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Okay alright happy day of your birth yahoooey, EACH DAY CLOSER TO uhhh, I don't know NOW YOU'RE 15 HOW GREAT I like to say fifteen in case you didn't know, it sounds funny because it doesn't sound like five at all CONGRATULATIONS AND ILL GIVE YOU A CAT here

I THOUGHT I ANSWERED THIS EALIER THANK UUUUUU <333333333333333333 XOXOXOXOOXOXOOOOXOOXOXOO AAAAAAAAAAA

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God granted me with a weekend and two snow days worth of time to finish my many schoolworks and i have forsaken Him. i’m totally screwed now 😞

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i think what fucks me up the most about the last two chapters of blood meridian is how much focus they put on the kid. being a kid.

like there’s the whole scene with the judge in the prison where there’s only those metal bars between them and he’s just grabbing at him and it’s so horrific when you remember all the children he already hurt along the way and you can only imagine what he’d do to the kid who is. a kid. a kid just like the other kids who he hurt and killed

and then there’s everyone pitying him and showing him so much kindness in San Diego because they realise how young he is. the doctor ensuring he sobers up and giving him the operation that saves his life. the prison guards releasing him despite it being said he would be hung.

and then after the time skip, he runs into a kid of 15, just like he was, and kills him. and all at once you realise how cruel this world is even to children and you realise what the kid could have ended up like and it’s just !!!

all the focus on the childhood innocence he never got to have but still lost and still misses. the innocence he never knew but the one he longs for. the innocence that tobin tried to give him a shred of, dying for it

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started reading cuz the kid is my age, once i’m done i’ll do designs for some of the other characters and maybe colour these in

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If you don't mind it, can I ask when its yourr birthday??

And here's a photo of my scared cat

my birthday is 2day! :3 (ur kitty is precious btw omgg best gift evwr😭💕💕)

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happy early birthday!!! :D

aaaa thank you!!! 🤭🤭💕

have a gif of this happy kitty !

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none of the above !!! i think he only ever hums it subconsciously, like if he’s reading or whatnot. it doesn’t matter who he’s around, he won’t even notice himself humming it

*No, I hope he never does. There's too much pain there, and letting it go is part of him moving on and healing. **He does for a few people/his family so they know it existed and each person can decide their own relationship with it, but he never sings it again after that. ***Yes. It's a slow process, but eventually he transforms it into something healing, even with the sadness it carries. He's still fairly private about it, though. ****I have strong leanings toward no but could be swayed toward yes by a capable author/artist. *****I have strong leanings toward yes but could be swayed toward no by a capable author/artist.

(S1 Episode 10 | S1 Episode 12 | Chapter 37 | TPN Light Novel 2: Moms’ Song of Remembrance - “The Starry Sky and Leslie’s List”)

[Related post with thoughts on this] [Related poll about Ray's relationship with reading post-escape]

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waves at you

hi fellow 14 y/o artist :3

hii anon !!! 💕💕 :3

it won’t be for long though, my birthday is coming up 🤭🤭

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i had like 10 pages of math homework i needed to do but it’s okay. WIP!

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some tpn manga art studies

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YOU ARE BACK!!! AND YOUR ART LOOKS SO COOL, YOU IMPROVED A LOT IN SO LITTLE TIME OMG GRRRRRAHHHHHHHH

MWAH MWAH MWAH MY FAVE SP BLOG <333 THE MOOT OF ALL TIME THANK YOU SO MUCHHHH 💖💕💖💕💕💖💖💕💖

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back from the dead !!!

still doing art and such, never stopped, just needed a break from tumblr

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woah did ur question get answered or does someone else have ur username 👀

BRO OMGGOMGGGGGG POSKUAANSEREDMYQUESITONAJDHJSJDHDJSJ!!?!,,!,!,!!,!?!?!?!

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best part about getting my braces off is going around school n asking people “notice anything different about me?😊” then purposefully keeping my mouth closed

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Hi everyone! Another little drawing from the weekend, I hope you like it!

see you soon and have a nice weekend! ⋆˚✿˖°

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