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i really love that aziraphale is a pack rat, because can you imagine how many absolutely bizarre things exist in that bookshop that no one knows about? that haven’t been seen in centuries? i’ve heard stories about people finding dried salami bookmarks in secondhand bookshops, can you imagine if one day a customer turns over the wrong rock and finds some priceless diocesan artifact assumed lost to the ages holding down the fort six chapters into a copy of les mis.

muriel one day: mr. fell, is that the ark of the covenant you’ve been storing your collection of vintage feather boas in this whole time? aziraphale: huh. suppose it must be. i’d wondered why they collected so much dust. muriel, knowing full well that dust is what’s left of the ten commandments: 

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i really love that aziraphale is a pack rat, because can you imagine how many absolutely bizarre things exist in that bookshop that no one knows about? that haven't been seen in centuries? i've heard stories about people finding dried salami bookmarks in secondhand bookshops, can you imagine if one day a customer turns over the wrong rock and finds some priceless diocesan artifact assumed lost to the ages holding down the fort six chapters into a copy of les mis.

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heartsdefine​ / ENTIRELY TOO CLEVER.

        “Maybe you can’t.” The Doctor grins as they lean around the TARDIS door, arching their brow at the angel’s obvious incredulity. Then they dart inside, leaving the door open, only to reappear a few moments later when they’re not immediately followed. “Oh, come now, Aziraphale. I thought your lot were meant to be all about having faith.”

their confidence is CERTAINLY intriguing;  he'd be lying if he said it's anything stronger than a vague sense of obligation keeping him from following them at once.  that, and reading all those horrible human stories about the butterfly effect.     ' yes, er, well.  that would require me to be good at my job. '      but then it would only make SENSE for him to follow, wouldn't it?  to be a better angel?     ' oh  —  alright, yes, but i don't very well see how we're both going to — '     he's stepped inside before he can rethink this, and his eyes go about as big as the inside of the box.     ' — fit. '

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jesus FUCKING christ

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listen, listen…..i want to talk about how aziraphale is a lot angrier than he lets on. like, a LOT. and how it comes out in little fits and bursts after the apocalypse is over and he doesn’t have to watch what he says anymore. how there’s a period of time where he’s unusually snappy and a little easier to offend than usual and just plain grouchy because he’s dealing with a new lack of purpose and the loss of a need for a filter and finally feeling secure and safe enough to (more openly) badmouth some angels after a few drinks.

he’s repressed as hell. all his insecurities and bad feelings, all his doubts and fears and indignation, they’re all crammed down deep inside, and he lets them out around crowley from time to time but for the most part he’s always censoring himself, always being careful. once the apocalypse is averted, he not only has a lot more time to think, he also has a lot more freedom to think, as well, about things he’s already been thinking about and fuming about for centuries. and there’s an awful lot of things he’s disapproved of or been angry about complying with in the past, a lot of bad things happening to humans that he hasn’t been allowed to stop.

aziraphale post-apocalypse goes through a bit of a rebellious teenage phase, where he starts being angry at everyone out loud, and frankly it’s a little scary when the mild-mannered angel running the bookshop turns to the person ringing the bell on the front desk and simply, curtly says “oh, will you fuck off”.

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[ 🙌 ] - How does your muse stim or self-regulate?

aziraphale fidgets constantly with his hands to stim and self-regulate: twisting them one over the other, rubbing them together, turning his pinky ring, picking at his nails, tapping his fingers together. even when they're clasped together, he's self-soothing by rubbing his thumbs together or tapping the backs or palms of his hands. if he's holding something, he's tapping it, turning it, doing a swirling motion with it, twiddling it, etc. when excited, he'll do jazz hands, shake his fists, or clap rapidly.

he fidgets with his clothes pretty regularly: tugging his collar, straightening his bowtie, adjusting his waistcoat, pulling at loose threads on his argyle sweater vests, rubbing the sleeves of a cardigan or sweater. he also touches his face a lot: puts his chin in his hands, taps his cheek, tugs on his ear, taps his mouth, tweaks his nose.

he's also constantly got things in the pockets of his jacket and waistcoat to fiddle with: usually business cards, bookmark tassels, matchboxes from the various hole-in-the-walls he goes to with crowley, beads from various embroidery projects.

when under extreme stress, he tends to squeeze his hands together very tightly (because when he's stressed, they're usually clasped anyway). he'll also pat his thighs or hide his hands in the sleeves of his jacket/sweater; he's got very specific textures that he likes and doesn't like, and all of his clothes have textures that are soothing to him.

he also self-regulates through various processes: he loves a nice, simple, orderly process with a strict to-do list attached. making tea, embroidery, and annotating various historically inaccurate religious texts are some of his go-to self-soothing tasks.

neurodiverse questions / @thedoctorsaysimwrong

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Asks for Neurodiverse Muses

[ 🙌 ] - How does your muse stim or self-regulate?

[ 👫  ] - How is your muse in social situations? Can they read facial cues and sarcasm, or do they struggle to “read between the lines”?

[ ✍ ] - Does your muse struggle with fine or gross motor skills at all?*

[ 🍝 ] - What are some of your muse’s comfort foods?

[ 😍 ] - What are some of your muse’s favorite textures?

[ 🧸 ] - What stim toys or comfort objects do your muse use if any?

[ 🛌 ] - Does your muse have a weighted blanket? If they aren’t from a modern setting, would they find a for-their-setting equivalent useful?

[ 🗣 ] - What are your Muse’s sensory sensitivities?**

[ ☀ ] - How does being neurodivergent affect your muse everyday?

[🌙 ] - How does being neurodivergent affect your muse in their career or schooling?

* fine motor skills include writing, cutting with scissors, and so on; gross motor skills are movement of the whole body.

** for example: tags on shirts, materials of clothes, loud noises, certain smells, something else?

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#brb telling detective Aziraphale everything I know

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#( answered. ) I AM NOT THE METATRON. I SIMPLY SPEAK FOR MYSELF.

this tag aged real real well.

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"All my life, I’ve been a girl of peace." / ( kicks in ur door after two billion years 💕 )

' an admirable state of mind, certainly. peace is a lovely thing. '

it's INTERESTING: having lived as long as he has, one would think aziraphale would have an example of the thing to refer to. some ancient civilization that lived in utter harmony, a champion of rights who won the moral argument by laying down arms.

but champions are forged in battle, and civilizations baptized in blood. more than peace, he has seen the FIGHT for it, the bloodied knees and gritted teeth of people hauling themselves up from the dirt over and over and over again. their tenacity has made him love them — made him understand that when she says she is OF PEACE, then she has probably been fighting for far longer than he knows.

' well. "you can have peace, or you can have freedom", as they say. i don't mean to pry, but: do you think you've managed to find the second one, yet? '

@compatiissante

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I disagree but I also don't respect your opinion

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You know what it's like when you don't know anything at all, and yet you're totally certain that everything would be better if you were just near one particular person?

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anybody: you have bde aziraphale, nodding sagely: big divine energy. you're so right

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how in the sam hell do i get my dash to appear in chronological order. i'm fighting for my life over here

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Give it to me Miyazaki style señor Gaiman I’m waiting

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Wings 2022

oil on canvas

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not in this lifetime. not mary, either, at the moment.

you are a virgin, mary