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Abuse is NEVER Ok

Abuse is NEVER Ok

The one thing I have never been able to wrap my mind around is when someone says “he or she left me and I snapped and killed the love of my life.” For me if I do not want to be with you then I am going to say “this is no longer working for me and we need to move on.” If he tells me its over then I am throwing the deuce and walking away and never looking back. I have never understood teens/young…

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Never Change For Anyone

Never Change For Anyone

I was reading my scriptures this morning and something I read hit me in my soul, because I know about each of the the things scriptures are talking about. In the following I will explain exactly what I am talking about. It states that when life is all about us, we’re actually engaging in self-idolatry. I really never thought about it in this manner. Have you? Whenever, I am talking to him he…

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Today's me vs Yesterday's her

Today’s me vs Yesterday’s her

Do you ever just sit and look at yourself in the mirror? I do not mean to see if your hair is in place or make sure your make up is flawless. I am talking about using the mirror as a looking glass to see the past you and the current her? I am very true to my Gemini sign and I know that there is me and then there is Jade my twin. My mother once said to me “I love the daughter that I gave birth…

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The World of the Missing: Why Don't We Matter?

The World of the Missing: Why Don’t We Matter?

This is Daniel Robinson who went missing after leaving a work site in the desert in his Jeep Renegade on June 23. His father David Robinson has been looking for his son and has lost hope in the police. When we (People of Color) go missing we are not even a byline in the newspapers let alone a key story for the major news outlets. Why do People of Color not matter to you? As a mother twin 11 year…

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Easy On Me

I do not know if you have heard the new song by Adele Easy On Me. It is her first song since she came out with Hello. This song is about her choosing to be happy instead of being in marriage that she is not happy in and how this is going to change her son’s life. When I listen to the song it really resonates with me on every level. Have you have ever had this happen to you? You see I have been…

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The Past...Present...Future - With You

The Past…Present…Future – With You

I want to start a novel of sorts about two people finding each other and following their hearts, but at times they let your current situation and even their past pain deter them from opening their hearts to anyone. This is going to be my first and hopefully not my last attempt to write a BL story. I still need to come up the scene, characters, the plot, etc for the story. I am not sure that I…

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Until We Meet Again....

Until We Meet Again….

Again, i find myself alone and crying while watching a touching and loving BL called The Year Book. Just to tell you about a small part of it – it is about two friends that truly love each other.. then one moves to Bangkok because in his junior year of high school discovers he has bone cancer in his right arm. He does not talk to his friends for 4 years until he returns to home province and his…

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How Watching BL Dramas Are Making Me Better

How Watching BL Dramas Are Making Me Better

Let me just start by saying this is going to be long probably won’t make sense to most, but that’s ok. This is really for me to put my thoughts into words. I have been watching BL dramas for sometime now and each new drama puts me on a different roller coaster of emotions. My emotions can range from anger/hate to love. I watched one last night that put me in my feeling. It took back to my days…

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Time Travel

Last night after watching a episode of How Do You Play on Viki where Rain, Yoo Jae Suk and Hyo Lee where they recreated a Idol group form the 90’s called SSAK3. At the end of that show there were notes taped to the wall from their fans telling them they took them them back to a time where they (or their parents) were young, free and happy teens or young adults. It me cry and think what if I…

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Last Moments

Last moments are hard to endure I never wanted to be the one to in the room when my loved ones entered the upper chamber, but I was. I was in elementary school when my uncle died and I was in the hospital room holding his hand when. I was in Junior High/High School when Charlie B (otherwise known as my grandfather) past and I was in his room and I was there when my mother passed. I don’t why I…

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Time

As day turns into night and back into day time remains the same Time remains the same no matter if you love someone or hate them They say time waits for man, but have you watched how the time slows during the beginning of scene in a K-drama or romance movie slows down? Then it will pick up momentum in middle once the couple finds it groove and the time seems to pick and choose when it wants to…

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Self talk with the Devil Ever been in your room and just felt this presence or evil spirit that wasn’t there a moment ago? Well, I was getting ready for bed and its 0239 am here in the states. I was sitting on and my bed and (keep in mind its just me) and I could feel another person get in my bed. I kept looking back and no one is there and normally I would tell my Uncle Walter to stop playing…

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Stop Asian Hate

Ever since the Corona Virus hit there has been a rise against the elderly Asian community. Mr. Pak Ho was walking in his neighborhood when he was brutally attacked and later died from his injuries. Recently, an Asian grandmother fought off and attacker with a sticker and her family has set up an Gofundme to pay for her medical bills. Today, eight Asian women were murdered by one White gunman who…

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Let's Break Up

Let’s Break Up

This year started off decent I supposed. Then Corona hit like a hurricane that shut the world down in the blink of an eye. I have not watched the news in 16 years and this year is proof as why I stopped watching all news outlets.

Seeing cops kill Black/Brown and Indigenous men, women and kids for no reason, but the uprising of the “Karens” and “Kens” that think they are entitled to call the…

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Reflection

Over past few days I have spent time reflecting on my life. Where I went wrong in this life and what not. At the end of the day I wouldn’t change the path that I have been on because I have my kids, but I would have perhaps changed the people that  I have invited into my life because they do not nurture or care about the woman I am or could be. They only care about that this woman is not caring…

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When dealing with others (mainly women) we tend to run on emotions and in doing so that can lead to 1 or 2 things. One is being overly dramatic and not allowing you or your “sister” feel.  It is more about “Its my way or the highway girlfriend” type of mentality. Second, you just shrink away from it, walk away from the discussion (heated or not) and just let the cards fall they may.

When our egos (mixed with raw and pure emotions) you are not listening to yourself let alone the person your talking too. In that moment you can’t dial yourself back and let cooler heads prevail. I know that all too often this argument is not going anywhere productive and it can end friendships, break up families and civic organizations.  When your ego is bruised or plain old obliterated you really do not want deal with other person, but you have any kind of power at all you want to rule with an iron fist to get your way. How is that fair to the other person, yourself and your underlings? The honest answer it is not fair to anyone associated with you let alone fair to you the one arguing when you get shut down and cast out because the other person’s name, status, weight steps on you? What do you do or what should you do?

The only person that knows you better than you know yourself — is GOD. Since He is our creator, the author and finisher of our life story He is the only one able to guide us to the other side and while going through the storm (which may not be for you) you may lean, but you will never break. If before, during and after we seek Him then He is going to be there to help us, BUT we have to be still and know that He is God and he does not need our help.

Once you remove yourself and let calmer and cooler heads prevail then the path to forgiveness and for the sake of learning and moving on from the issue at hand is so much more peaceful and beneficial to all the parties involved.

So, to answer my earlier question YES I AM MY SISTER’S KEEPER! So are you

Sisterhood.. Am I My Sister’s Keeper? When dealing with others (mainly women) we tend to run on emotions and in doing so that can lead to 1 or 2 things.

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Adulting, Parenting, Cohabitation...Ain't Easy

Adulting, Parenting, Cohabitation…Ain’t Easy

It is really crazy to think back to when I was 11 or 12 I wanted to be 16 so that I can drive and hang out with my friends. Little did I know out off all the kids I knew only ONE would still be by my side 20+ years later. When I was 16 and working plus going to school I kept thinking man it would great to be 21 so that I could legally go to the clubs and drink. Guess who helped bring in my 21st…