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purrs at you ^_^

My puppy!

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I got a notification and I rushed to your page,,, im so happy you're back, dad ^^

-🎐

I'm happy to be back. I've missed having you in my inbox.

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Hi, all. Papa's home.

Finals have wrapped up well, so I've returned. Send me welcome back messages?

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ahhh I found you off reddit (you got posted on r/fdc sadly) and I love your blog :33

im too shy to actually comment, so I hope I can use this medium to muster up enough courage

-🎐

Breaking hiatus just this once out of sheer curiosity — if anyone could link the post, I'd be forever grateful. I'd love to see.

As for you, little one, I'm flattered by your admiration. I hope to chat with you personally someday.

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Hello — I've mentioned this in private, but I wanted to make a post about this, too. I'm going on a social media hiatus until my finals finish up. I'll see you kids in a couple of weeks. Don't miss me too much.

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uhmmmm id let you mentally destroy me and fuck with my progs n stuff ^_^ okay bai

What a sweet sentiment, little thing. Always the messages I enjoy receiving the most. ♡

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I just wanna be controlled >...< Be hurt, controlled, used and programmed to do as you say. I don't mind what you do or how you do it.. I just need to be hurt!! Im a lil bunny who needs it...

-Vegas ( @thesoftestvictim )

Poor bunny. It must be hard not having anyone to hurt you the way you need. I can make that allll better if you'll let me.

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the thought of programming freaks me out but im curious about it still. I can’t help but want to understand it even though I’m sure i haven’t experienced it (atleast not purposefully if that’s even possible.) My head hurts but i just want to learn more. I want to know if it could help in some way.

i guess i should claim an emoji?

-🕊️

I think that's such a sweet approach. Programming is a topic heavy enough that it's common that thinking too much about it can bring on a fear response — but doesn't that just make it all the more interesting?

If you're interested in pursuing that wonder, I'd be happy to help you explore that curiosity. I'm not scary. Not unless you'd like me to be.

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would u be interested in programming a. not programmed system. were tris plural. less to more, would that be cool. im sorry idk you can kill me

@n3crophage

I'd certainly be interested. I don't discriminate between subjects — we can experiment together. You're welcome to reach out; my DMs are always open.

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Putting my paws on your blog to claim it as mine ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) - 🐾

Hii, little one! <3

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my fave fruits are strawberries!!!!!!!! im good :3

its night for me rn... im abt to take my meds!!!

-🐶🫧

So sweet — it seems fitting for you. I hope you're having a restful evening tonight. Go take your meds, kiddo.

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haiii again :3

hruu whatd you have for breakfast :3

-🐶🫧

I'm so late to this — I actually meant to get back after I ate breakfast, but it ended up being much later than intended today. I got a late start, so I just had some assorted fruit for breakfast. Bananas and blackberries, some of my favorites. I hope you're well today, little puppy.

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There's no form of intimacy quite like traumatizing someone. There's no form of devotion quite like fear.

Fear and adoration should go hand in hand, ideally — the only proof of loyalty I need from a subject is the offering of vulnerability. Telling me your traumas, your triggers, scarring yourself for me, willingly handing over blackmail. All of these things you can't take back. That's the truest show of trust that one can offer, I think — allowing me to exploit you and trusting that I'll handle the responsibility perfectly — just the thought of having that trust from someone never fails to get me all hot and bothered.

Following my orders with shaking hands, frantic apologies when you've messed up, pleading for mercy, heart rate picking up so much that you hyperventilate when you hear my name. That's what love is.

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Have you ever tried to program a pre-existing system? Like a "fully fledged" one?

One with no pre-existing programming? I haven't, but it's a thought I'm interested in entertaining.

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Hihihihi papa!! I see youre interested in programming people,,, /pos

@thesoftestvictim

Hi, kiddo. I am. Sounds like someone's interested? Tell me more.

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i love you dad!!!

-your puppy ;3

Hii, puppy! Dad loves you, too.

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Heyyyyyy

Do you mind sharing more about how you got into your interest in programming people and what exactly about it excites you?

And calling someone "my abuser" sounds so funny since that would be so weird and concerning for people not knowing what you mean by that.

I've always had a desire for control over people and assumed the position of community and club leaders, a controlling presence, a fatherly influence to my friends, the like.

While it stops there in many cases, if I grow very fond of someone, the degree of control, praise, and devotion I would want from them only became more intense. It eventually progressed into a desire for conabuse, which I indulged in on rare occasions happily for a couple of years. Eventually it progressed to urges like pavlovian conditioning, mind control, and I realized my fascination with programming had progressed from a clinical urge to understand my own trauma to a sort of longing to be on the other end in a less harmful environment, where I could make a willing miserable, hurt, or even just unfulfilled subject happy by having complete and total control over their identity, thoughts, actions, and mind.

Tl;dr, Control, devotion, vulnerability, and trust.