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some of you aren’t even perverts you just have normal sexual desires that you are ashamed of

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Hi I’m Moon

My parents were abusive so I moved in with my older sister. She ended up being a narcissist and in the end pointed a loaded gun at my head. I had to flee with whatever I could carry

I brought Boston baked beans

I have no idea if someone has already done this on tumblr but..

TRAUMA CANDY SALAD 😀

*clears throat* My name is Leelee and last year this kid in my class grabbed my behind and said he got tickets to gyattown. aNyWaYs I brought the bowl ><

@axisssss @teenagechildtyphoon @aroacegrimreaper @how2beanerd @cabin13winion @cherryblossomflowers444 @pinkxpxnda @epik-bylerfan + anybody who is interested / wants to join

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I never had bad days at the job i had when i lived with my abuser. Not because it was because the best job i ever had, but because when home is that bad anything is heaven in comparison

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Its that time of night again!

(Staring at my meds for so long that I don’t even know if i took them or not

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Me: *at work happily going about my life after cutting off the parents and making sure they have no clus where I am*

Customer: oh hey you’re (mom)’s kid right?

Me: oh fuck, oh shit

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Learning to interact with people again is hard

This is as someone with trauma and autism

Right after my first trauma I shut everyone out. No touch, not a lot of talk, certainly no eye contact. Social situations were easier because they all had the same answer: No

Unfortunately since then I’ve discovered that I am in fact a people person(begrudgingly) and i cannot live without human interaction. I’ve done some healing and I’m mostly okay with touch now, like i offer people hugs if they’re having a bad day n shit. I’m working a customer service job i love and for the most part life is good. My problem is understanding what people want from me.

My shut down was during formative years when i was supposed to be learning this stuff and now it feels like I’m way behind in understanding this stuff. Slightly leaning towards me with one hand out to the side? Are you going for a side hug? Is there something on the ground you’re pointing at? Are you leaning in to tell me something while also giving your friend a low five? Is shoulder bumping normal? How close is too close? Am i supposed to apologize when our hands brush against each other? Do people still shake hands? When is the proper time for a handshake? Why do some people act so familiar right away?

Its just crazy trying to sort through the normal human things that everyone else seems to have figured out

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Trauma hack #2

Mentally transferring ownership of Things™

This one is a little more unusual

We tend to associate certain things with certain people, be it objects, sports teams, hobbies. Whoever ‘owns’ that thing will be brought to mind any time we think of it. For example lock picking makes us think of mate and gta v makes us think of our first boyfriend. When the thing associated with a person is brought up, memories of that person are brought up with it. For better or for worse

This poses a problem when a new person in our life frequently brings up the same Thing™ as a past abuser. So we hold “court”

We have a trail for ownership of the Thing™ in our mindspace. We have an entire courtroom. Obviously abuser and new person don’t show so some of us take turns jumping in as their lawyers and we have an entire argued trial where we eventually decide that the new person gets to keep the Thing™ and the abuser isn’t allowed to have it anymore.

Not sure how this works but it genuinely does. It’d probably work for people who aren’t plural as well. You could like, play pretend with stuffed animals or write a story or something ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Trauma Hack #1

Wearing shoes in the shower

Not tennis shoes. Just slides. My first boyfriend used to join me in the shower uninvited. Its been years but on bad days when I close my eyes and stick my head in the water, i can still hear the door open and close, can still feel his hands everywhere they shouldn’t be. My brain takes me back to the time when I was helpless. When he was here. So I put my shoes on

Wearing my slides in the shower keeps my brain focused on the present. Its not a fantastic feeling. It feels vaguely wrong, but not enough to cause a big sensory ick. It takes my brain from saying, “hey. Hey remember when we were weak like this before?” To “hey. Why the fuck are we wearing shoes right now? Like what the actual fuck??” And frankly I think that’s an improvement

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Hi I’m Moon, and this is my Trauma Blog.

I made this so I can talk about my worse shit without traumatizing my main moots.

With that said here are the things that, if you cant handle reading about(no judgment here) then you probably shouldn’t follow this blog:

Rape

Suicide

Self harm

Abuse from parents

Abuse from siblings

Bullying in school

Anxiety Tics

Plourality

Starvation

Sleep loss

Hallucinations

General domestic abuse

Neglect

I feel like I might be forgetting something, I’ll add it if I think of it. Some of these things wont be talked about as much but I added them here just in case.