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yo the diet is going OK I have lost a bit over 4 kg in a week and I stood on this body analyzer scale and it told me that my body fat % had gone down almost 5% since last month. Despite this I'm not so happy? I'm already mentally preparing myself for yoyoing like crazy when I stop and then it'll all be for nothing. Losing 5 kg in a week is NOT healthy. Also I'm only eating like 800 kcal a day... and it's pretty triggering for me because I'm afraid I'll fall back to my disordered eating because of the diet I'm probably in ketosis now but I'm not sure?? I don't get as hungry as last week and I don't have a headache anymore so I guess that's good The only thing I'm happy with is that because of this diet it's getting easier to control my cravings. I do crave carbs, but it's mostly in the form of bread or tortilla wraps or potatoes that I want to eat. Not the cookies and chips/crisps and whatnot. So hopefully after the diet I won't have these cravings anymore

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weird thing in this diet though: I am not supposed to eat fruit except a little in the weekends for the duration of the diet (after I reach a healthy weight with the shakes I stop taking the shakes and maintain my weight by eating the same as during the diet but now with some natural and/or complex carbs added) where am I supposed to get my fiber and vitamins in the meantime though??

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look here's the egg muffins! these guys will be my new goto snacks I bet

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so yeah starting the protein shakes tomorrow, twice a day then 2 snacks and regular dinner minus carb foods. I already baked some egg muffins with ham, bell peppers and mushrooms and they are SO GOOD so I'm all set for snacks for at least this week :-)

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hi guys I'm finally back! I haven't stopped trying to be healthy but I wasn't doing enough to want to do things with this blog.. but my mum wanted to do a high protein diet with me (she paid) and I agreed as it's one of the better diets she's tried. she's done a lot of, from my pov, unhealthy things when it comes to losing weight (only eating shakes or only eating eggs for a week or the cambridge diet, only eating the bare minimum your body needs (for her somewhere around 1200) she often tried to get me to diet with her, especially with the only eating your BMR in calories but I was like noooo thank you I have recently learned that eating 1200 cals a day is not good for me as I've been doing that for years and look at how I weigh almost a 100 kg now but high protein/low carb diets seem like a good new strategy. I'm not starving myself which is a good thing but the diet is pretty restrictive. I think I'll make it through 'cause I'm still allowed to eat some solid foods and I can have some bread in the weekends. I feel like I am sort of addicted to carbs?? which is a thing that happens I read. Every time I tried to be healthy I could never give up two things: bread and crisps. but that will change for at least the next month! and I'm pretty scared I won't be able to do it :(

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At some point during a friendship people decide that I'm only good at stuff because I'm gifted and not because I've been working my ass off for weeks just to understand something on a basic level My boyfriend just did this to me for the first time in the 2 and a half years we've been together It sucks Maybe it's just because I'm stressed the frick out, but the last time I cried this hard was the first New Years after my uncle died

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I can't even read my tumblr/twitter because some of the people I follow apparently secretly are SHITFACES and they're DEFENDING him 'obviously he's joking' 'he wasn't fat shaming' uehgughg I am quitting the internet for the rest of my life

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Alex Day's new video

(It's called 'Big Girls In Costumes'. I'm not going to link to it. Yes, it is what you think it is)

I really like Alex Day and lots of the things he does and I can handle ignorance and stuff but man THIS something is on a whole other level  This guy is just body shaming like frick and serious he's got this huge audience and the things he's saying are so going to influence people oh no

The COMMENTS I have not seen so much body shaming in idk YEARS I feel terrible I'm like shut up I'm fat and I'm gonna' cosplay the people I like not the people that are chubby because I'm chubby, if I want to be Sailor Mercury then I will be and I'll show off my fat legs while I'm at it 

At some point Alex made a joke like 'if you're chubby you can cosplay, oh I don't know JABBA THE HUTT'

God fucking dammit

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DID YOU KNOW:

Walking uphill/on an incline burns just as much calories as running.

I can't do any high impact sports with my feet because I'll get shin splints and other injuries and fitblr is so obsessed with running that it makes me feel pretty bad at times. And while calories isn't everything, this is a really nice thing. I can just walk on incline on a treadmill and don't feel bad about not being able to run. :)

(source: my physiotherapist)

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MEASUREMENT april 25th 2013

YEAR DIFFERENCE:

Weight: 95 kg (+1 kg)

Neck: 36 cm (-3 cm) Waist: 83 cm (-3 cm) Hips: 110 cm (-8 cm)

Body fat percentage: 32.70% (-3,75%) Body fat: 31.06 kg (-3,21 kg) Body weight: 63.94 kg (+4,21 kg)

Bust: 100 cm (-10 cm) Chest: 88 cm (+3 cm)

Top of the thighs: 69/69 cm (-4/-3 cm) Thighs just above the knee: 49/49 cm (-5/-4 cm) Calves: 43/43 cm (+0/+0 cm)

Upper arms, relaxed: 33/31 cm (-6/-7 cm) Upper arms, tense: 35/33 cm (-1/-3 cm) Lower arms: 28/28 cm (+0/+0 cm)

It's been a year since I started measuring. It's been an alright year. I think I look like I lost more than these numbers say, because my posture improved a lot, too. I'm looking into 'diets' more. Instead of gradually letting go of the junkfood I love so much, completely changing up EVERYTHING I eat might work better.

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i am really beginning to hate these running posts 

it's like just a bit of my dash but all these posts are like

RUNNING IS FREEDOM

LEGS ARE THE BEST ALL TERRAIN VEHICLES

and well yeah i guess it's true for you

but not when you have my feet

and my ankles

and my knees

not when you can hardly run for 200 meter without feeling pain shoot up through your shins and it's not because you run the wrong way or don't have the right shoes it's just how your body's made

godddddd i wish i could run but i'll probably never really be able to do that. 

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MEASUREMENT march 14th 2013

Weight: 93 kg (-1 kg) Height: 182 cm (+0 cm)

Neck: 36 cm (+0 cm) Waist: 84 cm (+2 cm) Hips: 111 cm (+5 cm)

Body fat percentage: 33.59% (+3.19%) Body fat: 31,24 kg (+2,66 kg) Body weight: 61,76 kg (-3,66 kg)

Bust: 100 cm (-5 cm) Chest: 88 cm (+3 cm)

Top of the thighs: 72/71 cm (+3/+2 cm) Thighs just above the knee: 52/51 cm (+2/+1 cm) Calves: 43/43 cm (+1/+1 cm)

Upper arms, relaxed: 33/32 cm (-1/+1 cm) Upper arms, tense: 37/36 cm (+1/+2 cm) Lower arms: 28/27 cm (+0/-1 cm)

Gaaaah. I'm thinking of seeing a doctor about my weight permaybehaps.

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My Workout For Monday March 11

I earned 709 points for my workout on Fitocracy!

Boot Camp +709 pts

1:00:00 || Intense! (+709 pts)

First time boot camp. I have ordered a crane to hoist me out of bed tomorrow 'cause I won't be able to move at all

Think you can beat me, or want to comment?

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Now available for free on both iPhone and Android!

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My Workout For Friday March 08

I earned 316 points for my workout on Fitocracy!

Cycling +316 pts

0:35:00 || 7 km || 24.1 km/hr || 150 BPM || moderate hills (+316 pts)

Think you can beat me, or want to comment?

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My Workout For Saturday March 09

I earned 587 points for my workout on Fitocracy!

Cycling +326 pts

2:30:00 || 33 km || light hills (+326 pts)

I have been on an adventure today

Zumba +261 pts

1:00:00 || Intense! (+261 pts)

Think you can beat me, or want to comment?

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Mr. Barthes: To deliberately believe in lies while knowning they’re false.  Examples of this in everyday life. 

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If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love— I love— I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

Pride & Prejudice (2005; dir. Joe Wright)