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house dog

-k.s.

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I totally get that, I get the same way.

Okay! This is also a sideblog, pff.

Question for other ASPDers.

How do you guys feel about/conceptualise the idea of ‘respect’ and ‘disrespect?’

Because my ‘morals’ have always been based on respect vs. disrespect and polite vs. impolite.

So I’m more okay with murder than I am with rape, since rape, to me, seems much more impolite/disrespectful (not that murder is okay, these are two extreme examples, just that my reaction to rape is stronger).

Similarly, I can read about the most horrendous shit and be unfazed, but then someone does something I find ‘rude’ and suddenly I think they’re awful, annoying, impolite, etc.

I have all these rules in my head that I logically know aren’t based off of anything concrete. Most of them are etiquette based, except I tend to follow them much more closely than neurotypicals in that I don’t seem to be aware of socially acceptable exceptions to the rules (while other people are), so someone might do something which, to me, is rude, but, to everyone else, is perfectly fine. It’s like I’m always in Formal Mode, even when I’m ‘relaxed’ around friends (relaxed in ‘’ since I’m not sure I’m ever truly relaxed).

I’m asking you guys because I’ve never met anybody else with the same ‘moral’ compass as me and I’m wondering if it’s some sort of result of my personal weirdness/medley of mental disorders and trauma or if it’s literally just ASPD.

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Exactly, to the T on how I’ve been feeling a lot more recently.

My mutualship/friendship is on the table if you’d like.

Question for other ASPDers.

How do you guys feel about/conceptualise the idea of ‘respect’ and ‘disrespect?’

Because my ‘morals’ have always been based on respect vs. disrespect and polite vs. impolite.

So I’m more okay with murder than I am with rape, since rape, to me, seems much more impolite/disrespectful (not that murder is okay, these are two extreme examples, just that my reaction to rape is stronger).

Similarly, I can read about the most horrendous shit and be unfazed, but then someone does something I find ‘rude’ and suddenly I think they’re awful, annoying, impolite, etc.

I have all these rules in my head that I logically know aren’t based off of anything concrete. Most of them are etiquette based, except I tend to follow them much more closely than neurotypicals in that I don’t seem to be aware of socially acceptable exceptions to the rules (while other people are), so someone might do something which, to me, is rude, but, to everyone else, is perfectly fine. It’s like I’m always in Formal Mode, even when I’m ‘relaxed’ around friends (relaxed in ‘’ since I’m not sure I’m ever truly relaxed).

I’m asking you guys because I’ve never met anybody else with the same ‘moral’ compass as me and I’m wondering if it’s some sort of result of my personal weirdness/medley of mental disorders and trauma or if it’s literally just ASPD.

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Yeah, exactly how I’ve been interacting with people nowadays. It’s too tiring to be authentic around people who don’t fully understand pw/ASPD. Even more tiring to mask but you do what you gotta do.

Question for other ASPDers.

How do you guys feel about/conceptualise the idea of ‘respect’ and ‘disrespect?’

Because my ‘morals’ have always been based on respect vs. disrespect and polite vs. impolite.

So I’m more okay with murder than I am with rape, since rape, to me, seems much more impolite/disrespectful (not that murder is okay, these are two extreme examples, just that my reaction to rape is stronger).

Similarly, I can read about the most horrendous shit and be unfazed, but then someone does something I find ‘rude’ and suddenly I think they’re awful, annoying, impolite, etc.

I have all these rules in my head that I logically know aren’t based off of anything concrete. Most of them are etiquette based, except I tend to follow them much more closely than neurotypicals in that I don’t seem to be aware of socially acceptable exceptions to the rules (while other people are), so someone might do something which, to me, is rude, but, to everyone else, is perfectly fine. It’s like I’m always in Formal Mode, even when I’m ‘relaxed’ around friends (relaxed in ‘’ since I’m not sure I’m ever truly relaxed).

I’m asking you guys because I’ve never met anybody else with the same ‘moral’ compass as me and I’m wondering if it’s some sort of result of my personal weirdness/medley of mental disorders and trauma or if it’s literally just ASPD.

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I genuinely have the same or an incredibly similar ‘moral’ compass as you.

And I too haven’t met someone like this. With this ‘moral’ compass, no one seems to understand my POV of anything anytime I speak my opinions on anything.

Question for other ASPDers.

How do you guys feel about/conceptualise the idea of ‘respect’ and ‘disrespect?’

Because my ‘morals’ have always been based on respect vs. disrespect and polite vs. impolite.

So I’m more okay with murder than I am with rape, since rape, to me, seems much more impolite/disrespectful (not that murder is okay, these are two extreme examples, just that my reaction to rape is stronger).

Similarly, I can read about the most horrendous shit and be unfazed, but then someone does something I find ‘rude’ and suddenly I think they’re awful, annoying, impolite, etc.

I have all these rules in my head that I logically know aren’t based off of anything concrete. Most of them are etiquette based, except I tend to follow them much more closely than neurotypicals in that I don’t seem to be aware of socially acceptable exceptions to the rules (while other people are), so someone might do something which, to me, is rude, but, to everyone else, is perfectly fine. It’s like I’m always in Formal Mode, even when I’m ‘relaxed’ around friends (relaxed in ‘’ since I’m not sure I’m ever truly relaxed).

I’m asking you guys because I’ve never met anybody else with the same ‘moral’ compass as me and I’m wondering if it’s some sort of result of my personal weirdness/medley of mental disorders and trauma or if it’s literally just ASPD.

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say it with me:

It is not the job of people with cluster B disorders to deal with your trauma.

Like Jesus Christ our existing with a disorder is not an invitation for you to yell at us about how you’ve been abused.

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maybe it's just me but I'm so tired of seeing autistic headcanons for characters that clearly have a personality disorder instead. we really are invisible aren't we