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he's personally calling you out @powerbottomeminem he wants a break from sucking dick

*NEW* Eminem in promotional for Snoop Dogg and Dr Dre's album, "Missionary'.

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I love peeking at tumblr and knowing when the emgk Fandom gets a new member

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Between the pregnancy and some freaking viral sickness I've been plagued with I've still been mostly dead, but I went to my first concert ever over the weekend and I literally still can't contain my happiness and need to explode it somewhere

We went to see Glass Animals with the kiddo and

It was so !!! 😭😭😭

Not only was everything amazing but Dave LITERALLY pointed at my baby during Youth

It was like every damn star aligned in the universe because I'm still sobbing over it. The song is literally the one I connect to the most relating to my baby, and wanting everything in the world for her ugh 😭😭 I'm gonna get too emotional over it again.

And the over fans were so amazing. They were all so sweet and so excited for her, coming up to give her high fives and head pats and dancing with her. She belted out every lyric to every song like it was a mission. Someone even came up to us before the final song to give her a pork soda plur bracelet and a tiny alien

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Between the pregnancy and some freaking viral sickness I've been plagued with I've still been mostly dead, but I went to my first concert ever over the weekend and I literally still can't contain my happiness and need to explode it somewhere

We went to see Glass Animals with the kiddo and

It was so !!! 😭😭😭

Not only was everything amazing but Dave LITERALLY pointed at my baby during Youth

It was like every damn star aligned in the universe because I'm still sobbing over it. The song is literally the one I connect to the most relating to my baby, and wanting everything in the world for her ugh 😭😭 I'm gonna get too emotional over it again.

And the over fans were so amazing. They were all so sweet and so excited for her, coming up to give her high fives and head pats and dancing with her. She belted out every lyric to every song like it was a mission. Someone even came up to us before the final song to give her a pork soda plur bracelet and a tiny alien

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cosmic, where have you been 💔💔

trapped in an endless cycle of back to back life events 💔💔💔

Some good, alot of bad, but I'm hanging in here I swear! Sorry for my absence!

With everything going on I've been really overwhelmed and also left with a lot of time to sit down and reflect/think on what I want to be doing content wise.

Obviously I love just creating, anything, art, fics, livestreams, community. But what I'm creating is also a big question mark for me right now. With how my life is going I really need to start doubling down and getting serious if I want to actually pursue it as a career. Or at least as something that I can have some sort of gain from so it takes a little bit of pressure off my everyday life and I don't have to feel guilty about pursuing haha 😅😅

It's hard. because honestly I could care less 90% of the time because just having people be happy and excited to see my works is all the exchange I ever really need or want. Bit the other 10% of the time it's me staring at other people who are making some sort of living off it and feeling depressed.

I have alot of people around me constantly pushing me forward too, telling me If I just sit down and try I could more than likely be successful. Which is great! but also added pressure because realistically I know it would mean changing my content away from Emgk. Something I have a lot of guilt at the thought of, especially now with how small the shrinking the community seems to have become. The idea of jumping ship (haha) to keep myself afloat seems horrifically wrong.

Buttttttt of course there is also a big side of me that feels tired and desperate to focus on more fandoms or my own ocs more. To spread my wings a bit and get out of my very VERY comfortable spot I've made for myself here. Other fandoms are full of very unforgiving critics or drama starters and that's intimidating to say at the least

So, it's a heavy decision I've been weighing. I know I don't have to fully abandon the ship, and honestly I doubt I could, I've kind of etched myself into the wall as one of THE emgk shippers at this point 😂 But the whole thing has had me stuck. Sitting in a sort of limbo with the content I already have in process being poked and prodded but not quite finished because I'm just not sure.

I'm rambling now like I usually do, and I'm sure it doesn't all make much sense, but ahhhh, I don't want everyone in the dark forever or worried I've disappeared of the face of the net.

To end it on a good note!!! I will say that I recently found out I'm pregnant with my second kiddo finally after a long bit of trying so! That's very exciting!! And one of the few good events to come out of late ☺️

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Classic Horror Games Posters

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em actually shaved for the music video 😭😭😭 stop he's so cute

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I will NOT write em sucking Kells off in the rap boy suit

I will NOT write em sucking Kells off in the rap boy suit

I will NOT write em sucking Kells off in the rap boy suit

I will NOT write em sucking Kells off in the rap boy suit

I will----

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Sanji's Waist

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currently on the biggest narc kick because I guessed Em @ new album theme last week 😤😤😌😌

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scored the jacket

I'm also rocking my salt and pepper a lot better than the old man will let himself

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Kells thinking he missed his shot hehehe

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not dead yet.

just cooking

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oops I forgot I still have to post this 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️

better add a funny finish to it so yall can have some silly content

oh boy

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I’m not so new to emgk-fics, some have been quite good on here-(I’ve done likes on page for these) to some on AO3..

What I still feel I’ll never get over the most is that ppl love both guys together, like, music-wise before ship-wise; having ppl grow up an be civil and say ‘these are two cool artists to me, these are two similar/different ppl in life relations that can be understood��� is something that needs more attention..

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I'll say it a thousands times, there is no Fandom that I've been in that's more POSITIVE and like almost completely lacking in negativity/toxicity than the Emgk fandom

everyone in it genuinely just is a chill person who looks past the beef and enjoys both artists and supports them super hard.

the ship itself mostly a silly little joke that's evolved into a very fun outlet for alot of great people and I love that.

I always try to encourage people as much as I can that find their way over here to draw or write or just create in general because there's not a safer space to grow in imo. I've grown so much as an artist and a writer and I don't think I could or would have somewhere else. You're not gonna have ANYONE shoot you down here or smother your flame.

I also feel like compared to some Fandoms I've seen, our ship portion and xreader portion of em and Kells Fandoms are really chill together too. and I don't think that gets enough appreciation, cuz I've seen some people get nasty with eachother in other spaces.

at this point Kells and Em are kind like two quirky barbie dolls we communally pass around and then hype up whenever they drop an album and I love that. Idgaf if its weird.

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birthday tomorrow 🎉

Em should drop his album this Friday or show his fats tits as a gift