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me when the character has a uniquely fucked mindset. me when the character's fundamental views of how the world works lead to them being hurt and/or hurting others and not seeing the problem with this. me when the character is a little freak who does weird shit because their beliefs, inspired entirely by their environment, are fuckeddddd

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What the fuck, NaNo???????

this is a long post, buckle up.

Okay, if you haven't heard anything about NaNoWriMo's statement about the use of AI in writing, I am both jealous of you and here to ruin that for you.

The folks over at National Novel Writing Month have released a statement (which you can read here) that explicitly says that being Anti-genAI is classist and ableist. My gut reaction is that this is a fucking asinine take -- poor and disabled people have been writing for longer than we've even had the electricity that powers AI -- but the more I think about it, the angrier I get about the anti-community sentiment that they seem to be pushing.

The claims that are made in this statement are either non-issues or something that AI does not actually fix. Yeah, not everyone can afford to hire an editor, but that is a large part of why writing communities exist both in-person and online. Exchange works with a friend and help each other out, find a discord server and ask there. Make use of a writing community. The same thing applies to ableism; Yeah, we all have different abilities and not everyone can "see" what might need improvement. So you share your work with another writer and get feedback from your community. Writing is a skill that needs to be honed and in order to do that, you have to be okay with being bad at it sometimes.

I'm not even sure I can say much about their "General access" paragraph because, like... AI is not going to fix the systemic issues with the publishing industry. It just won't. That entire paragraph gets half-way to a point and then falls on its ass into the void.

As if I wasn't angry enough, NaNoWriMo edited the statement about 8 hours ago to say "Note: we have edited this post by adding this paragraph to reflect our acknowledgment that there are bad actors in the AI space who are doing harm to writers and who are acting unethically."

This makes me want to throw my computer out a fucking window. Using AI in writing or any other art is inherently unethical because the language models being used are trained on works by people who did not consent to their work being used to train said AI. It is theft. It is plagiarism. Plain and simple. Chat-GPT was trained using the entirety of the New York Times archive, so when you use Chat-GPT, what it produces is based off of the work of NYT journalists (read about the resulting lawsuit here). It's not that there are "bad actors", the programs themselves are built on stealing writing. We've known this for what feels like ages now. This is such a bullshit edit and a fucking sad attempt at saving their asses.

I am someone that doesn't even use Grammarly anymore because they literally market themselves as an AI writing assistant and I'm not willing to risk my entire degree for an application that can't even handle vernacular and dialect and makes mid suggestions at best. Genuinely fuck off and block me if you support the use of AI in writing. Also, my block button is rated E for Everyone and I will use it liberally if anyone comes into my notes supporting genAI. Unless I am feel particularly combative, then you will feel the full weight of my academic and creative integrity. You have been warned.

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make sure to delete your nanowrimo accounts

(context: nanowrimo's statement on use of ai and calling the argument against ai "classist and ableist")

(additional context: nanowrimo is being sponsored by a ai company this year)

EDIT: someone in the comments has told me that apparently nano does not have you enter actual words-- regardless deleting is still the best course of action!

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having one of those executive function days where everything is too many steps

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*this can mean tuition fees** and/or general living costs while enrolled full time in courses

**if you had/have a scholarship that helps pay tuition fees, vote based on how they help with living costs

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Another thing I was thinking about re: that HRT post

I saw a lot in online trans groups where people would get blood test results back from a doctor (who didn’t go through and explain to them what was going on well enough) and they would be confused about reading the results because of how they are coded in patient portals sometimes

So like if you’re on testosterone HRT for example they are likely to give standardized “normal ranges” for various things that are the “female normal ranges” and then put a little automated alert on them when they’re outside of that range. So you might not be prepared to interpret everything correctly on the summary page if you don’t know the specifics of this. Like you look and you’re like aaaa it says my ___ levels are off, but they actually aren’t.

And that’s not just hormone levels, it can also do that with your hematocrit etc. Once I asked my endocrinologist whether my red blood cells were starting to get too high because they were showing up as slightly elevated (and that’s a not uncommon effect) and he was like no, that’s still actually in the totally normal male range where the upper end is a few percentage points higher, it’s just not obvious that those ranges are different in the way they present the information on the portal. Because they don’t give both for comparison, they tend to hide the ranges that are deemed not applicable based on how you are in the database for insurance coding. It’s annoying!

Really really wish everyone had access to competent medical care because there’s no reason why people should not have access to confirmation that they are on the best dose for their body. It’s crazy that people without access to a competent endocrinologist or doctor trained properly in trans healthcare are left to guess. It shouldn’t be this way. I totally get why people have to DIY, it just upsets me that this is the case (even with people who are going through doctors btw, they don’t all know what they are doing.)

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[Greek Mythology setting]

Party has infiltrated a winery that is distributing poisoned wine throughout the land. They come across a cultist on their own and begin interrogating them.

Tiefling Hecate Warlock: So you admit you’ve been selling tainted wine that makes people go crazy?

Dionysus Cultist NPC: Why, yes. We spread wine and madness in the worship of our god. How do you worship your gods?

Paladin of Ares, tired of this crap: Like this! *one-shots the cultist*

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start over as many times as you need to

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Trying to look at the news during the Olympic Games is an actual nightmare because it always looks like this

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I'm sorry but I have one draft that I never finished but I laugh every time I see it

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03.06.2024 [😚]

📇: 카페 가고 공부하고/ Every day goes by the same way

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this blog is actually me dissecting my own corpse in an anatomical theater and you are all standing up on the rows looking down at me cheering and booing 

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Managed to pull a 94% on my chemistry midterm!!!