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quiero ser amiga de una location manager

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LILY GLADSTONE for Interview Magazine (2023) photographed by Tina Tyrell

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I don't mean to keep you from getting to work or anything. I just knew if I didn't start driving, I wasn't gonna see you again. I didn't want that. That's all.

Lily Gladstone as The Rancher in Certain Women (2016) dir. Kelly Reichardt

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people’s oscar winner

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if clare devlin has a million fans i am one of them. if clare devlin has ten fans i am one of them. if clare devlin has only one fan, that is me. if clare devlin has no fans, that means i am no longer on earth.

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info dumping and rambling about your interests is not annoying or boring !!! passion and excitement is incredibly endearing. those who told you otherwise did majorly wrong by you

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Searched for the writers of GLOW and sure enough they're all women

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in this house we are violently anti sparkling water

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Apparently Mary Elizabeth Winstead in Birds of Prey wielding a crossbow isn’t sexy according to a man ??

it’s almost as if men are used to seeing women in film through a male gaze where they are sexualized and objectified for male pleasure and approval.??

huh anyway MEN are weak and ladies enjoy Mary Elizabeth Winstead looking hot and powerful as Huntress

like THAT ^^^^^^^^^ is sexy men need to grow up

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i want recognition and anonymity

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PLOT TWIST: you are your crush’s crush.

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I don't think we can 'lmao' our way out of this one, girls.

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it rly is fucked up how you literally don’t ask to be born and then you’re supposed to come out to your dad

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kudos to whatever medical professional named it "toxic shock syndrome". Not once have I forgotten a tampon change and I fully attribute this to whoever gave tss that fucking terrifying name. No way in hell am I gonna find out what that shit is like

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personal [2:43am 20/12/21]

i wonder if i can publish this but like only for myself. something i've always loved about tumblr its the lack of punctuation. v nice.

anyway, i don't know why i had this sudden urge to post. i'll use this blog as a diary so i can come back in the future and see where my head was. i just did that with some older posts, searching through the tags, and man. what a trip. i can't believe i've been struggling with the same stuff for the last 6 FUCKNG YEARS. amazing. at least i can say im constant at comething right??

currently listening to night shift as i write this (by lucy dacus) by the way

what are some of the struggles that have remained constant u may ask?

- comphet: i just read a post that i reblogged (sp?) in like 2014 about how confusing sexuality was. and now that i know more i know it reffered to comhet. now with the rise of tiktok and its scarily accurate and tailor-made fyp i saw a lot of vids about comphet. at least its nice knowing so many, and i mean SO MANY people feel exactly the same as i do.

-lewks: judging by the tags i used when i used to reblogg pretty people, i used to struggle a lot with self image. and its not like i needed to see those tags to know i did, but i had forgotten. and those feelings are back babyyy. i had gotten over them for a while there, but my mind is cyclical it seems.

i think those are the big ones.

some things have changed as well. i don't struggle with anxiety as much. AS MUCH. it still creeps up every once in a while. but now i manage it differently. i'll talk more about that some day, in more detail. also...i think i had self diagnosed myself as depressed???i mean, i can't blame past me. i did really want to off myself lol those feeling have been back as well in this second part of the year. got kinda scary for a moment. i mean i wouldn't ever actually do it of course but i was SAD with capital letters. thats also something ill talk about in another post.

another thihng that has changed too is i don't feel as lonely anymore. i have friends, and i need alone time a lot more now. idk why.

anywhoooo, just watched wild child and its SUCH A GOOD MOVIE. ahh, i don't know what about it reminded me of tumblr's existence but i'm glad.

im gonna start using this as i've found out some people use insta. i mean, ive seen how they use like a burner account and post every day so at the end of the year they have kind of like a 'wrapped' version of their year. i really liked that idea. but i'm a text girlie it seems. i've always been the type to need to get out her thoughts in writing.

i still haven't decided whether to make these public or not. i haven't really used this in such a long time that i don't even know what kind of followers i had. all fandoms i guess.

anywhooo. thats it for now. byeee :)

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what an iconic duo