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gonna be lurking on the dash for the night, but i’ll be active in messages &&. on discord for anyone looking to plot or listen to me talk my ear off about will graham.

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@ssolessurvivor​  asked  ..  “  when  was  the  last  time  you  slept ?  ” ASK  MEME  STATUS:  OPEN.

THE  DAYS  GO  BY  IN  STEADY  BLURS ,  WILL  UNABLE  TO  COMPREHEND  WHEN  ONE  STARTS  &  ONE  ENDS .   he  stands  with  his  hands  curled  into  fists  within  his  pockets ,  as  his  heart  beats  faster ,  faster  (  breathe ,  control  .. )  over  the  sound  of  the  air  conditioner’s  steady  whirr .  “ i  ..  don’t  know . ”  blinks  as  though  to  adjust ,  as  if  he’d  just  regained  consciousness  &.  the  words  he’d  said  were  spoken  by  a  distant  echo  within  himself .  “  36  hours  ago ,  give  or  take .  probably  more .  ”  he  swallows  audibly .  his  adam’s  apple  bobs .  “  i’ll  be  fine . ” unspoken;  i  am  fine .

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MORE QUESTION PROMPTS *  assorted questions, adjust as necessary

when were you going to tell me the truth about this?

there's another way to solve this, isn't there?

why did you pretend for so long?

could you just wait until i'm ready?

how long has this been going on?

do you think there's more out there?

were you really the person i thought you were?

how many times have i asked you to do this?

how long have you loved me?

you've known all along and you never told me?

how am i supposed to be normal about this?

did you ever think this could affect me, too?

how can you be so selfish?

when was the last time you slept?

you've done this before, haven't you?

what do you mean, you don't know?

do you believe in a higher power?

will you make me something?

why did you lie to me?

are you dressed?

will you please sit down for two seconds?

how can i make you understand?

how often does this happen?

is this a regular thing for you?

do you come here often?

mind if i buy you a drink?

did you ever consider it might hurt my feelings?

do you wanna get out of here?

why don't we find somewhere quiet?

do you need some help with that?

is that all you brought?

is it hard being this stupid?

do you think you could do that again?

when was the last time you were here?

did you hear what i said?

can i come in?

do you consider us friends?

why should i tell you anything?

did you go without me?

what if that was you?

do you think you'll ever trust me again?

do you realize how hard i've worked to get here?

why do you never consider my feelings?

do you think i should try again?

can you hold me for a while?

was that what you expected?

will you please put that away and pay attention?

what if there's no way out of this?

what if we're stuck here forever?

where did it all go wrong?

do you always act like this?

mind if i smoke?

would you shut the door on the way out?

how long did it take you to get here?

when was the last time someone made you feel truly loved?

are you sure you know what you're doing?

what if i mess this all up?

why do you need to know?

when did you stop loving me?

did you just wake up?

did you expect me to walk away?

did you hear that noise?

could you come pick me up?

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THE  WIND  BLOWS  OUTSIDE,  AND  WILL  GRAHAM  IS  NO  LONGER  ALONE .  

in  an  odd ,  funny  way  will  was  never  alone  ..  in  the  very  definition  he  accepts ,  his  existence  has ,  always  has ,  been  plagued  with  a  shadow  of  someone  else ,  SUSPENDED  ON  DUST .  outside ,  out  there ,  he  means ,   he  can  hear  the  wind  picking  up  intensity .  howls  like  a  wolf .  will  doesn’t  hear  her .

he  doesn’t  hear  her .

though  when  he  does ,  he  turns  and  he  offers  her  a  passing  glance ,  he  intends  to  convey  some  form  of  comfort ,  as  he  absently  works  on  the  engine ;  some  form  of  distraction .

⠀ ⠀⠀ “  hey ,  squirt .  ”

he  smiles .  he  does  this  time ,  flashes  a  canine  as  if  he  isn’t  used  to  the  idea  of  it  ..  as  though  he’d  learned  how  to  smile  through  watching  rabid  dogs  snarl .   “  it’s  getting  dark .  grab  the  flashlight  for  me ?  ”

⠀ ⠀❅ @criedstag gets a starter !

⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀she lingers in the doorway of the house, nails pressing half moons into the warmth of her palm. if she presses hard enough, the blood reminds her she's alive — despite what the recurring dreams keep trying to tell her. there is the distant sound of the dogs barking in the field behind the house, the buzzing from the cicadas drowning out the blood rushing in her ears. everything is so loud, too much all at once.

⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀will stay's perched on the floor with a boat engine, a plethora of tools laid out at his side as he works to bring the machine back to life. it reminds abigail of the days when she was younger and she'd hold the flashlight steady for him — it all feels so far away, slipping away through her fingertips like sand.

⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀❝ the nightmares have come back again . . . ❞

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IF   I   AM   THE   PHANTOM,   IT   IS   BECAUSE   MAN'S   HATRED   HAS   MADE   ME   SO.   IF   I   AM   TO   BE   SAVED   IT   IS   BECAUSE   YOUR   LOVE   REDEEMS   ME…   /    an   indie   phantom   of   the   opera   portrayal,   written   by   ash.

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# CRIEDSTAG ..  |    his learned values of 𝒅𝒆𝒄𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒚 and 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒕𝒚 tagged along, SHOCKED at his *  associations, 𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖉 at his dreams; sorry that in the bone arena of his skull there were ᶰᵒ ᶠᵒʳᵗˢ ᶠᵒʳ ʷʰᵃᵗ ʰᵉ ˡᵒᵛᵉᵈ .   psd,  icon  template ,  blog ,  carrd .

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IF   I   AM   THE   PHANTOM,   IT   IS   BECAUSE   MAN'S   HATRED   HAS   MADE   ME   SO.   IF   I   AM   TO   BE   SAVED   IT   IS   BECAUSE   YOUR   LOVE   REDEEMS   ME…   /    an   indie   phantom   of   the   opera   portrayal,   written   by   ash.

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.. heyyyyy guys! revamp is.. kind of incoming. ask box / IMs are open for plotting, previously reblogged ask memes are still active, etc etc. 

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Laini Taylor, Daughter of Smoke & Bone

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- Chad Abushanab, Roadkill Ode.

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the  intimacy  of  hands.

[ win ]  –  for the sender’s muse to place a hand on the receiver’s neck and rest their forehead against the receiver’s own for a close congrats or excitement at something. [ brush ]  –  for the sender’s muse to give the receiver’s muse a passing touch along the shoulder’s / back as they walk by. [ hold ]  –  for the sender’s muse to hold the receiver’s muse by the face / neck gently and brush their thumbs along their cheeks to get them to focus on them. [ passing confidence ]  –  for the sender’s muse brush their finger’s against the receiver’s muse’s hand, too scared to hold their hand. [ intertwine ]  –  for the sender’s muse to intertwine their finger’s the receiver’s muse and kiss the back of their hand. [ intertwine & kiss ]  –  for the sender’s muse to intertwine their finger’s the receiver’s muse and kiss the back of their hand. [ intertwine & hold ]  –  for the sender’s muse to intertwine their finger’s the receiver’s muse and hold them during an emotional moment to reassure them. [ wrap ]  –  for the sender’s muse to casually wrap their arms around the receiver’s neck and lean on their shoulder from behind. [ palm kiss ]  –  for the sender’s muse to kiss the palm of receiver’s hand. [ hand kiss ]  –  for the sender’s muse to kiss the back of the receiver’s hand. [ lay ]  –  for the sender’s muse to lay next to the receiver and lay their hand in the receiver muses’ hand. [ reassure ]  –  for the sender’s muse to place their hand over the receiver’s in a moment of stress and squeeze reassuringly. [ squeeze ]  –  for the sender’s muse to place their hands on the receiver’s shoulders from behind, and offer a reassuring / affirming squeeze before moving on. [ pluck ]  –  for the sender to pluck a foreign object ( twig / leaf / etc. ) out of the receiver muses’ hair. [ play ]  –  for the sender’s muse to run their hand up the receiver’s shoulder and play with the hair at the base of their neck as a means of comfort. [ rub ]  –  for the sender muse to rub up and down the receiver’s back / shoulder as a means of comfort. [ shoulder ]  –  for the sender’s muse to place a hand on the receiver’s shoulder to comfort them, or stop them. [ hug ]  –  for the sender’s muse to drag the receiver’s muse into a tight hug by the back of the neck, and play with their hair at the base of their neck in order to comfort them. [ shock ]  –  for the sender to recoil a bit in shock at how quick the receiver latches onto them in a moment of high emotion, before returning the affections. [ cup ]  –  for the sender’s muse to cup the receiver’s face, and brush their thumb along the receiver’s cheek. [ hair ]  –  for the sender to brush a strand of hair out of the receiver’s face. [ hair & lean ]  –  for the sender to brush a strand of hair out of the face, and lean in slowly for a kiss. [ cup & kiss ]  –  for the sender’s muse to cup the receiver muses’ face during an incredibly passionate and long overdue kiss. [ what a rush ]  –  for the long long overdue kiss to end, only for the sender to rest their head on the receiver’s, and comment “do you know how long I’ve wanted to do that?” [ no tears ]  –  for the sender to cup the receiver’s face and brush away their tears with their thumbs. [ no tears & kiss ]  –  for the sender to cup the receiver’s face and brush away their tears with their thumbs & kiss the receiver’s forehead. [ stumble ]  –  for the sender’s muse to catch and help the receiver’s muse keep balance. [ shudder ]  –  for the sender to shudder a little at some gentle touch from the receiver. [ nononono! ]  –  for the sender to hold the receiver’s head / face while they’re injured, brush their thumb along their cheeks & refuse to accept that the receiver is dying. [ acceptance ]  –  for the sender & receiver to sit / lay somewhere in acceptance of their ends together. in a final act of closeness, the sender places their hand in the receiver’s own.

[ prompt ] + reverse  –  to reverse any of the prompts !

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Hannibal 3x06 - “Dolce”

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SENTENCE     STARTERS     BASED     ON     THE     ALBUM     “     PUNISHER     ”     BY     PHOEBE     BRIDGERS     PART     1  :

GARDEN SONG

“ someday i’m gonna live in your house ”

“ you should see it , i mean thousands ”

“ i grew up here , ‘til it all went up in flames ”

“ i don’t know when you got taller ”

“  when i grow up , i’m gonna look up from my phone and see my life ”

“ you touch my leg and i insist - but i wake up before we do it ”

“ you don’t have to know that it’s haunted ”

“ i get everything i want ”

“ i have everything i wanted ”

KYOTO

“ i wanted to go , but i didn’t ”

“ i gonna kill you , if you don’t beat me to it ”

“ i wanted to see the world , then i flew over the ocean and i changed my mind ”

“ he said you called on his birthday , were off by like ten days ”

“ you get a few points for trying ”

“ i don’t forgive you ”

“ i don’t forgive you but please don’t hold me to it ”

“ i wanted to see the world through your eyes until it happened ”

“ guess i lied ”

“ i’m a liar who lies ”

PUNISHER

“ i love a good place to hide in plain sight ”

“ what if i told you i feel like i know you , but we never met ”

“ everyone knows you’re the way to my heart ”

“ i wish i could say the same ”

“ i swear i’m not angry , that’s just my face ”

“ either i’m careless or i want to get caught ”

“ it’s for the best ”

“ even if i could , wouldn’t know where to start , wouldn’t know when to stop ”

 HALLOWEEN

“ sick of the questions i keep asking you , they make you live in the past ”

“ i can count on you to tell me the truth when you’ve been drinking ”

“ we can be anything ”

“ always surprised by what i do for love ”

“ there’s a last time for everything ”

“ i’ll be whatever you want ”

CHINESE SATELLITE 

“  i’ve been running around in circles pretending to be myself ”

“ why would somebody do this on purpose ”

“ hum along ‘til the feelings gone forever ”

“ i wished hard on a chinese satellite ”

“ i want to believe , instead i look at the sky and i feel nothing ”

“ you know i hate to be alone ”

“ i want to be wrong ”

“ but you know i’d stand on the corner , embarrassed with a picket sign if it meant i could see you when i die ”

“ sometimes when i can’t sleep , it’s just a matter of time before i’m hearing things ”

“ swore i could feel you throw the walls , but that’s impossible ”

“ i want to go home ”

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20     ACTION     STARTERS          -          FEEL     FREE     TO     ADD     (     +     REVERSE     )     TO     SWITCH     DIRECTIONS

(     hit     )  :          for     sender     to     hit     receiver     across     the     face

(     behind     )  :          for     sender     to     hug     receiver     from     behind

(     excuse     )  :          for     sender     to     grab     receiver     by     the     wrist     to     sneak     them     away     from     an     event

(     hide     )  :          for     sender     to     find     receiver     hiding     from     them

(     forehead     )  :          for     sender     to     gently     kiss     receiver     on     the     forehead     

(     yell     )  :          for     sender     to     yell     obscenities     at     the     receiver

(     shoulder     )  :          for     sender     to     give     the     receiver     a     reassuring     squeeze     on     the     shoulder

(     shove     )  :          for     sender     to     shove     receiver     out     of     anger

(     hold     )  :          for     sender     to     hold     the     receiver     while     they     cry

(     promise     )  :          for     sender     to     pinky     promise     something     to     receiver

(     fire     )  :          for     sender     to     harm     receiver     in     friendly     fire

(     confess     )  :          for     sender     to     tell     a     secret     to     receiver          /          feel     free     to     specify     secret

(     offer     )  :          for     sender     to     offer     a     gift     to     receiver     in     apologies

(     wash     )  :          for     sender     to     wash     blood     off     of     receiver

(     meal     )  :          for     sender     to     cook     receiver     a     homemade     meal

(     peck     )  :          for     sender     to     give     receiver     a     quick     &     spontaneous     kiss

(     stay     )  :          for     sender     to     prevent     receiver     from     leaving  ,          either     from     anger     or     care

(     pressure     )  :          for     sender     to     try     &     pressure     a     secret     out     of     receiver

(     rain     )  :          for     sender     let     receiver     in     from     a     storm     outside

(     hate     )  :          for     sender     to     tell     receiver     they     hate     them

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I step outside myself, out of my eyes, hands, mouth, outside of myself I step, a bundle of goodness and godliness that must make good this devilry that has happened

Ingeborg Bachmann, I step out of myself

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Hannibal 1x04 - “Œuf”

Making you human sausage and eggs that looks like a smiley face #just cannibal dad things

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Marguerite Duras