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I dont have a lot to say today. I washed my hair, ate breakfast, and then napped the whole day away. I'm on the phone with my friends right now, we're talking abt some shit that happened yesterday. I'm finally coming off my period, and I might be getting my phone upgraded. It's been 3 years, and it's starting to glitch out. I have a droid, but its been very good to me. I'm gonna play some dti for a bit and then slump again. Adios!

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My parents don't respect me. I have decided to forgive and not lash out over things that went on, but it seems like they still don't respect me. For the longest time, I've been trying to apply for FAFSA and I need my parents to give me their information for it. My dad especially won't do it, and he's the main one telling me to not go to school. It feels like they hate me. No matter what I do or what I identify with, they always have a complaint. I'm now 19, and I look back at when I was 16-17. It seemed like I had everything figured out, but now things are way harder. Of course they are, I'm older, I don't have the same circumstances, and shitty politics made me rethink a lot about school. I want to go to an HBCU to feel safe while getting my degree, not have to worry about certain things yk. I wanna become a librarian, so I'm currently deciding on what I want to study for my bachelors. I'm stuck between poli sci, education, or communications. My mind is a mess right now and it's very obvious, I'm just gonna read some more and then sleep.

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I ended up slumping so hard when I got back home that I'm now typing this out in the early morning. My sister quit her job, so she wanted to take a celebration shot with me. Some other stuff happened as well, but im going to keep that off the internet. I need to wash my hair and apply for a couple more jobs today. I also need to clean more around my room, it's lowkey turning into a depression pit with my clothes scattered everywhere. I also need to finish my vision board for the next year's. I started on it, but I have been to preoccupied to finish it. Also, I don't think I'm going to pride this weekend, it's raining. Hopefully I can go to some sort of event. I just really want to experience the parades and socialize. Next weekend, me and my friends are going out clubbing with one of their boyfriends and his friends. I need to somehow find a way to get money in my pockets before then. I'm gonna finish things off here tho, gotta lock in to my bossa nova x manga combo! Good night.

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It was a really slow day. I was supposed to go to the gym in the morning, but my dog has been very unruly lately. I decided to stay home and take extra care of her, but she ended up getting into my room and ripping through my tea bags. It's my favorite tea, and I only drink it when I'm rlly craving it or a special event. It upset me a little bit, but its whatever. This brings me to a big change I need, a lock on my door. I'm 19, for goodness sake..and I don't have a lock on my door, and if u push on my door hard enough u can get in without turning the knob. Its not just about locks, I need to change the whole door. I'm just frustrated, and atp I need to find a way to do this on my own. I also just started my period, and my cravings are off the charts. I was dipping biscoff cookies into hazelnut spread earlier..good, but after a while it upset my stomach. I really want hot cheeto puffs, theyre put of stock everywhere I look..I want them so bad! I'm tired, I wanted this to be quick..but I started getting a bit off track. Anyways that's today's update! Goodnight.

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Okay, so let me do a recap of my day. I pulled an all-nighter, got ready for the day around 6am, and did some important tasks. I'm looking for work right now, it's just hard to stick positions right now. I just make sure to apply for at least 3 jobs a day. I also scheduled myself some medical appointments. I made appointments for the dentist, a general optometrist, and a psychiatrist. I really need another refill on my medication! I have narrowed down my medicine use to 2 as needed pills. One for sleep and one for general anxiety. Maybe I should talk a little more about that later on as well. Let me get back to how my day was, tho. After I set my appointments, I ate breakfast and took care of my dog for a couple of hours. My friend called and asked if I wanted to go to the beach, and so I put my dog in her crate and left out. It was really pretty out today, but the sand was too hot on my feet. Also, the ride home was so nice. I basically slumped once I got back, after eating like 5 oreos, and just now woke up. I watched reality TV edits on YouTube, and now I'm gonna play DTI with my friend. I just don't know what to eat. Maybe I should cook some pasta. This is the end of my update for today. Sorry if it was boring. Not really, tho, it's more for me than anyone else.

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Hello, this is my new blog. My first blog. I don't really know exactly what to say, but im gonna be using this as a venting channel. I'm gonna be very transparent, im so depressed rn..but maybe this will be a good outlet for things. I'll properly introduce myself later on, in another post, but for now I'll just talk abt what I plan to do on here. I'm gonna try and do daily updates, give myself something to look forward to everyday yk. I'll also vent, maybe post pics of my dog, talk abt music, and manga I read or am currently reading. I'm not expecting a response, i just want to have a place where I can document things ig. Anyways, pls treat me well tumblr dwellers. Istg I've only ever used this app for fanfic..so we'll see how this goes.