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[cordeliaandnestastan]

It’s so ironic to me that Cassian accuses Nesta of running from the bond because dude … YOU THE ONE RUNNING???

War ends: *straight to Illyria for months*

Every holiday shown: *doesn’t say a word all night and avoids eye contact*

Mating bond snaps: *sprints to the snowball fight THEN Illyria for days*

Nesta went to an apartment across town or like … another room. You went to THE NORTHERNMOST FUCKING MOUNTAINS?!?!

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Cbk for a rejected nessian bond tho neris for life

I feel like people miss the part where if Elain and Lucien ended up together, it's because they both made the choice to make it work.

Lucien currently is trying to find some common ground with Elain to get to know her but he obviously is being respectful of the fact that she chooses to keep a distance from him so he isn't around much.

Elain is making a choice to not pursue or explore the bond as of the current canon (which remember that canon is always subject to change based on future events).

These characters are making choices, no one is forcing their hand to do something against their will. Both Elain and Lucien did not have a choice in being mated to each other.

Did no one ever read a romance where a couple where so at odds with each other at the beginning but then they eventually fell for each other the more they spent time and got to know to one another? It's very common in historical romances and Elucien's bond is similar to the dynamic of a couple pushed into an arranged marriage/marriage of convenience with their bond—they're basically strangers and won't know how compatible they are until they spend more time or make the effort to know each other.

And to sum up what Mor said in ACOFAS: Elain and Lucien are not ready to deal with their bond right now until they figure out who they want to be and where they want to be.

SJM wouldn't add that to ACOFAS unless she wants the reader to know Elain and Lucien are not ready just yet to deal with it.

This is important for Elain and Lucien and it has to be explored through their own POVs. It's why I believe the reason they're kind of stagnant right now is because that development requires their POVs (to also see how they navigate through a mate's instincts and that can't be narrated from another character's POV).

I stand by the theory that the rejected mating bond story we would likely get is Helion and Lady of Autumn. The clues in ACOWAR are screaming that Helion and Lady of Autumn are mates. That story leaves more room for a more impactful and tragic rejected bond story to be told in the book—like, enough time passed to see the repercussions of a rejected bond and how Helion and Lady of Autumn dealt with it for centuries. We already got glimpses of it when Helion was telling Feyre and the IC his story with Lady of Autumn in ACOWAR.

To me a rejected bond isn't just a scene of two characters sitting together and Elain goes "I reject you" and Lucien is like "okay it was nice meeting you". That's not impactful or makes for a good story in my opinion. I think that trope could be used for secondary/minor characters who had time to deal with it, but not for the main couples especially since SJM promised a HEA for all the characters.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

All I’m saying is, everyone is always saying Nesta is nasty and mean…but I think she doesn’t go low enough😭

[cordeliaandnestastan]

How can the inner circle look at Eris and not see that he's a dreamer just like them. He so obviously wants to make a better autumn court and a better life for his mother and Lucien. He saw Nesta's power and offered her a life where she wouldn't be a pawn in a game. "But he said mean stuff." They all have, bro. It's obvious he couldn't touch Mor or she would be trapped with him. He let her have the future she dreamed of.

Dreamer Eris. His father is killed and the first thing he does is take the first real breath of his life.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

ok but what if the next acotar book is nessian getting the acomaf treatment…and nesta canonically leaves cassian for eris

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Nesta "bullying" Feyre is honestly so fucking tame for a sibling relationship.

Dude, I'm a younger sibling. Older siblings bully their younger siblings all the time. But, if anyone ELSE does it, they will fiercely fight for you. That's just how it is.

And us younger siblings? We're annoying. It's practically in the job description.

My brother has beaten my ass MANY TIMES (I've also kicked him in the balls several times, dw I fight back babes), but in the end, NOBODY ELSE will put that much effort to help me on my college essays, fix my resume, and get me internships.

Nesta said some mean words? Boo fucking hoo. Y'all act like Feyre is helpless. Isn't she the all-powerful Cursebreaker High Lady and all that good shit?

Nesta was also fucking GROOMED by her mother, but somehow y'all forget about that. You also forget that when the FAERIES came and messed with Nesta's family? She went after Feyre in Prythian. She truly exhibits elder sibling traits to a T.

Nesta was never Feyre's abuser. Rhysand was. But y'all will go to the mat to defend his loser ass.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

AND HE STILL TOOK HER ON THE HIKE ANYWAY WHAT

"Nesta was only telling Feyre about the baby to hurt Feyre"

what actually happened:

anyways,

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Honestly Off be impressed if sjm planned that and excecuted it haha

Also we have no ties to the dusk court high lords really?

I just think it’s interesting that in HOFAS, we witness the death of Fionn — the first High King of Prythian. He is dragged into the Bog of Oorid.

Yet as he died, so did the land around him.

Today, we know this land as the Middle. It is still withered. No life flourishes there.

But, what happens if a High King (or a High Queen) is crowned once again?

Will the land in the Middle bloom once more? Will it become a Royal Court to rule Prythian?

Geographically it makes sense, as the Middle is perfectly situated between both the solar and seasonal courts.

But, who will rule?

Recall this passage in ACOSF; that there are three sister mountains in Prythian.

The three sister mountains in question are:

Ramiel, the mountain in the Night Court.

The mountain on the Prison Island (Dusk Court).

The mountain in the Middle (UTM).

People have already theorised that these three sister mountains foreshadow the three Archeron sisters, and where their story will take place (e.g. Feyre’s story featured UTM, Nesta’s story featured Ramiel, so Elain’s will feature the Prison Island mountain — Dusk).

But, I wonder if this passage is also foreshadowing from where the three Archeron sisters will rule.

One sister will rule the Night Court.

One sister will rule the Dusk Court.

Which means that the remaining sister will rule the Middle… as High Queen.

(art by rockieartt)

[cordeliaandnestastan]

AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Facts

Still holding out for neris

Look look, we all have our theories, but tbh SJM could pull another ACOMAF and retcon everything so nobody really knows shit😭

[cordeliaandnestastan]

nesta being recognized/feared as a death god while her goals in life are to eat chocolate cake and read smut with her girls is hilarious to me

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Feyre betrayed Nesta in the worst way...

It's a common stance that many people, regardless of if they love or hate Nesta/Rhys/the IC, seem to have, but I don't think it is. Was Nesta complacent in keeping it from her since she found out? Yes. Was that wrong of her? Yes again. Was blurting it out the way that she did also not ideal, to put it mildly? Absolutely yes. But was it out of malice? No.

And Nesta didn't care. Couldn't think around the roaring. 'Have any of them told you, their respected High lady, that the babe in your womb will kill you?' Amren barked, 'Shut your mouth!' But her order was confirmation enough. Face paling, Feyre whispered again, 'What do you mean?' 'The wings,' Nesta seethed. 'The boy's Illyrian wings will get stuck in your Fae body during the labour, and it will kill you both.'

The idea that this was all said in malice just never sat right to me, and after scrolling through some comments on a video discussing the matter, the pieces finally clicked into place. First, let's talk about the hike, though.

Her breakdown after that hike wasn't a moment of catharsis and letting walls down. It was a weeks worth of exhaustion, dehydration and depression that resulted in Nesta giving in to the torture she was put through just to end it. It was a pivotal moment in the IC's efforts to break and then reconstruct her to their liking, or rather, to Feyre's liking. However, a vital stepping stone in reaching this point would be for them to gaslight and isolate her until she truly had no one. I mentioned before that I didn't think anyone in the NC would chose Nesta, and this is an example of why I believe that.

Nesta snarled, but Feyre stepped between them, hands raised. 'This conversation ends now. Nesta, go back to the House. Amren, you...' She hesitated, as if considering the wisdom of ordering Amren around. Feyre finished carefully, 'You stay here.'

Nesta is clearly upset and hurting and Feyre disregards that entierly, not even offering to discuss or find out why Nesta is hurt or feeling the way she is. Feyre didn't bother to try and understand Nesta before and she isn't bothering now. Either Feyre assumes she knows what Nesta is thinking/ feeling, or she just doesn't care. She dismisses her, telling her to go back to her prison, disregarding Nesta's choices, autonomy and opinions again.

If I recall right, it was Amren who informed Nesta that she was free to go where she wanted if she made it down the ten thousand steps. Feyre wouldn't order Amren, even to stand up for her sister, but happily go against Amren's own words to punish Nesta? Hypocrisy at it's finest.

All of this leads to one outcome: Nesta feeling trapped. Cornered and without a single ally in the whorld who would defend her properly. Isolated from anyone who'd be willing to treat her with decency, while believing she doesn't even deserve the basics of kindness. It leaves Nesta more prone to actually going through with committing suicide, since the behaviour of these people, mixed with her own self hatred, sets a precedent for how Nesta believe she'd be treated.

We see this when Nesta first meets Emerie, thinking to herself that 'the invitations would stop' when Emerie learned what nesta was really like. Or at least what Nesta perceived herself to be like.

Even though Nesta has Emerie and Gwyn, she has no reason to think, based on what brainwashing the IC has already done coupled with her self deprecating mindset, that they wouldn't side with the IC. This isn't to say Emerie and Gwyn are like the IC by any means. I think they're great friends to Nesta, and if that changes or not later on is more so up to SJM and her writing, rather than their characterisation. It's the reality that the IC have created for Nesta through abuse, gaslighting and borderline torture that's wound up feeding in to Nesta's already existing trauma and self worth that has lead to her becoming isolated this way.

And Nesta didn't care. Couldn't think around the roaring. 'Have any of them told you, their respected High lady, that the babe in your womb will kill you?'

The comment on the video I saw explained that, while Nesta was angry when saying this, she wasn't trying to hurt Feyre or take her anger out on anyone. Nesta was angry because she wasn't told that she made a new trove. She was angry that these people had the audacity to vote on her life, and take bodily autonomy from her. She was angry that Feyre wasn't acknowledging or even trying to understand how Nesta was feeling. She was angry that she was treated like the bad guy- or more like a petulant child in this scene, I suppose- and had her feelings dismissed again.

Dismissed the way her mother/grandmother used to when she was trained. The way her father did when he refused to hunt. The way the Mortal Queens did when Nesta merely asked them to save her people. The way Feyre did when she asked for Nesta's help again, and again, and again during the war, only for it to never be enough in the eyes of other. The way that Elain did when she got upset at Nesta time and time again for how she handled her trauma or how she wasn't over her trauma or how Nesta tried to protect her. The way Cassian dismissed her feelings when he got mad at her for having an opinion of Rhysand.

Nesta was angry. She had every right to be angry. Most people would be angry, and alone, and if they already had suicidal thoughts like Nesta, having been abandoned by everybody while gaslit into thinking it was fine, and then only called upon to be used for the benefit of others while the snickered behind her back and dismissed her again.

As the commenter put it; She was trying to find someone who would relate to her anger. Nesta wanted an ally, someone who wouldn't leave her alone. Someone to be by her side and, perhaps subconsciously, thought that Feyre, who'd hunted for them and helped look after them for years, would chose Nesta's side.

The parallels between Nesta and Feyre's situation here are clear, and I think Nesta understood that when she said what she said. I think that Feyre believing Nesta said it to hurt her was a gross misunderstanding on her part, but it's not like she ever asked Nesta how she felt. Now that I think about it, for all that Feyre talks about Nesta feeling too much, and taking everything to heart, she never once confirms with Nesta. Never asks how Nesta feels.

Since coming to the Night Court, Nesta's feelings and traumas have been twisted and spoken about only in relation to how Feyre feels.

'Do you know how embarrassed I was when we got the bill this morning and my friends-my family- had to hear all about it?'

The intervention began, not because of Nesta doing something to risk hurting herself, but because Feyre was embarrassed and started crying into her breakfast.

'All of it pains me… It pains me that Nesta has become… this. It pains me that she and Feyre are always at each other’s throats. It pains me that Feyre hurts over it, and I know Nesta does, too.'

Cassian is pained, not because Nesta is suffering so greatly that she isolated herself for her own sisters (who didn't really act like sisters between the end of ACOWAR to... well now, so it's understandable), or because Nesta felt her only reprieve from her pain was in sex and alcohol, but because Feyre hurts over it. He knows Nesta does (but he doesn't know she hates fire? Or is uncomfortable at their social gatherings, since in ACOFS he somehow hoped she wouldn't take the bribe money and say she enjoyed their solstice party??? Because...Why?) But, of course, it's Feyre's feelings on the matter that are prioritised.

'Nesta is Nesta. She does what she wants, even if it kills her sister.'

Rhysand, not that I expect much from him, honestly, is utpse, not because he can't find a way to help Nesta. Not because his court is actively cruel to Nesta, hell, he joins in. Not because Nesta is in pain, in no small part because of him and his court. Not even because Nesta is spending his money. Because she's upsetting Feyre. Because, god forbid, Nesta have trauma and handle it in a way that doesn't make his wife happy.

Feyre tells others how she thinks Nesta feels, the others go with it, or just come to their own conclusions, not sure which is worse, but nobody stops to consider how she feels. Feyre feeling like Nesta said it to hurt her, I think, is simply proof that she doesn't understand Nesta.

Let me ask you, if you found out you were lied to in a way that affects your ability to make informed decisions regarding your own body, by someone you were supposed to trust, and who should've had your back, and that your own sibling has been betrayed by the same people in a very similar, if not identical way, and yet you're the one being turned into the bad guy, and dismissed, would that not make you feel isolated and frustrated?

It's understandable that Nesta tried, either consciously or subconsciously, feel less alone by appealing to common ground to find an ally. Nesta mentions at the end of ACOSF that she believes Feyre loved her from the start, and after those years in the cabin, I think Nesta sees Feyre as someone reliable.

This scene doesn't feels like Nesta trying to hurt Feyre. It feels like Nesta trying to reach out to the one person she could rely on; Feyre. Her mother was abusive, her father was a deadbeat, Elain was her ward, and the IC hate her.

'Nesta studied me for a long moment. And then she said with equal quiet, though we could all hear, “I can’t get into a bathtub, anymore. I have to use buckets.” I hadn’t known—hadn’t even thought that bathing, submerging water…'

Amren tells Cassian to keep reaching out his hand, even though Nesta has reached out her own time and time again. Esspecially to Feyre, as she was the one Nesta relied on before. Possibly even the only person Nesta has ever relied on, and Fyre was the one she was trying to rely on now.

Nesta relied on Feyre, and needed to rely on her again. To have strength together, in a situation where they both lost their choices and autonomy to Rhysand and his (cause don't pretend it's even slightly Feyre's) IC.

It may have been wrong to say it in that way, at that time, under those circumstances, but this, to me, feels like Nesta's way of reaching out her own hand only to be misunderstood, punished, and dismissed again. And again. And again.

In a way, I think Feyre might have, unintentionally, betrayed Nesta in a worse way than Elain ever has. Elain was a ward. Almost like a child, to Nesta. They were never on equal footing. Moreover, Nesta was never punished if she upset Elain, no that she should be, or if Elain misunderstood her. Nesta never relied on Elain the way she relied on Feyre. She never trusted or had faith in Elain, the way she clearly trusted Feyre. She had thought she'd found an ally, with similar pain, in Feyre, in the moments she spilled the secret, but Feyre didn't care.

When I was reading the scene where Cassian told Feyre his idea to take Nesta on a punishment hike, she sounded all too gleeful when telling him how miserable Nesta would be. That, in my opinion, is the worst betrayal of all.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

i need you all to understand the reason for my undying hatred for cassian and grudge against sarah j maas is that when baby freshman me went to one of her first ever college parties i got followed around the house by this guy who i told clearly multiple times to leave me alone because i was not interested. it was a terrible and frightening experience. the next day, i think to myself “surely my new book a court of frost and starlight will help me feel better. it’s been all fluff so far.” and i opened it. and what was i greeted with. you guessed it. cassian following nesta after she told him multiple times to leave her alone. chapter 21 of acofas you ruined my week.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Once again sjm being obsessed with SA

it's so wild that Tamlin canonically does everything he can to break the curse but everyone forgets when Rhysand says he sat on his ass and did nothing. ig only Rhys' sacrifice gets to matter, only Rhys gets to be a martyr figure because Tamlin didn't hand himself over to be abused and used by Amarantha? weird

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cats bringing hunted offerings to their owners but it's jem humbly depositing new slang he heard at the bakery in front of kit for an explanation

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Who would chose Nesta?

Cassian doesn't deserve Nesta. Fight me on this. Nesta would risk life and limb and death all over again for him. She'd face her trauma, climb mountains (regardless of how ethical it may be), and put her pride aside for him.

She would face her traumas and search for the cauldron for Elain and Feyre. For the court they love. She gave up her powers for Feyre and Nyx. She fought a war for Feyre. She faced Braylin, and found the trove so Nyx wouldn't grow up in a war-torn world.

Yet not a single Character would put her first, the way she puts them first. They didn't even try to accommodate her trauma by finding an alternative for baths, despite her telling them the issue and them promising to help.

Not one would love her unconditionally the way she loves them, or sacrifice for her, what she'd sacrifice for them.

[cordeliaandnestastan]

Specifically blood hounds. Hehe

quick headcanon:

I know everyone says Nesta is a cat person, and I don’t disagree because it’s a simple personality match. However, I think what Nesta doesn’t realize is that while she would be fine with a cat, what she needs is the kind of love and companionship typically associated with dogs.

Think about it: dogs are smart, loyal, and affectionate. They love unconditionally, and would always be in her corner, on her side. Nesta needs those things more than anything else in the world!!!

[cordeliaandnestastan]

I love it when the fandom discovers depth to sjms writing that she doesnt even realise ahaha

Another Acotar Hot Take

I think tamlin has the potential to be as powerful as rhys, in terms of actual magic.

We’ve barely seen his shapeshifting put to use—we’ve seen Feyre use it in a myriad of ways, but with him we only ever see him as Fae or beast, which isn’t really all that special given that all the high lords have a beast form. So we haven’t seen his full potential with his Main Power, but he also has other powers.

Like, air manipulation. It sounds like Rhys and most other high lords have some level of telekineses, but I feel like full on air manipulation is like a whole different story. Could he fly without wings? Could he lift up huge objects into the air using the air itself? Is the air manipulation what causes stuff to shatter around him when he can’t control his magic? When his powers get out of control stuff literally EXPLODES around him. Imagine if he could focus that power? Just fuckin…exploding shit with his mind?? Not to mention the fact that he can make OTHER PEOPLE shapeshift. What are the limits of that? Can he force other people to shift or is it only a power he can bestow upon willing participants? Cause if not, that dude could be turning soldiers to fish on the battlefield or some shit. Like he may not be able to get INTO your mind but he COULD turn it into a piece of coal, or give you gills instead of lungs, or if we’re talking mind shit, he could shift one’s brain just enough that it could be rendered completely useless (ie changing someone’s frontal lobe beyond repair or something).

Plus, he’s literally like trained all his life as a warrior, which like yeah so has Rhys, but I’m just saying like put all this stuff together PLUS him being a skilled swordsman, likely prolific in hand to hand, and someone whose been training for battle for their entire life…like if he wasn’t so depressed I’m sure he could learn how to really hone all the stuff he can’t control, and I think if he did that he would be just as powerful as Rhys.