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y’all theres hope, i binged yesterday and then today i hit my lowest weight :))

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just kidding i binged for the first time in a year, i’m trying to keep a positive mindset

i’m water fasting today cause i’m hosting a thanksgiving thing tomorrow, anyone have tips for me? for the fasting and for not eating that much then burning it off after?

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lmfao y’all be careful, this dude is preying on young anorexic girls

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i’m water fasting today cause i’m hosting a thanksgiving thing tomorrow, anyone have tips for me? for the fasting and for not eating that much then burning it off after?

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my hip bones are starting to show and it’s giving me so much motivation , i’ve only lost like 5 lbs !!!

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is it bad i look at girls my bf follows for thinspo?

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Me: I’m really hungry and I need energy for the day. Maybe I should eat someth-

My ed:

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posting older body checks again to make myself feel better and bc I kinda miss that weather (~42-43kg)

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imma do it. even if it takes lying to my family and depriving myself imma do it. when my mom asks why i’m not eating i’ll come up with something. i’ll tell her i’m not hungry. i’ll tell her i have a headache or a stomach ache. if she keeps insisting i’ll eat a cup of yoghurt. i’ll prevent binges by snacking on frozen peas. i’ll exercise. my thighs will become small enough to wear those shorts that my mom didn’t like because they were too tight and short. and those shorts will become like mom shorts. they’ll be big. and it’ll be cute. and when i go to the mall random guys will ask for my number and i’ll say no because i have my eyes on a now realistic prize, the boy i’ve only watched from afar at school. and i’ll be so pretty that i’ll get invited to parties. my life will be complete and i will be ok. i just have to get halfway there. if i can get halfway then i can do half of halfway. then half of that. it’ll happen

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me, being an amozanian

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@katuaandreeva is the ultimate goal .

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body check ♡

130lbs 58,9kg / 5’7 171cm/ bmi 20,14