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Efferent neurons divisions: Somatic Nervous System: Carries nerve impulse to skeletal muscle (voluntary control) No ganglia A single myelinated motor neuron Faster response Autonomic Nervous System Parasympathetic Nervous System Sympathetic Nervous System Enteric Nervous system: GIT, pancreas, and gallbladder, Glands, Smooth Muscle & Cardiac Muscle (Involuntary control)

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One thing I know for sure, being here is nothing but a waste of my precious time.

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‘A true love’s tale narrated without hiccups is nothing but fiction’, says a woman I know,

The rules, she says, kissed the earth before you my child were formed in your mother’s womb,

Even she knows better not to lock eyes with an older man, she knows her place. After all, this is someone else’s house and she is nothing more than a servant.

They know. They all chant the same tune; everybody knows the melody ‘Men are of the same breed. Not one is better than the other’ but the rules are fixed.

Choose.

An experiment if you may, he might sacrifice, crack his shell, and slip you in under his skin if he loves you, if he decides to,

Patience.

‘Power. Do not mistake it for harm rather an expression of affection. Control and sincerity in the same breath. They ARE men’,

Respect.

‘Nolens volens men are constantly in search, hence you were found. Do not question’,

Endurance.

A road to womanhood. A journey to becoming a hero, perishing before tasting the fruits of her labour but at least she is included in the script. It makes you a woman.

Faithful.

Loyal. Bow, be… do… whatever it takes to keep him,

You were made for him.

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'Sit properly. Stay covered’, said my grandmother long ago,

‘My father is a miner in Johannesburg’, says a friend I know,

‘A man is the head of the family’, says any older man I meet,

‘Wanna go play outside’ said a much older boy I am still trying to forget,

‘I love YOU’, says a really nice guy I happen to like too,

‘Boys are no good’, says a male relative that is very dear to me.

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Do not neglect her. She who resides on the inside of you,

She, stuck at 5, with tears in her eyes still,

Trying to open her mouth still,

Trying to find her voice still,

She sits still,

Obedient,

Just 5.

Her silence screaming yes,

But her soul crying 'help me'.

She is not a rebel child and you know it.

Nobody let's her talk.

She doesn't remember,

Don't leave her.

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To my 18yr-old self,

You are not seen and that's okay. You don't know how to show up as yourself, you've never met yourself outside your shell? That's okay too. For now, just...breathe. Let it pass. You'll find yourself soon. I promise.

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P, Past,

You held me hostage and let you. I painted me however you wanted but I chose the colours. At least I played part in losing myself in loneliness and hurt. At least I am part of the story too.

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H, Healing,

You created a safe space for me to write about love without feeling like I don't deserve it.

-Self