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What is monoconsciousness??

basically you have the same conscious but different identity and ways of thinking

so sharing memories and thoughts is really easy bc everyone knows all all the time

also switching feels more like ur becoming the other person rather than youre leaving

- Sora

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sure, i’ll bite. (this was my ask) /lh

it’s so weird how suddenly drawn to plurality i am? i found out about plurality through a documentary on YouTube and discovered non-trauma systems through my friend who’s the host of an endo system! that was a few months ago, maybe 5 or 6? i dropped it but thought it was fascinating!

i follow a blog on Tumblr and they talked about if they were a system like a week or two ago and that got me thinking again. seriously,, i feel a connection with the & symbol in pronouns (“they&/them&”) (the symbol in general tbh) and sometimes i have a tendancy to address myself with plural pronouns (“us”, “we”, “our”),,, i dissociate to the point where i forget i exist and inhabit a body,,, i have terrible memory (don’t remember things vividly past 2 years ago) and apparently i get told things that i have no recollection of (if mom says “hey you need to switch the laundry” i won’t know she told me to until she’s upset with me saying “i told you already to do it and you said OK!” but i don’t remember saying “OK”? but what if it’s not “me” being told to switch the laundry and someone else taking my place for me?). autism and ADHD (inattentive if that’s relevant) certainly don’t help,,,, and i’m fluid as shit (gender, pronouns, names, aesthetics, avatars) and i hoard stuff too. i’m ✨ c o n s t a n t l y c h a n g i n g ✨ and i don’t know,,,,,,,, sometimes i feel “blurry”? what does being blurry even feel like /gen

i’ve been using the plural label,, but i feel wrong,,,, i haven’t had any communication with possible headmates either so that makes it worse. how would i find out if i have any?

heh,,,, i’m a mess, but thanks for listening to my rant /lh

i guess i’ll call myself 💙🖤 anon if it’s not taken? i’ll probably be back with more questions so just in case,,,, /lh

oh i forgot-

i’ll subtitle/say in my head the words and conversations around me??? sometimes??? and i don’t know if it’s to process everything or if i’m helping a headmate??? or maybe it is a headmate subtitling it??? what’s the deal with that lol /lh

-💙🖤 anon (just sent an ask and forgot to add this sorry for the consecutive asks /gen)

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sorry for late response! my brain saw lots of text and short circuited /lh ! im gonna break it down and respond to each bit :] oh and you can claim 💙🖤 anon !

> it’s so weird how suddenly drawn to plurality i am? that makes sense! people who are questioning often start out by learning about communities and then going 'wait. me?' and that's okay! examples include. trans ppl, gay ppl, aspec ppl, etc!

> sometimes i have a tendancy to address myself with plural pronouns ... i dissociate to the point where i forget i exist and inhabit a body

i would say if you're using we/us subconciously that's something to look into. singlets can and do use we/us sometimes, but if ur doin it on accident? hmmmm /lh . dissociation is also a pretty strong sign to think about plurality! traumagenic systems [read: us] may have so much dissociation they don't realize they're a system at first n thats perfectly valid!

> apparently i get told things that i have no recollection of

nod nod, switching is def a possible cause of that! idk ur specific situation but memory loss can happen like this [happens to us sometimes when we're having a trauma moment tm] and also manifest in different ways! memory shit can range from

> what does being blurry even feel like

well id say its different for lots of people but for us, our blurriness feels like a badly made smoothie of a person. there's bits that don't fit together, and its hard to know where certain unconcious things are coming from [ie. did i do that because i want to do it or because someone in co-con wants to]. it can also be like, lets say ur making a representation of yourself, like a picrew, and you get stuck on stuff. is my hair long or short? what color are my eyes? etc

> i’ve been using the plural label,, but i feel wrong,,,, i haven’t had any communication with possible headmates either so that makes it worse. how would i find out if i have any?

you can use the plural label even if you don't know about any headmates, that's okay! i would say to contact them you can look here and here maybe? tillman suggested to another anon a few ideas for communicating :]

> i don’t know if it’s to process everything or if i’m helping a headmate??? or maybe it is a headmate subtitling it???

well, it could be both! i can't tell you exactly what's going on, because that's something only you (or yall!) know, but it very well could be related to a headmate! maybe they experience the outside world through these subtitles?

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again, i cant tell u exactly whats goin on, but i am happy to answer any questions you have and relate to our personal experiences! we had plural experiences before knowing what plurality was for about three years so we definetly relate to not knowing What The Fuck is going on /lh

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the one ask you(&) responded to about using the plural label got me (re)thinking if i was plural too (been contemplating for a few months tbh) and the way you just,,,, take the label without needing to think about it too hard? and you feel right at home? i applaud you 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 /pos

anyway, i‘m 99% sure i didn’t experience any trauma but i literally don’t remember anything vividly past 2 years ago. i am autistic too and my memory (short-term especially) has been a real struggle lately for some reason. i know i’m super depressed so that’s definitely contributing to it,,, i never wanted to take the plural label but accidentally and completely naturally saying “us”, “our”, and “we” a few times along with almost feeling wrong being referred to with singular pronouns, i feel like it’s only obvious to take it now? like now i want to use plural pronouns for me (us?????) and i dissociate a lot too,,, like sometimes i forget i inhabit a body? i didn’t have direct contact with any headmates i don’t think, maybe I’m mono-conscious or median? but sometimes i feel singular? i feel like i’m constantly changing (names, pronouns, aesthetics, avatars) and it makes me feel so confused,,,,,

super long rant but thanks for listening,,, i think i’m gonna use the label, idk,,,,,,, these aren’t all of the reasons i think i’m plural but the most important ones i think.

Hell yeah!!!! 💜✨ Welcome 2 the club

I feel like, if u feel such a connection to a community like this, there's a reason 4 it and exploring that and see how it feels using the label 4 u its pog actually

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@funnier-as-a-system

for real once you realize that you can actually wear whatever you want and call yourself whatever name and pronouns you want and have whatever interests you want and be whatever gender you want your life gets so much better and more fun

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“ Il a été observé, ta vision de moi.

Et bien qu'il contienne surtout la vérité, certaines choses vous sont inconnues.

Que ce soit votre cœur qui se brise ou le mien, le secret est le même.

Chaque larme depuis ça nuit - l'enfer, chaque larme depuis avant ; d'apparemment aucune cause mais implacablement constante.

Dans la bouteille, dans la rivière, il y a un paradoxe ; dont je n'arrive pas à conclure. Ce paradoxe se situe entre soi et manque de soi, et entre se connaître et ne pas se connaître.

« Gender ceci, gender cela », criez-vous. « Qu'est-ce qu'il y a avec toutes les étiquettes ? » ;

Le miroir, le reflet ; leurs mensonges immondes - leur inexactitude de ce qui est devant eux. Ils ne savent rien du spectateur de vérité. Que dois-je faire sinon bouder dans le mensonge qui a été souligné avant moi ? Cela m'affaiblit, mère; ce que vous ne comprenez pas m'entraîne plus bas dans l'abîme, le drain vers l'enfer.

Cela me réconforte, ces soi-disant "mots de destruction inutiles" sont ce qui me maintient à flot dans cette fosse vide. C'est solitaire ici. et pourquoi ça te ferait du mal ? je ne me définis pas uniquement par ces concepts, je suis ces concepts et mes autres formes d'élégance.

Le traducteur dont vous avez besoin pour lire ceci est le même appareil que je demande à utiliser sur mon ipséité. Si seulement l'introspection était aussi facile que ça, hein ?

Ce que mon français et mon allemand vous semblent être ce que l'ipséité est pour moi - beau, remarquable, divers, élégant et, surtout, unique. Comme cela devrait être.

Bien que nous regardions tous les deux avec des yeux et des esprits différents ;

s'il vous plaît, ayez pitié de mon point de vue. ”

This post was aided by Google Translate. I cannot speak French this well, barely at all even.

La traduction est en dessous de la coupe

(The translation is under the cut)

“ It has been observed, your vision of me.

And although it contains above all the truth, some things are unknown to you.

Whether it's your heart that breaks or mine, the secret is the same.

Every tear since that night - hell, every tear since before; apparently no cause but relentlessly constant.

In the bottle, in the river, there is a paradox; from which I can't conclude. This paradox lies between oneself and lack of self, and between knowing and not knowing each other.

"Gender this, gender that," you shout. "What's with all [the] labels? ";

The mirror, the reflection; their filthy lies - their inaccuracy of what is before them. They know nothing about the spectator of truth. What should I do if not sulk in the lie that has been pointed out before me? It weakens me, mother; what you don't understand drags me down into the abyss, the drain to hell.

It comforts me, these so-called “useless words of destruction” are what keeps me afloat in this empty pit. It’s lonely here. And why would it hurt you? I don’t define myself only by these concepts, I follow these concepts and my other forms of elegance.

The translator you need to read this is the same device that I ask to use on my ipseity. If only introspection was as easy as that, eh?

What my French and German seem to you to be what ipseity is to me - beautiful, remarkable, diverse, elegant and, above all, unique. As it should be.

Although we both look with different eyes and minds;

please have mercy on my point of view. ”

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Hi im pretty sure I'm kin but I have doubts and shit because I have multiple kintypes. How do you know you're kin?

Okay, I’m home, time to jump right in. So, we’re gonna do this in two parts like we did the first guide I did on this. Part one: What Is Otherkinity, What’s Related To It: A Crash Course To Terminology. This is gonna be so we’re clear from the getgo on things. Part two: A Few Methods That May or May Not Work To Figuring Shit Out. This is some of the ways I know - but your experience will be deeply personal and unique, so don’t worry if you don’t stick to any one method, and it’s not about following the method so much as it is finding the answers and being satisfied with what you know.

This guide, however, will not go over most community things, like history and culture. That requires [groaning noises] sourcing things, and I hate doing homework. That you can hunt down from folks who have been here much longer than me. It also isn’t a comprehensive guide on experiences, because trying to mention everything would quite possibly kill me and requires a lot more teamwork and surveys and interviews and chasing down books that are no longer in print. So yeah, don’t expect everything.

I could just link the first guide I made, but it’s good to make a new one a few years later. Under the readmore, but let’s go!

Keep reading

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❝ As sunrise and nightfall,

as first blush and late dusk;

As days make their downfall,

as sad soul becomes husk.

Locked behind eternity,

constricted to the void;

Absolute absurdity,

Confidence destroyed.

Succumbed to curiosity,

I think I’ve been consumed;

I’ve been stuck in here so long

that I think I might be doomed.

The part of me we thought I knew

I had left so isolated;

And no one ever had a clue

a part of me was hated.

Yet there’s still marks on my heart,

how could I be this dumb;

And I’m still healing from these scars,

it’s quite too late, I’m feeling numb.

Can’t wait ‘till it’s opportune,

my legs are sore from where I stood;

I’ll spill my empty can of truths soon,

and yet I don’t know if I should. ❞

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