crystalblut

[crystalblut]

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I’m not really active on here anymore as most of you might have realized.

I realized a big factor at play why I was struggling so much with doing tumblr rp is that I found out I have ADHD and autism , yay! 

But I’ve thought long and hard about this and I don’t think I will be returning to rping on tumblr at all , it’s really hard for me to do and I will mostly focus on doing RP either Ingame or trough discord.

That means: I’m turning this blog into a more screenshot , take all blog for Alz and my other ff14 OC’S in general. 

I’m also mostly active on my same named twitter.

Unless you are interested in me posting my shit ton of screenshots and other things please unfollow me , since Im not rping on this anymore! This post will be rted multiple times so It hopefully reaches most people that are still active.

 Thanks for listening in!

[crystalblut]

ɪɴꜰᴏ:

I’m not really active on here anymore as most of you might have realized.

I realized a big factor at play why I was struggling so much with doing tumblr rp is that I found out I have ADHD and autism , yay! 

But I’ve thought long and hard about this and I don’t think I will be returning to rping on tumblr at all , it’s really hard for me to do and I will mostly focus on doing RP either Ingame or trough discord.

That means: I’m turning this blog into a more screenshot , take all blog for Alz and my other ff14 OC’S in general. 

I’m also mostly active on my same named twitter.

Unless you are interested in me posting my shit ton of screenshots and other things please unfollow me , since Im not rping on this anymore! This post will be rted multiple times so It hopefully reaches most people that are still active.

 Thanks for listening in!

[crystalblut]

ɪɴꜰᴏ:

I’m not really active on here anymore as most of you might have realized.

I realized a big factor at play why I was struggling so much with doing tumblr rp is that I found out I have ADHD and autism , yay! 

But I've thought long and hard about this and I don't think I will be returning to rping on tumblr at all , it’s really hard for me to do and I will mostly focus on doing RP either Ingame or trough discord.

That means: I’m turning this blog into a more screenshot , take all blog for Alz and my other ff14 OC’S in general. 

I'm also mostly active on my same named twitter.

Unless you are interested in me posting my shit ton of screenshots and other things please unfollow me , since Im not rping on this anymore! This post will be rted multiple times so It hopefully reaches most people that are still active.

 Thanks for listening in!

[crystalblut]

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[crystalblut]

Seems like everyone,  just smile staring at the sun.

 But what about me?  Tell me how I will know where I should go?

- Gales of Song [ Belle ]

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rotating them in my head

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FEB[HYUR]ARY 2022

DAY 27 : NEW [feat. Vero & Ser Rat @crystalblut ]

Ruran newest friends, after a meeting in Qarn: a fellow masked man with a penchant for teasing, and his curious little rat.

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✎ DONT HIT ME

;; @crystalblut NEVER !! I LOVE ALZ !!!

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Screenshot redraw of Alz of that one HW Ardbert scene .

... about Ardbert and the WoL having things in common? yeah :)

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working on a scar mod for alz ---

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ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ᴘᴀᴛʜ ʟɪᴇꜱ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ.

private. selective. multimuse for different ffxiv ocs. 

penned & loved by nero.

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...speaking of dads. Alzs dad! Tyras Sayf :)

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// ahh im so obsessed with my other wol oc that im legit thinking about making her a Blog but since she's just... A shard or a ff14 Version of my fandomless Main oc Id feel bad making another Blog - and im so bad with activity with my adhd hhhh... But Artemis my beloved.... I just want to be a nuisance

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“...there is an imposter among us.”

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(     @crystalblut​​​​​​     )     no  prompt,     always  accepting    :          →           “ Remember your promise. ”

A reflection of cataclysmic end,  bathed in the moonglow of wildfire.  He rests his hands to the soft wood of his desk,  fingertips stained in the poppy ink of bloodstain,  and through the haze of unrelenting weariness shutters a breath through barely parted lips.  He’s tired;  so,  wretchedly tired.  Will it be another night of violence for them?  Beasts at the fang,  to fight over a hazy future that may or may not come to pass.

(  Etheirys is a reflection within a reflection;  an image suspended in time,  like a sky full of stars,  like a corpse hanging limp from a hangman’s noose  ).

Leaving,  he delivers.  The last cut upon his tired body.  Esteemed speaker of the convocation,  the great and noble Lahabrea whomst will deliver their star from its wretched fate,  scarcely reacts.  He turns his head to stare out the window,  at the high and clear sky beyond  –  dusk,  now.  He had hardly even noticed the day go behind.  Blackened fingers rub along his jaw,  the ache of his neck.  An aetheric exhaustion that goes beyond physical form.

There are questions on his tongue.  Demands and harsh words and hate,  and worse still,  the adoration still twisted into all that.  If not for his pride,  perhaps he’d find himself on his knees pleading for mercy.  Stay with me.  I do not think we’ll make it,  Apollo.  I feel the end,  like a certainty,  like something that haunts my dreams  –  a sky of darkness,  the world on fire.  Instead,  he clings to his silence,  to the enveloping safety of his own distance.  Floating,  numb,  where the pain cannot hope to reach him.  They dangle on the edge of his own inaction,  until he blinks hazily,  carmine cutting clear through the divide to look.  Commit to memory the last moments of their wretched wedding.

“  I couldn’t hope to forget.  “  He answers,  finally,  through a voice gone rough and tired with long disuse.  He wants little more than to beg.  For what?  Warmth,  or comfort,  or a hand in his own.  Loyalty.  But he will not be a dog salivating at scraps  (  they will survive this;  they will survive this;  he will will it  ).  “  What else would you have of me?  “

A last ditch effort.  Desperation,  a clear reed through the biting thinness of his own pride.  He runs a hand through tallow hair,  long mussed by similar movements,  and closes his eyes.  There is no answer but the finally clicking of the door shut.  The steadfast violence of nothing,  and a promise at the long end of winding tunnel.

I will find my way back to you.

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❛  if you keep looking at me like that, i’m not responsible for what happens next.  ❜ (ACCIDENTALLY UNFOLLOWED WHILE SENDING THIS ACCEPT MY HORNY APOLOGY)

Eyes widen, gaze of white and aquamarine that have been drawn to the other. The longest time, glances at first - who could not? Fellow friend, companion. A Man he could rely upon to have his back no matter what, a thread of red fate connecting.

He finds himself, watching more. And more. Admiration, out of kindness. Lies he tells himself. Thoughts drift, impossible to be contained ere longer. Do they truly need words when all his Intentions are so clearly laid out to the other hero. The mage had always been so, dreaming of love - wanting, craving a connection deep that would leave his hurting lonely soul healing.

" How could I not look upon you like this? You make it impossible."