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I don't regret you but sometimes I wish I had walked away at the start and left things at hello. Because I rearranged my life to fit into yours and that's where I went wrong. Now I have to rearrange my life again and find a new future without you. And that's the hardest part of losing you.

-Sleepless thoughts, Chelsea MT

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sigh

So I am just sitting here unkissed and uncuddled, the audacity of life

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She's just like me ✨✨

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shoutout to my sensitive bitches we out here crying !!! weep girl weep

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I think that fact that those small round donuts are called munchkins is the cutest thing ever

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just finished the Song of Achilles and i am ruined 

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the thing about me watching movies and shows/series is that i would pick up little things from it. anything, unconsciously. the dialogue, the feeling of a scene, my interpretation of it, the emotions i felt watching it, how deep it hit me. literally, anything.

i see that as some sort of a guide, maybe even a lesson on how life works. i don't really take advices and i feel like what i got from those are good enough things to fill in to that.

like sometimes i'd come up with a good phrase to comfort myself about something and i didn't realize it was from a movie i watched 3 years ago until i rewatch it again. like those things i got is part of me now.

i just love movies and shows/series and getting to know new things, that's all.

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i long for a love that seems unreal

one you would see in movies ,

or read in a book

the one where they kiss under the stars

and talk about the future

a love that just feels like a promise forever

one that doesn’t scare me or make me wonder if i’m missing something

a love that makes life worth living :))

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I just want to dance with somebody

✨✨ like in dirty dancing✨✨

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I'm only looking just to live through you vicariously

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Yes I only log into this account from obsession to obsession, reblog a bunch of gifs of my new otp then leave for a year

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the first nick jess kiss is............ like never been done before outstanding sexy a slow burn romance for the ages are you kidding me. being forced to kiss by way of true american???? and he says “not like this”??????? and then kisses her later because hes been thinking about it since then??????????? im sorry for posting about new girl im just not doing well

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Where do I see myself in 5 years? Well, I don’t know if you’ve seen Barbie and the Diamond Castle, but-

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I think part of the reason why we feel so sad is that we're too far away from raw, numinous experiences. Like you know that post with a picture of the unpolluted night sky where people are reacting in terrified awe not realizing that's what the stars really look like?

I think it's like. You need vivid experiences that can't be easily repeated. You need elemental things. I don't mean this in a crunchy hippie just-try-yoga way I mean this in a way that's like...we're inside all the time and most things we experience are scheduled ahead of time. When there are sidewalks, we follow them, and there's always some boring place to go. You need things that no one has any control over and that no one can sell for money.

You need to be outside in a storm and see lightning strike very close to you. You need to meet a wild creature and have to stand very still and almost not even breathe and watch before it vanishes. You need to be alone somewhere very big. You need to go to a place because it looks interesting and be at the wrong place at the wrong time. You need to climb over a fence instead of going in by the gate. You need to hear the exploding sound of a huge flock of birds flying. You need to watch live theater performed by kids on a low budget. You need to be lost somewhere. You need to be barefoot somewhere. You need to sing with other people who are singing. You need to get soaking wet with all of your clothes on and come inside shivering.

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its November you know what that means

Ariana Grande’s Christmas and chill is on repeat

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I don’t regret us but I wouldn’t do it again.

Unknown (via thoughtkick)

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A happy house is all I need in life. Where there are songs, warm conversations, and soul cuddles. Where the sun rises in the smile of the people I love which are my east. I need trees outside where we can rest in the grass for a little while during chilly autumn afternoons and laugh about how there are so many poems about the moon, and maybe tonight she might begin laughing too. I need dogs without leashes and stars with a thousand wishes, and I wish for the good health of my family and friends, and my prayer every nightfall is for their melody and wellness. I’m glad that the souls surrounding me in the present are kind, blissful, and nurturing. I’m grateful that the souls I care for are the places I call my home. For where peace is found, there is love.

Juansen Ryne Dizon, Settlement  (via juansendizon)