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UNFINISHED PHIS (I keep drawing things really small idk why)

AAAAAAA I AM LOSING MY MIND

I'm like procrastinating so hard I'm DYING I have an exam TOMORROW but my overconfidence won't let me even touch my notes

Like I'm okay with the basics ig of java, the thing is I'm a total noob when it comes to the systems part. It's an open book exam and that's also contributing to my not wanting to study rn.

Ive actually never written an open book exam before in my life I heard its trickier than the normal ones? IDK IM SCAAAAARED IM SCARED

IM LIKE RINNING OUT OF BREATH JUST THINKING ABOUT IT

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHJJJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHJHJJJJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Had to get it off of an Instagram highlight because my lovely 2021 self thought this cute ass drawing was shit and didn't deserve to be saved

I just want to know wtf is wrong with me? Its so fucking cute. Not perfect but the colours are so pretty. And I had the audacity to post this with a caption saying "CaN SoMEoNE teAcH me HOw tO drAw".

If a time machine existed I'd go back to that exact moment, break my nose and then come back.

Had a looong convo with a few friends and it was actually really nice. Its so weird because I get tired and feel drained even after 4 messages back and forth with people but this didn't feel that way at all.

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Eye infection

No thoughts

Looking up references for it gave me chills. I remember the pain very well.

Being able to see is such a gift. You truly will never understand just how important good vision is till you start losing it.

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its phos drawing from 2020 killlllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (image quality is vomit becos I don't have the actual drawing anymore and had to get it through other means)

I'm sick and tired of pretending like I don't like math I love it so so much. In the process of completing a worksheet rn and I am loving every second of it.

I don't understand people who refuse to pay attention and refuse to do their work but then complain about not doing well in class. I also don't understand people who just rely on others for notes. Its not quirky or cute lol. Just fucking do your work. Then there are people who get annoyed at YOU for doing things right and actually being passionate about what you're learning. Like fuck. Yk when you answer and ask questions in class, finish assigned work quickly, etc there'll always be some people who look annoyed at you? How is it my problem that you're lazy?

ALSO how people just write you off as just being 'smart' or a nerd but in reality we all have the potential to do well to an extent, they're just choosing not to try. I pester teachers with questions till I understand something, pay attention, take notes and I try not to write down anything I don't understand and pretend like I do. It's one thing if you try but you struggle because you still don't get it but if you're choosing to not care or try then you have absolutely no right to complain.

FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO CHEAT TOO. I GOT COMPARED TO A COUSIN WHO ADMITTED TO CHEATING IN EXAMS. SHE GOT ALL As AND A+ BUT I HAD A COUPLE OF Bs. HERE'S THE THING HAHAHAHA SHE'S A COMMERCE STUDENT AND I TOOK SCIENCE SO THATS AN EVEN BIGGER SLAP ON THE FACE

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Style experiment gone right except I can't draw like this anymore

Okay. A lot of the things that's generally considered rude really shouldn't be. For eg. leaving someone on seen, not replying to a text quickly or not replying to a text at all. Idk. Do you really do that out of malice? I mostly don't. I mean like I really don't see what the big deal is. The tone in which you reply too. Its like if you don't try to sound super friendly people automatically assume you don't like them or whatever. Like if you reply with just an "ok"/"okay" or a "yeah", it means you're being cold???? I feel like it just shouldn't mean anything. I do get why people take it that way, I've felt that way too actually now that I think about it. I realised it shouldn't mean anything.

Telling someone to not talk to you, wanting space, saying no to things shouldn't be considered rude too. I feel like it's stuff you just shouldn't mind. So what? Yk? who cares? Like genuinely. I think these things shouldn't be taken positively or negatively.

Will I wake up on time tomorrow

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Old phos drawing

"Why are you smiling? Are you texting ur bf;)" yeah I'm texting your dad

Wish people would stop

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Haven't read the manga or watched the anime in a while so I actually have no clue what's happening here but everyone else is drawing it so yah

Actually I think I kind of have an idea but I am choosing to believe its wrong

Uni started weeks ago and UGHHGHHSHHGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGHHHH people are already fighting in our gc

OH AND 12TH GRAFE MATH WE HAVE 12TH GRADE MATH Its pretty fun

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Unfinished Hnk fanart again

Who the fuck designed 🫣 it's the ugliest thing I've ever seen. For sure one of the top 5 most annoying emojis.

Wish I had more than 1 hobby

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Lulworth Cove. 2023

Oil on board.

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Dazai

Realized everything that comes out of my mouth is mostly negative. It's so hard not to be negative though.

And I hate coming off as negative for the sake of being negative but its so awkward to explain your reasonings. I also have trouble explaining things.

Anyways got into a fight with mom, physical violence was involved, it was directed at me first so I defended myself, if it was a number my self esteem would be negative

You don't automatically deserve respect just because you're older. You deserve respect because you're a living being sure but you're not getting anything special just because you're older.

Having kids should be banned

I'm never eating again becaus I want to starve

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Raughr

[Image description: two images of the same portrait Drawing of Laphos. Their head is split in half showing the gemstone inside. On the second picture, the gold alloy connects the two halves of the head together.]

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I didn't draw today ☹️

Accidentally said something to someone that might've came off as "yes I want to be friends and I'm down to hanging out tomorrow"

All the well wishes I keep getting is making me feel sick. I know "starting this new chapter of my life" as many people keep saying is supposed to be a good thing but I'm just not excited. I'm more nervous than anything. Feeling this way and then hearing people congratulate me feels weird.

Think I had way more to say but brain shut down for a bit

I can't sleep at all lmaoaoiooaooo losing it. Brain just keeps blah blah-ing

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kind of old redraw of a meme by dazaishitshispants123 on instagram bcuz it inspired me

(the jewellery and clothing in the ref was so detailed it was hard to draw :|)

I am about to make a huge mistake which might make me more sick and take away time with family who will be leaving soon but its part of what I planned for today

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First one is when I tries to get back into pixel art. Second one is just a js paint doodle.

How and why are people excited for uni to start? How have they already made friends? I think I'm gonna vomit just thinking about it.

Does anybody feel like you're betraying friends you already have when you're making new friends. I am aware of how stupid that sounds.

I feel like this is even more stupid because I think I'm a bit detached from the 3 friends I have too.

This is soooooo dumb and it's not as bad as I'm making it out to be but I just can't think about anything else.

I WILL DRAW TODAY

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Old drawings of an OC because I don't have anything else

Been sick. In all ways. I'm like sick B) but I'm also sick B'(

so on tiktok I saw these videos of women saying that found fucking huge ass worm sort of things from their vaginas and now if I feel anything my first thought is "A worm is gonna fall out"

Also heard your uterus can just fall out

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Salisbury Cathedral

Gouache on paper.

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Shin, this all the postable drawing I have rn 😭

Had so many plans but spent the day scrolling through fucking reels ☹️