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snzzz... 🦊💤

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andrew minyard

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me going to bed tonight

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why do I seem to need to? || tsc chapter 6

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"I could be really brash and really loud and really dressed however I wanted to and almost made [Chappell] on purpose a drag version of myself so I can be whatever I want. It allows me to feel really safe exploring those aspects of myself. I’d never be able to do that if I took myself super seriously with pop. I think that the project has allowed me to be a part of the queer community in a deeper way because I'm not observing from the outside anymore. I feel like I'm in it. I am the queer community–it's allowed me to just feel queer, feel like a queer person and feel freedom in that."

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let them smooch!! 

((neil is bending his knees a lil so andrew can reach🙏🏻🙏🏻)

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ronan lynch

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there are so many books in this beautiful world. many of them bad

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doodle time

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jean moreau

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ah so I see we’re all mentally ill

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kevin day has done nothing but serve cunt and be iconic his entire life

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The monsters have their priorities straight

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neil josten ordering two thai iced teas and a mafia hit on the same page. he is god's perfect babygirl.

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yeah so i did in fact read tsc so. get ready for that all the people who came after my aftg phase i fear we may be dawning on a new, worse era

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listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

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I’ve been thinking about you a whole heap today. Was thinking about watching crappy TV with you on a Friday night. Eating take-away on your sofa. Watching old episodes of Top of the Pops from before I was born.