cocoa-thin-blog

[cocoa-thin-blog]

Disenchanted with life.

I’m 28...almost 30, and I have been deeply depressed for nearly my entire life.

Despite this depression, I’ve always had hope for the future. I’ve always had goals and dreams and things that I looked forward to.

I’m beginning to find out that nothing is turning out to be the way I thought it would be...

Life is definitely not butterflies and roses.

My relationship with my mother....done, because she’s a bitch and can go to hell. No loving mother tells you to “Go fuck yourself” when you didn’t do anything wrong.

A broken apart, non-existent family.

Custody battles and restraining orders.

Broken friendships and relationships.

Dashed hopes when it comes to your children / raising children.

An extremely stressed out marriage.

Health issues no matter which way I turn.

Gardening...fuck deer, fuck squirrels, fuck groundhogs, what’s the fucking point. If I’m going to spend $10,000 on fencing and poison and trying to keep things out of the garden I may as well just buy fucking groceries and call it a day

Fucking Coronavirus...fuck Asian people. For real. Brought this fucking Chinese virus on everybody just because they like to eat bat buttholes and eggs that were experimented on in a lab.

Fuck this country for supporting their research, too. Dr. Fauci is a fucking gay ass cunt...dumb ass motherfucker.

Fuck becoming a doctor. That was my passion, my ultimate goal since 2009. I’m not sacrificing my life for dumbass monkeys who can’t even have the common decency to wear masks to the store in the middle of a pandemic. Selfish motherfuckers.

I don’t know who I am, or where I’m going, or what I want to do in life.

I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I feel so lost. I don’t feel like I have a purpose anymore

I feel like my heart is permanently broken, I find it so hard to smile about anything. Nothing brings me joy anymore

I’m tired of this