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I got a promotion at my job.

All I want to do is quit and retire. But I can afford to do that. So I should be happy and thankful. But I'm tired. Fuck I'm so tired.

Everything is urgent. Everything needs to be done asap. Everything is a priority. Everything is important.

Will the sun stop shining? Will the earth stop spinning? Will the oceans suddenly evaporate? I could go on and on. But if none of those things are going to happen. Then it's not that fucking serious. We won't die. The earth won't suddenly get thrown off its axis.

That's my main issue. I'm tired of worrying about shit that isn't a real issue. That will just get replaced with the next high priority thing.

I want to live my life. I want to garden. Stare at my birds. spend time with my loved ones. I want to focus on the important things that actually matter. Work is nothing more than an unwanted distraction at this point. Taking time away from those precious moments that actually mean something.

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Was talking to guy and he told me I was cruel if I got a bunch of money and would just disappear on him.

Sir...

I've known you for 2 weeks and we barely speak as is. Then got annoyed when I told him that there are levels to friendship.

Like da fuq. I'm not going to talk to you the same way I talk to someone I've known for 10+ yrs. I'm still in the process of figuring out if I like you or not. Like I barely know you I have no reason to trust you with anything.

Honestly his whole multi level marketing pitch turned me off. I don't need any of that hustling type of bullshit in my life. Clearly he scams old people.

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Tired and frustrated. My mom wants to be a know it all. Won't listen to anyone. Won't do what she can do now. It's going to fall on me and my sister. She vastly underestimates how much of a pain in the ass it is to move. It took me about a month to pack up a 1 bedroom. She has 3 floor house to pack up. She makes it sound like it will go easy peaszy ...it won't. It will take a while to do. To pack up and sell stuff...she will wait till the last minute then complain.

I'm tired of being an adult. She wanted to move and me and my sister have to fiance this. Her problems always becomes our problems. I worked so hard to get to where I am at. But she causes drama for the sake of it. She makes problems where there are none.

I have been an adult since I was a child. A child parent is what I was. It's why I don't want kids. I don't want to take care of anyone else anymore. I don't want to be responsible for anyone else.

I am rambling and tired. I'm depressed as well. So fucking depressed. I'm going to drink and get high and work on my NFT

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Fuck I hate dating.

I just want to meet someone who puts in some effort.

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Look ..I just want a hot neighbor who just moved in across the street to me, to fall madly in love with me!!! Why the fuck is that so hard to ask for!

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I have an afternoon date with a guy.

I was excited at first. Now I don't want to go. I much rather be in the house being warm and playing skyrim.

Fuck.

Hopefully it won't last all day.

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I'm back on the dating apps

Jesus Christ. I might as well delete them. I'm talking to one guy now. It's the lack of effort for me. I'm not expecting him to go all out and text me 24/7 but just be a bit more engaging... Like why is it so hard to find people who actually know how to engage in a conversation. I'm assuming he must be talking to other people. Which wouldn't shock me. Not like we met yet. But ugh. If you aren't interested that's fine. Just say so. Because at this point I'll most likely just drop him. Because the conversation is basically me carrying it.

But I've noticed this trend. Dudes want to text you off the apps. If you agree to that then it's like their interest level goes out the window and you never hear from them again.

If I do hear from them again. It's weeks later and by then I have no idea who they are. The only lasting impression I got was they were just flaky, low effort and boring. Pass

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Just a reminder why I don't like working with people.

Or trying to do group projects. Too much of a headache trying to rely on others

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The fuck

I need help for this project. This shit is waaay to complicated. Like I don't speak "mortgage" lingo. I have no idea what I'm looking for and the steps I have to write I'm not even sure are correct. The client should have provided very specific instructions because to anyone else who doesn't do this kind of work. It's bananas.

Also this guy in supposed to be mentoring is trying to throw me under the bus because he doesn't do his work. Like that's my fault...

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My mom came to visit. I love my mom. But I am reminded why I like living alone. I wanted to leave 15min ago and she is doing "I have no idea what" I spend the majority of my time waiting on her to do "I have no idea what" it drives me bananas

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When the whole party is down but your bard is up

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Fuck I'm tired.

My mom came with me to close on the house. She's already trying to find things wrong to stress me about.

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I'm convinced this guy I know is a shitty dog owner. He doesn't abuse his dog. But from what I gather his dog isn't as well behaved around others as he thinks. Pretty sure the dog isn't well socialized.

Sick of dog owners thinking they have the best dog in the world. I'm nervous around dogs and Everytime they let their dogs just run up and jump on me. I can't handle that shit at all. Get your dogs under control. I don't give a fuck if s/he is friendly. I don't want to be bum rushed by 80lb+ animal