the day you lightly      came to me, knocking on my door     You shined on me like a light     Woke me up from darkness     Opened the closed door of my heart “ 

-Starlight by Taeyeon 

*This is actually an English translation from a korean song,Starlight by Taeyeon 

       All of us wants to love and wants to be loved. Love is something we need, an important thing, helps in our development, that can bring us together and other stuffs. The kind of love that we want differs because all of us have its own perspective about love or what kind of love that we really want.

      My kind of love is something where I can feel that I know where I belongs to. Something that can light up my darker days and something that can break the walls I built up inside of my heart. A love that can somehow save me from the darkness that pulling me in.  A love that I feel acceptance from others with my stupidity, dumbness, being careless and other ugly points that I have as a person. A love wherein there is honesty, commitment, patience, trust, understanding, connection and etc. The kind of love that I’m looking for is something that can show me more of what really love is. 

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●▬▬▬๑۩۩๑▬▬▬●In collaboration with Kyla Basan :) ●▬▬▬๑۩۩๑▬▬▬●

A leader must know how to bring together a certain group wherein he or she doesn’t just think of his or her own good but the good of all. A leader that is a good model to all and not being a compliant. A leader that can come up with a unique idea together with his or her group, and not just be the same with everyone else. And a leader knows how to lead a person or a group in a good way.

In this video, we listed about 5 things of what makes an effective leader.

1. Be Respectful 

2. Communicate or Listen to other’s idea 

3. Be Sensitive

4. Collaborate/ Help each other 

5. Encourage Creativity 

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Our emotions may come from the environment (external or internal). We use our learnings and experiences in responding to different situations. Then we have these emotion management which is important because it help us to control our emotions and gave us an idea on what appropriate emotion that is applicable to a certain situation. With that, we can know the application of our emotions in dealing or coping up with different situations. It’s important to recognize or identify your emotion so that it can help you on what to do next and can alter your reaction or response.

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Dear αδελφή Manage,

  Hi! I’m Cj, a simple girl and a student. I’m writing this letter to you if you could help me or give some advice to my problems. Going out and roaming around the city is not my thing. I prefer to just be in our house, inside of my room and just listen to music because sometimes I feel unwanted by just looking at the eyes of different faces that I see. There are times that I feel I’m not worthy to exist and I just wish that all of these memories will disappear as long as I won’t feel any pain anymore or get drowned by these painful memories. 

I may be a kind person(sometimes), responsible(that’s what they say) and other stuffs that makes me a good person but they don’t know that even though I do these things, there’s still that feeling of being “empty” or there’s a big space in my heart. I try to fill it in but I’m still empty. What should I do? Are there some ways that these emptiness will be fill in? Hope you can give some advice to it. There are also times that people thought I’m in bad mood but actually its either I get mad at someone or I just want to be alone. With that, some people call me “maldita” because of my unkind actions and words to them.  I don’t usually talk to to other people if I’m in bad mood and I easily get irritated. When I feel like I want to cry, I’ll just wait until I get home and locked myself in a room because I don’t want to cry in front of other people. If you ask me, why? Well, I don’t even know. I don’t have any reasons why. I just don’t like it and I want to cry all alone by myself. Also, I’m not a type of person who is willingly to share what I feel inside because it’s not that easy to tell someone and have that courage to share what I really feel. It’s not only having that courage but also I’m kinda lazy to talk about it and I don’t what are the other reasons of why I don;t usually share or tell it.

Thank you for your time in reading it and I know it’s quite long. Sorry about that. I hope that you can able to give me some advices about these problems that I have that may help me to develop and I’ll be able to handle situations.

                                                                                                          Sincerely,

                                                                                                                  Cj

.•°*”˜˙·٠•●♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙.•°*”˜˙·٠•●♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙.•°*”˜˙·٠•●♥ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙.•°*”˜˙·٠•●♥ 

Dear Cj,

          Thank you for sharing your problems to me and I hope that I can able to help you somehow from these advices that I will give to you. 

  If you think that your existence here in this world is worthless, then why does God created you and put you into this world? I’m sure that there is a purpose or reason why you’re here and maybe you just haven’t found that yet. Just enjoy and live each moments that you’ll encounter. I f you feel empty, then maybe just do stuffs that can help you fill up your emptiness like doing your interests and passions, and take your time enjoying it. If this doesn’t work then maybe there will be someone, not just a person but something that will come to you that may help in filling up that empty bottle inside you. If you easily get irritated and you feel like you’re about to cry, well, just don’t waste energy and tears on things that are not relevant and just forget about it. Do some stuffs that can help you to be distracted and able to forget those things. Just take a break and don’t let others influence your emotions. It’s okay to be alone sometimes because all of us need some space and have that time for ourselves but it’s not that good to be alone. Just look for a group or someone that is a good listener and willing to help you. No man is an island, that’s what everyone says. So just breathe and be positive. I hope that from these advices that I give to you, it can help you somehow.

Have a good day.

                                                                                                      Sincerely,

                                                                                                   αδελφή Manage

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As a student, it’s kinda tough but it’s important to balance and manage things like setting our priorities, plans and have that time management. When there are some quizzes that will come up, it’s important to study those things that are being discuss and try to understand it. Some students able to achieve success because they have that certain habits in studying in which there may be different approaches in studying depending on a person but as long as it is effective to a certain individual. Also, it’s not that being smart or having that intelligence but it is something that one’s ability to learn and understand those informations. We may commit mistakes and failed sometimes but it’s important to not give up and just work, and learn from those mistakes.

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We all experience stress in our lives. Stress is a physical response to a certain situation. It’s not necessarily that it is a bad thing or can contribute negative effect to our body but through these it actually helps to alert our body to focus or respond to a situation because of particular hormone that is released called “adrenaline” in which more blood is diverted to the brain and muscles that pushes us to think or prepared to fight or run away. If stress always occur or it is consistent that the person could no longer endure or adjust to it then it may produce negative effect and some health problems may occur. So, it is important to know some ways in which we can somehow manage stress. There are several ways or techniques that we can manage it but its’s important to take a break from time to time and knows how to balance things. 

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“Morale Boosters”

FROM KARLA

Dear Christine, Thank you for being a good friend. You're so kind and always willing to help in terms of hardships. Just be yourself and don't mind others. Keep reaching your dreams until you did it for God is always there to help us.  

-Karla Daganga

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FROM JAMIE

To Diao, You my dearest seatmate (before) is full of quirky emotions that makes up your quirky personality. Up until now, I'm still struggling on how to read your real emotions but then I realize that you cannot show emotions unless they are genuine and that makes you unique and real. I admire that quality of yours cause there is no single fake cells in your body. I hope you are doing good and keep up the good work, always be friendly and accomodating and always fill your day with happiness. ~JAMIE

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FROM LARKSPUR

Christine! I'm not telling you it's going to be easy. i'm telling you it's going to be worth it. - Larks

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FROM JM

Salamat sa tanan Christine! Bahalag ginabully ka namo sa isa ka person kay chillin ra japon kaayo ka.stay smart and responsible! Love you Christine! Hahahaha -JM Bacallo

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FROM KRYSTAL

FIRST OF ALL AND FOREMOST, BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE, TO START OFF THIS LETTER, char kaayo HAHAHA unsa mn? Do I write (or type) this in English or in Bisaya? Pls ayaw lang ang Tagalog kay mamatay ko's di insakto'ng oras. AHAHA Hiii Christine:3 hehe first of all (redundancy ftw), hello. AHAHA gege magtarung nako. Okay so. One of the most responsible people I know, even though you go paranoid sometimes with all the tests and projects to do. (Grabi ka dasig magtuon HAHAHA) You always strive to get top marks, you always study, and you always have your goals/priorities straight. I'm not too sure if you're in a good mood or in a bad mood right now. But if you're in a bad mood, then hehe I hope this will lift your spirits because I know that you're so stressed with your PTs and you sound so troubled as you chat with me rn HAHAHAHA Just remember that you have your sights straight, and you'll get over the stress because you always do. (para sa edukasyon hehe) Never lose faith in yourself, keep pushing forward because that is where you'll learn and get closer to your goals. (is that right? I'm not too sure) But all in all, you've remained humble throughout, and you're such a good friend who's so smart and responsible. That's all, tbh AHAHAH sorry for being so informal but yes, stay the same and keep on drawing even though you rarely show them off. Lablab, Taltal

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FROM ENJAY

Ciao o/ ! a Human like you who is Responsible and kind Is really admirable. you're also Sweet and very Thoughtful I'm honored to be one of your friends. Never change and Enjoy life to the fullest.

Your Chingu, Enjay   (Onew's Wife)

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Personal Development and CareerGoals

I believe in luck and we can get that luck if we worked hard. 

My goal is to be a successful person someday. I want to become a Dietitian in which this career sparks my interest. I don’t want to get in to a job in which I’m not really interested to it. Right now, I’m still a student. My goal as a student is to pass and have a good grades in which those grades showed my effort or my capacity as a student.

In order to achieve my goal, I’ll work for it and be a responsible person. Also, through acquiring new and learn new things can help to what I have learned from the past.

In achieving my goal, there is always an obstacles along the way. To me, one obstacle that I think is the primary one for me is being tempted to use gadgets especially when I’m working on something and I get disrupted by this temptation. Another is procrastination in which I didn’t do things that I should do immediately which results to sleep late at night. Lastly, expectations from other people in which it gives me that feeling of being pressured and I don’t want that because I get anxious sometimes.

The people who can help me are my parents since they are the one who provides my needs and help me to develop as a person. Next, the teachers, in which through them I can learn something new and may help to develop some of my aspects through their assessments. Also, my friends can able to help me because they can also help me to develop and someone who can listen, and help me to my problems aside from my family. 

Once we achieve something in life or if we were able to attain our own goal, it’s like  precious treasure that one can have. Just like the the pirates who are looking for treasures. Once they found it, they kept it. If we achieve something, we have to keep it and take care of it because it is something we worked hard for.

*For the four leaf clover, I just got it from pinterest and some necessary details to it.

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A Personal Mandala

This is the mandala that I made personally. The circle on the center represents my mind - myself. The four petals of a certain flower represents the different aspects I have as a person. The aspects of mine represents my simplicity and as time passes by  I’m continuously developing as an individual. It started to get complicated as I’m trying to put altogether the fragments and try to improve/develop it so that I can  bring out my own uniqueness as a person represented by the curves or a spiral-like shape. I may be a simple and a complicated being at the same time but I’m unique in my own way. I believe that each one of us are unique in our own way and that “uniqueness” within us, we must embrace it. 

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What I feel about Expectations of Me

It’s inevitable that people expect something from others because they have their own reasons on why they’re expecting from a certain individual.

As a student, I usually get some expectations from my parents but they don’t really expect that much from me as long as they saw me that I did my best as I can in my studies. Unlike other parents that they have that expectations to their children. I know that they expect something from their child because they’re only thinking for the good of their child. They don’t want them to fall down that easily and they make sure that their child can stand on their own. 

Just like our parents, our teachers also have that high expectations from us because what they are doing is for our own good and to help us develop/improve as a person. As a student, we should be responsible and do things that must be done. There are times that from their high expectations, I felt too much pressure that I must do the things that they expect from me and must do good in everything. And I don’t want that. because I know that it’s for my own good but I hope that they could understand that as a person, I have my own limit of capacity. There are things that I can’t understand or do it  easily. 

Another is expectations from other people or peer expectations. There are a lot of cases especially in school that a certain person was greatly influence by his/her friends because of their expectations to him/her. In order to be part of that certain group of people, you have to meet their expectations that results to either negative or positive effect to a person. I just hope that those other people who expect more from me or from an individual should not expect that much because there are times that I get anxious from the pressure I felt from those expectations they have to me.

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The Selfie Project

Hello!

In our life, there are some ups and downs but that is life all about and we should not forget that there is still hope within us.

I’m not that type of person who is always covered with bright colors. I would say that blue suits me because aside that it is my favorite color, this something that tells me of calmness and that “down feeling”. It depends on the situation, actually. 

I’m a responsible person and also as a student but there’s that careless side of me. I tend to forget things and other stuffs, and mostly I commit a lot of errors or mistakes on the things that I do. Despite of that, I just go on and what is done, it’s done.

I love paintings, drawings, illustrations and cute stuffs. There is something in them that it is really unique and can attract or get my attention. I can draw but not that good as you think it is. 

To wrap up all the things that I said, I’m just a simple-minded girl and sometimes a dumb person, I would say but that’s me whether people like it or not. Even though I’m just a simple girl living in this world, I know how to stand on my own feet and chase my dreams in life.