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after almost a year we got twooooo whole new pages for hickory and basil...... you should make a neocities and give me a follow! yay!

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my contribution 2 the world. an angsty ditty

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Cleaning out dad's apartment. In the bathroom. Picking up a dusty razor knocks a sample bottle of shampoo, some dental floss, and tweezers down from the shelf. So I close the door to the medicine cabinet, apartment open behind me, scouting ants marching to the kitchen from the hole in the door and I am, distantly, aware of mom asking you okay? but the name she says isn't mine and she doesn't know her own damn son sons son son daughter child children but how could she? And now it has been a few minutes and I am staring, left hand limp and right hand loosely holding the trash bag, and I do not know the aching thing looking back at me, this beautiful walking corpse who cannot possibly be me. I'm killing him. I'm killing him every second and I can't stop. I'm killing his father, too, ripping apart everything he ever was or could be even in the dust and cat piss.

He never blocked my number, you know. His last attempt at a text to me was March 31, 2024 — "Happy Easter!" He Is Risen, on Transgender Visibility Day, how strange. I wonder what it would be like if Jesus' father kept him entombed until he came back as something that could only live in the cave, bat-thing, cockroach, olm. But Yeshua, he made you live, did he not?

So I was thinking when I was younger — when he was, I mean, that thing in this reflection, here, now, his mother shaking his shoulder — he used to dream of being a bunny rabbit with a wolf sinking his teeth into his torso. "It hurts, but it's nice to give something." Well, now is the part to pack up the sheep's clothing and admit he grew up to cower in the corner and put his fingers between my fangs. And I am a tail-between-my-legs sick beast that will not bite down, cannot eat at all.

"His tweezers fell in the toilet," I tell her, and mama reaches her hand in the water and throws them into my garbage bag.

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once again this is about plurality i guess

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been not posting because i don't think what i make is any good, which is not very in line with my "make bad art" thing. so i'm posting what i think is the ugliest (visually and morally and personally) thing i've made in a while, which was a sort of journal entry from today.

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eden, nov 11th 🌟

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want to do another h&b page but i keep getting distracted looking at the one i just finished bc al is so hot its unreal and then i forget what im doing who i am and what year it is

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idk at what point i will call this thing finished but right now i just pull it out every couple of days to consider Textures. gesso and acrylic, broken tempered glass, my own hair, and other found materials pasted onto a cut up old sweatshirt 💌

[ID: four close up pictures of a mixed media painting made with the materials listed above. the result is an abstract mix of white and pastel colors (pinks, purples, blues, and yellows) with yellowish mounds of small glass pieces and some sections of hot pink. the hair and alternating fuzzy and ribbed textures of the sweater show through layers of thick paint.]

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accidentally dressed to match my current wip

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art fite revenge of @cottontailjump 's marjorie :3 u gotta go check out his stuff its soooo nice and awesome and interesting and

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Art fight attack of marjorie and the Child for @cottontailjump

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artfight attacks part 2, all revenges this time!

characters belong to @cottontailjump, @0046incognito (rose is mine), and ~nullb1rdie on AF respectively!

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I got sillyyyyyy and needle felted @mcnuggyy 's Hev !!! Maybe my favorite thing i've done for artfight teehee. they have a lil metal hook to turn into a charm!!

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more artfight attacks !! in order, characters belong to merlyn (ig link), @razzafrazzle (yeas i did another attack i was just Feelin It), weirdlookingmoth, and @spookyspacepixels

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the current plan is to do a bunch of artfight attacks using a 4K canvas and i'm hoping to post them all together at the end of the month......in the meantime here's one i did as a revenge attack for @acid-harbringer of xeir character eden 🌸

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MORE artfight attacks!! had to slow down a bit for Medical Reasons but im still trying to do at least one attack a day :o]

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No way i was just thinking abt u earlier bc i was listening to the cats obc album and i think i remember u were into cats i hope im not making this up. Do u have a favorite art medium to work with :3

martin my dear idk what is wrong with me that i forgot this in my askbox for weeks YOU DIDN'T MAKE IT UP..... i tend to talk abt new things as i'm into them it happens in cycles but everything i've ever loved infects me still OUUHH. cats... i should listen to the obc recording again <3

currently i'm having sososo much fun w digital drawing but actually i like working w found materials and also i kind of default to acrylic paint since i have so much of it that never seems to be used up and i have been ahving a great time with chalk pastels lately but that's not my favorite and paint feels different depending on what you paint on i like painting on random scraps and fabrics more than canvases also there's so many mediums i haven't tried how could i possibly know UM that doesn't answer the question at all does it.