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no one talks about how straight up painful it is to be the bigger person when deep in your soul you just want to be a huge bitch about it

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(btvs) angel as buffy's butch lover (i think she's comic-canon bi?) (this changes nothing angel did everything but she just happens to be a lesbian now)

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you cannot pay me to go to neseblod records you cannot pay me to take a photo with the "black metal" basement wall.

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i dont endorse armchair diagnosing or making assumptions about strangers but sometimes tumblr users will leave responses on your posts that hit the nail on the head so perfectly that it leaves you like

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i'm sorry i just can't watch buffy and not think of how i never got to feel like a teen girl and i've only got from here to dec 3 of '26 to be a teen girl and it barely counts... i know it's a TV show set in 90s south cali but ykwim? no friends over at my house, no silly parties, no... i mean... family says i grew up around adults, like it was something to brag about. it's not. it shattered me before i realized it did.

all i remember was building callouses on callouses after hours and hours playing bass through a big muff pedal. that's the only good memory i've got. and at 17, i met my best friend. that was good too.

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Female Animal (1970) dir. Jerry Gross

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r/metalforthemasses

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battlevest_wargallery as my personal baddlevests.

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are we old enough to admit that the battle trench is corny

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life's amazing when you don't care about nsbm

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it's evil and wicked and absurd and disturbing that i feel old for things at 18. as it should be.

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at the point of "dressing like a boy" (as the people around me would put it) where the sole idea of putting on anything girly feels like crossdressing. ergo, i'd feel fucking ugly looking at myself with makeup and halter tops and that kinda stuff. which is fine, i don't want to get that in my closet either. it's just... i dunno. ironically, plain-er clothes will rise more questions. part of me wishes i could still be girly at times but 1) i feel completely alien about "girly girl" things because 2) when i tried to be girly, it matched with the time my life got so, so miserable. so i just... i dunno.

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Florida sunrise, 1984.