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"What's wrong?" Everything. Everything is wrong.

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i am the definition of letting it destroy me

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The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

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I've been clean for over over 5 years, apart from 1 really small relapse and I honestly thought I wouldn't hit this rock bottom again but heyy we're back! I just wish I could reach out to someone but my husband is already done with my crap and negativity and no one would understand anyway. I feel alone in this and I'm exhausted of hiding the pain.

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”I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.“

-Franz Kafka

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I‘m the kind of tired sleep can’t fix.

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I was never supposed to make it this far.

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“Sometimes I feel better happy. And others I just wish a car would run over me. And I’m clean but god I miss it. I feel like I’m crazy. Idk”

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Confession #4337

Send your confessions to my ask here

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“Depression changes you. I remember liking things. I just no longer remember why I liked them.”

— Excerpt from a book I’m writing. (via the-fault-in-our-scars)

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Story of my life…🙊🕶👜

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