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Well, I think I'll share my one of the happiest memories and an unexpected discovery for me. Sports have always been hard for me, but suddenly, skiing down the mountain became my only passion. Three years ago, my father and I had a bet that if I didn't like skiing, he would buy me a skate to ride around the city for his pleasure. I thought skiing wouldn't impress me at all, so I agreed. And what do you think, haha? I enjoyed skiing so much that I already know how to make a cold winter happy for me in the future, haha. maybe I really liked this sport, because in one day I overcame the fear of speed and learned a lot of techniques for beginners, and also I was greatly influenced by the fact that my father praised me for the first time in my life (on the first day when I achieved small results). I was ready to cry with happiness... well.. in general, in just three years I have been riding for about 4 days and I really want to come to a cold country, with winter. I miss the snow so much...

I hope and believe that each of us will find for ourselves something that will bring us happiness and joy in life ^^

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don't know.. It seems as if I burned out completely, doing nothing. My soul is so heavy and sad, I don't want to do anything, but I have to. Maybe one day I will become a person who will not need the approval of other people? That would be happiness for me. no one can achieve this for me, I have to strive for it, desperately grabbing the stars in the sky to love the starry self... to eventually become the person I've always dreamed of becoming.

In the meantime.. Will I become a phoenix rising from the ashes again?

I hope one day we will all get rid of the soul-filling longing...

[clintonhinton]

Lately, my feelings are tormenting for me. It's like there's nothing average or less in the strength of what I feel. Sadness? You will feel it from beginning to end, looking longingly at the sea at night, listening to heavy metal, which does not help to wake up from this blue, bottomless feeling. The wind blows at your back in sharp jerks, as if it wants to support you, give you a feeling of support. But at any other time, it would all have seemed unremarkable to me. Not sad, not joyful, just a fact. Sea, strong wind and night... and what's so atmospheric about it? Or the feeling of love that I feel. I diligently tried to forget the person, because we don't have mutual sympathy and we don't communicate anymore, but that day, this feeling overwhelmed me, taking me to the depths of hell. Again. I'm tired.. Will I ever let you go?

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Tonight my friend and I watched Mumintroll, joking and chatting along the way. This is the best thing that could have happened to me all year. I was so happy to lie under a warm blanket, watch this cute cartoon together with someone and joke. I haven't laughed like that for a long time and I'm so grateful to her for looking at me in this format. All week I was in a depressed mood because of the person I'm in love with, but this viewing brightened up my end of the year. I feel so alive... I wish everyone to find such happiness in the new year!

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I just killed the day playing Dota 2 with bots. Viper is funny when he is attacked, heh

/so afraid to play with real people

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Just sharing my sketches for these half a year