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i had a dream last night that one of my friends didn't want to be friends either me anymore and my english teacher took me to his classroom during lunch and comforted me for some reason

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me when their tone is slightly off (they hate me and want me dead):

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Kiss

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I want to rip my face off

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getting groomed isn't funny and quirky hope this helps!!

asking for tips of how to meet weird men online is weird!! really fucking weird!! and super disgusting and disrespectful!!

having lasting impacts on your romantic and sexual relationships is so silly and fun!! feeling like the world is going to end because you told your partner you aren't in the mood is just so quirky and silly!! such a fun time!! let's all get groomed!! /sar

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took apart an old keyboard and made the keys into a jewelry accessory line ⌨ 🌐🖱

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i'm afraid of her getting weirded out by my lovesickness but sometimes it slips and she matches my energy!!!! almost every time!!!!!!

like i'd say "i really want to live inside your ribcage so we can be as close as humanly possible!! we can be together forever no matter what"

and she would be either say " thats nice.. i guess.. !! "

or " yes i'll help you crawl into there and i'll feed you every day i promise >_o !! "

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substance abuse = watching bl and crying for 48 hours

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THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU FORDOING THE CYAN BINGO !!!

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remembering when my 'friend' (now my sorta acquaintance not friend) opened my phone (already unlocked) after i put it down for a second to fix my clothes and went through it and opened tumblr and saw my dash (thankfully not my account) and they said "what IS this??" and kinda chuckled

it was jiraiblr ofc so yk what she saw (◞‸◟ㆀ) i wanted to snatch my phone back and maybe yell but instead i just giggled back and said "ahahaha i don't know..!!!" and that was that

they have gone through my phone 3 or 4 times maybe when it's unlocked already and i look away for a LITERALLY A SECOND

and they say "may i?" AFTER they're pressing things on my phone, not looking at me (looking at my phone) going to my notes app and shit before i even say they can or can't

they say it's because she "cares about their friend's well being" WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?? how is that an excuse to go through my phone TECHNICALLY without my permission?? ITS FUCKING NOT.

you're not my therapist hop off my dick oh my god.

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now that school is almost over the boredom and depression is setting in

it's like "once i'm out of school it's gonna be over and i'll be okay"

and then "i want to die still even though school is over!!!!! nothing changed!!!!!!"