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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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"Fans" who don't like the buddie fight scenes are WEAK!!!! Eddie calling Buck a deadbeat dad in the grocery store after only knowing him for year is in the top 10 best buddie moments to me.

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Thoughts of Eddie having to go through weeks of physical therapy which he initially grumbles about. He tends to hate admitting to needing any help, but his new physical therapist is kind and really funny. Eddie begins leaving the sessions with less complaints, adopts a more positive outlook. He can’t stop talking about the guy and someone at the station jokes they think he’s got a crush.

Eddie’s a bit doubtful about the whole thing. He likes the guys but does he like the guy. The thought leaves him feeling frazzled so he talks about it to the one person that he trusts most, Buck, to help him figure it out. Buck does help, Eddie leaves the conversation with some answers and a lot more questions. He thinks this is a harmless thing.

Eddie tries to boil it down to it maybe being more admiration than an actual crush until he was a sex dream about the guy. It makes the next session unbearably awkward and Eddie can’t even look him in the eye. He groans about the whole ordeal to Buck who sits beside him murmuring ‘mhm’ and ‘ahh’ instead of offering any real thoughts at all. Eddie Diaz has never dreamt about a man before, not in that way.

Besides, the Buck dreams are more domestic, nonsexual in nature so they don’t count. He starts using how he feels about Buck as point of reference for how you feel about a friend vs a crush. There’s nothing to examine about the different kind of knots in his stomach when he has Buck help him through his PT homework because he can’t seem to get a stretch just right without some help. Buck’s hands on him don’t get him hot and bothered they just feel right. Eddie’s too busy gagging for it from his therapist, he thinks his Buck feelings are completely normal.

Eddie having his sexuality realization over his physical therapist. He flirts with him a little, likes the feeling of being flirted back with. It’s fun and it’s probably not going to go anywhere. At this point, Eddie is taking the scenic view to figuring out his feelings for Buck. They’re so settled in him that he thinks this is how best friendism feels in your soul.

Then, a coffee date after their last session leads to him inevitably fucking his PT. He can’t stop thinking of the weight of a man on top of him, causing him to have wandering thoughts about how Buck’s mass would feel on him. He writes it off as just being horny, calls up the guy to scratch the itch. The thoughts about Buck only get worse, the knowledge Buck has had sex with men exacerbating the issue.

Eddie feeling guilty for having those thoughts about Buck and overcorrects by asking his PT out properly. They go to dinner and it’s fine, it’s fun. They go on more dates but Eddie can’t stop thinking about Buck. They got to a fancy dinner, Eddie thinks about how much better he likes dinner at home.

Buck unknowingly haunting Eddie’s own relationship with a man back.

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I think that you have to trust the universe is gonna bring you a special person.

↳ 7x04 // 7x05 // 8x11

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finally finished my buddie roommates era fic aka the longest thing i've ever written 🎉 so please enjoy nearly 19k words of idiots to lovers featuring a bunch of maddieeddie rivalry because that's my new favorite thing. also alobby. obviously

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love being stupid

9-1-1 | Buddie | T | 18.8k words

So maybe Buck actually is in love with his straight best friend. It's cool, though. He knows Eddie gets it, even if Maddie doesn't.

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hi 🫶 no need to reply, i just wanted to tell you how sorry i am that people are insane on twitter dot com. i’m nosy as hell so when i saw that anon from earlier pop up on my dash, i went to twitter for the tea and … ???? are people OKAY? like i’m so confused abt the lack of human decency online these days because i was expecting something TERRIBLE from the state of some of those replies and QRTs…. and all you’d said was something so normal and unproblematic?? like damn. sue a girl for having an opinion. i swear there’s something in the water these days because what the heck is going onnnnn!!! anyway like i said, no need to respond but i couldn’t keep my mouth shut and had to send some love & support to you 🫶‼️ xx

i know you said no need to reply, but i hope you don’t mind that i do, because it truly is such a breath of fresh air to get such normal responses after the last two days, lol. thank you so much ❤️❤️

it’s definitely an escalated problem on twitter by people feeling so removed from the person their dunking on once there’s other people doing the same. it’s defineitly not at all a 911twt problem only, and tbh not always even a twt problem only but damn. the state of fandoms nowadays. it sucks!

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hi sorry i saw your other ask and got curious and checked twitter… i would say i cant believe people are so ugly over the most harmless opinion i’ve ever seen but unfortunately i can because its 911 twitter 😑 anyway just wanna send you some love and say i really love your writing and contributions to the fandom, i hope it’s not your last one but also totally get it if so. sending hugs! 🫂

you are so kind ❤️❤️❤️ i hope it’s not my last either ftr.

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Hey, I'm really sorry that I brought about your twitter situation but are you okay? I just woke up (it's 7am here! Good morning!) and saw your feed and was like 'what the heck?' Why people so entitled to express their mean and hatred words I never understand! I'm really sorry that those kind of idiot ppl called you so vile things when you just express your thoughts 😠😤 I don't really use twitter so I'm leaving this here that I care about you and love you! Still and forever! 💕💗💖💞💓💗💕

waited until my morning to answer this so i wouldn’t reply overly emotionally but like, still the answer to am i okay is “kinda but not really”

it’s just more of same way fandom interacts with people now - aka does not treat people with differing opinions as human beings. obviously this is a bigger problem on twitter on here, but it’s exhausting and just another push towards being out of fandom for me lol

i’ve been having a good bout of depression, + currently having no new fic ideas anyways, and then all of this, so idk! maybe that last fic will end up being my last one. never say never but, it’s hard to feel motivated to provide anything to this fandom out of love and care when this is what you get back.

thank you for this message though, it was very nice to read

❤️❤️❤️❤️

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The three kinds of bird species name

1. God’s Specialist Little Boy

2. Hot Breasted Milf

3. Grey Bird With Brown Head

4. Walter’s Fingernail

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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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Unpopular opinion maybe, but I don't actually think Shannon and Buck would've gotten along, let alone become friends. Peace and love.

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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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FIC: when i think about you (9-1-1, buck/eddie)

10k | M | AO3

“It is,” Buck breathes, relieved. “It’s so normal. We just don’t talk about it! But it’s fine, we all do it.” Eddie nods along enthusiastically, smile plastered on his face. “Exactly. We all do it. And—” Eddie pauses, smile growing even bigger. “And why don’t you just use mine.”

Or, Buck’s pent up. Eddie offers him a solution. It unravels from there.

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lost boy

Something happens to him when he’s out there, in El Paso.

[read on ao3]

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several sentence sunday monday tuesday

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showing up super mega late to the function

Unless Eddie is picky. Which is a can of worms Buck probably shouldn't be opening, but he's already kind of cracked the lid. If he must confess, Buck has been lightly ruminating over what Eddie might be into during the past week. He knows that they don't have the same type in common and that while they've never been shy about sharing surface-level details about their sex lives, Eddie's a lot more shy about it all than Buck has ever been. He’s also aware of Eddie’s taste aesthetically speaking, but Buck's personally not always partial to watching anything that might remind him of past partners. He's just not sure if that's the case with Eddie. The duration time of the call so far is intriguing. Buck is by no means trying to make assumptions or suggest anything about Eddie's stamina, but for someone who jumped at the offer, it’s either impressive or concerning.

once again friendless and with no one to tag