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Hello to all my lovely followers and moots ~

I am currently experiencing a crash similar to what those with CFS/ME experience. I don’t know if that’s what I have, but if you’ve heard about people with CFS or long c*vid who become bed bound, can’t tolerate any sounds, can’t speak, etc that’s what’s going on with me, seemingly as a complication of my concussion. Given this, I will be absent from this blog for awhile. Love you all, I hope to be back soon x

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Flashback to this time last summer when I was getting involved with the one irl person who’s ever indulged my kink. I look back and think oh god he sounds like such a dweeb but in the moment I was literally melting at the seams lol

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Okay yeah so I have a respiratory bug on top of the post concussion syndrome, I have never had such a sense of foreboding, like not to be dramatic but I actually don’t know how I will get through this 😭

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Changing “hun” to “bud” every time I wanna call him that to keep myself in check fsskssdj I’m in dangerrr

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Maybe having a crush on all your friends is actually normal actually and it’s fine

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more horny about contagion than is usual for me

holy shit the desire is strong tonight like goddamn I just want someone to fawn over so so so much I just like want someone to share a cold with and that’s coming from someone who fucking hates being sick but like I want to put my mouth all over them and then *feel* the exact moment it reaches me, like that first twinge in my throat, because the thought that something from their body is in mine now is so fucking sexy, I’m literally gnawing at the walls thinking about kissing someone with a cold like oh my god I just want it to be so nasty and disgusting like god I’m gonna actually pass out thinking about it I am unwell

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it's so hot when the person you're with is really into something that you're indifferent to. like i don't care about spitting in people's mouths, but if the person i'm with it moaning and clutching me when i do it i'm gonna grab their cheeks and tell them to open. it makes me feel powerful to get nothing from something while they react so strongly

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Insomnia time means I can treat myself by listening to my favourite wavs, and pretend a sneezy man is the reason why I’m awake and not crippling anxiety 😉

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Hi!!

If you’re still taking asks, #13 and #17? ^^

13. Have you ever sneezed on someone accidentally?

17. Have you ever been sneezed on by another adult?

I am! Although I fear that it’s not the most exciting answer because it’s a no for both 😔 I’ve had partners sneeze while cuddling but they would always cover so that’s more like against than on. And I’m so hyper aware of my own sneezing I think it’d be very hard to do that on accident for me.

Ty for the ask ^^

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It is SO so cute when a person gets sick and somehow becomes chatty and uninhibited because of it. Like, what happened to you? Did you eat too much cold medicine and awaken your zaniest self? Did your body give you some endorphins you weren't expecting to compensate for how unwell you feel, the way it does when you get hurt? Have you accepted that you've no choice but to be vulnerable in a way, so you might as well be vulnerable in others? Is your brain/body simply too spent to keep the engine running on your social filter? Are you purposefully overcompensating; is this a cheerful facade? What?

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Today in vestibular therapy the (very kind and pretty) therapist had me do an exercise that was me looking back and forth between a pen and her nose 😳 so she would say “pen, nose, pen, nose” and I had to look at what she said. I’m well used to doctors asking me to touch my own nose at this point, but this was different, I had to try so hard not to blush lmao

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what is up snzblr, how we feelin?

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FUCKING HELLO???

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Dolores drives me mad with her constant sneezing and scratching. I order myself not to be annoyed: the girl can't stop herself having hay fever! But her sneezing is so operatic. She can be heard from across the courtyard, through walls, on and on, and then she traipses around leaving crumpled tissue crumbs as she goes, her red eyes streaming. But it's the full-body convulsions I can't stand; the dramatic pause, the way she casts her pitiful gaze around at anyone in the room, before another round of swooping, high-performance noise, then the litle moans as she scrubs at her face with tissues. The crackle of antihistamine blister packs follows her around. (book is Stone Yard Devotional by Charlotte Wood)

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was talking to a few people about this and got very curious, soooo poll time!~

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Ugh my nose is soooo itchy but last time I tried to induce I had a migraine for 48 hours after and idk if it was related or not but I don’t wanna risk it 😭

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using the petname “sunshine” for someone with photic sneezes is so cute to me

-> “bless you sunshine”

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Hi

1,3 and 19 pls

1. Have you ever sneezed while giving a presentation or performance?

Yes but only if customer service counts as a performance. I’ve sneezed while going through my “okay now here’s what the register wants you to do” script ringing someone up at work. It’s happened a few times when it was strong enough I couldn’t stifle and it’s really embarrassing lmao

3. Have you ever sneezed during an important life event?

Tbh probably? But I can’t think of a specific time it really stood out

19. Have you ever had a stranger comment on your cold or allergies?

I had a cashier comment once about all the stuff I was buying for a cold I had. Other than that, only on here 😉