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there’s just something so personal about the two beefy queer men having messy ex sex on my primetime network television show

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horny idiots at bucktommy nation HQ, u know what to do

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buck is soooo “all my friends are from work because I don’t know how to form long last meaningful relationships on my own because of The Trauma” and tommy is sooooo “I never made friends at work because I spent my whole life hiding and my rich inner life knowing a guy for everything and having wild hobbies is to fill a gaping hole left by not knowing how to let anyone in” and when I say that they are two sides of the same loneliness coin, what then!!!!!!!

one thing we can all agree on is that tommy is not doing well and he doesn't have people in his corner who care 🙃

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buck texting tommy like “you made the eggs just the way i like them” then “you know me so well” then “so you should know I don’t love Eddie like that” then “the way that I still feel about you months later” then “i’m sorry i’m so bad at saying it in the moment” then “please come back and let me prove you wrong”

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second watch (8x11)

things we aren't discussing yet in detail:

tommy coming up to buck's table with ravi, clocking buck sucking lime and tequila off his own fingers, the assorted glasses, and being like "this mess could be my mess"

i'm going to argue they both made alcohol-fueled decisions here--tommy slurs a little back at buck's house--if they took an uber, it would make sense too for tommy to have walked to the corner store for breakfast stuff (idk about you, but my to-go "corner store" is half a mile here, a quarter mile in montreal)

tommy's Listening Face when buck is like "oh i'm good my sister got abducted (she's fine) (she's pregnant)," and the genuine crawl of his eyebrows more and more toward his hairline

TOMMY PUT CHAMPAGNE IN THE FRIDGE???? TOMMY PUT CHAMPAGNE IN THE FRIDGE. HE WANTED TO CELEBRATE GETTING BACK TOGETHER

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okay, you want to know the most devastating part about the morning after scene? it shows a plate with bacon and eggs, then another plate with bacon. tommy knows how buck likes his eggs. he either made them goopy for evan and hard for himself, or reverse. he went to the market, dug out the coffee machine, and stood at the stove thinking, he's going to love this when he wakes up.

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i just love that this show was like "we will not leave it up to the imagination that these two had playful, aggressive, stupid into each other sex that was so good it made them both look stupid"

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anyway getting a bucktommy scene that was on par horny as the fucking taylor in a bathroom stall scene from season two is all i've asked for and wanted and needed since we got bucktommy, and now i will blind myself watching buck tug at tommy's tank it almost snaps while pulling him into the bedroom over and over again so thank you tim, thank you aisha, thank you abc

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and yes i said yes I Will Yes.

there's something to be said about the fact that buck genuinely sucks at making friends in a meaningful way. he was desperate trying to connect with ravi at first, and then obnoxious. making another person uncomfortable trying to recreate his best friendship, the friendship that he wants, recreating the rules that someone else gave him he was all too happy to follow, playing games that someone else taught him. buck does a lot of things for other people, but when it boils down to his own wants, his own self, he doesn't know how to provide that foundation.

growing up he fit a high school stereotype that allowed him to be liked when his parents never did and his sister moved out and got in a relationship. when he became an adult, he was quick to destroy anything permanent at first, and reject any standard norms if that meant he didn't earn love in return. his nomadic lifestyle and easy charm was always grounded in the fact that it wasn't permanent, that he could find the quicker, easier affection of other people in things he knew would never last, and he was able to cut his ties just as easily as he's formed them.

even in his friendship with eddie, eddie was the first person to extend the olive branch when they removed the bomb from that guy's leg. his friendship with eddie has been enjoying eddie, and meeting eddie where he needs to be met, and helping eddie as best as he can. as soon as his own feelings or wants or needs surface, he trips over them and struggles.

same tonight with ravi: this is the game eddie taught me, these are the rules of friendship i go by based on the best friendship i've ever had, this is what i know. ravi, who is his own person and outside of being a landlord is way too good for this shit, is frustrated for the right reasons. he's a ravi-shaped peg that buck is trying to fit in an eddie-shaped hole, because to buck, that's how the best and easiest friendship he's ever had has looked, and he doesn't understand friendship in a meaningful way outside of that.

similarly, same with tommy: the second it gets flirty, buck's tongue-tied, desperate need to appeal to someone smooths out into something charismatic and easy, a lot of that evident because the morning after, he makes it clear he didn't have any expectations from tommy. he's surprised by tommy wanting to pick back up what they had. but the second that conversation gets a little more personal, he fumbles again, washes out completely.

it's so interesting that buck is still not completely settled in himself that he struggles to form meaningful relationships that aren't: (1) his sister, (2) job-based--and even that is kind of a stretch, and (3) related to anything more surface deep about his sexuality. he wants human connection so much that he fits himself into whatever role where he could be someone who is needed-- that is the easy thing, the easy feeling, for him. that is Good Enough. the second he wants for himself, he doesn't know how to sit with it, because he never learned how to have unconditionally.

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HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!!! 🔥

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speedrunning a relationship and break up in like two sentences is crazy the MESS not hem being like insecurity 4 insecurity

one of my favorite songs on my bucktommy playlist is 100,000 Fireflies by the Magnetic Fields for the following lyrics:

You won't be happy with me

But give me one more chance

You won't be happy anyway

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myy poor babygirl is going through it again and she JUST got out of the hospital after being abducted and having her throat slashed

my favorite line in the entire bucktommy saga is maddie's reading of "wait, it's the same tommy?" because at that point you know this girl has been THROUGH IT way too many times in a short period, like:

her soon-to-be husband comes home. he just fake called out sick from work to fly into a hurricane with his closest coworkers, her disaster-prone brother she mostly raised included, to save his boss and his wife. he tells her all about it, adrenaline still pumping the day after he comes back from the COAST OF MEXICO, and is like, no, it's fine! see, my old co-worker tommy works in air ops and I saved his life once, and we used to be super tight--[insert 10 minute off-topic backstory about how tommy used to be a jackass but now he's different here]--until he moved away, and funny enough, buck was the guy who filled in for him? anyways, tommy's the coolest, we could've died but we didn't! how was your shift at dispatch, honey

her brother she pretty much raised comes over and also brings up this tommy guy. yeah, he's so cool! do you think it would be weird if i called him up and asked for a tour of harbor? he just seemed like a neat guy, i want to be his friend, you think chim would put in a good word for me?

her brother she pretty much raised comes over AGAIN and is like, okay FUCK this tommy guy, he's so cool and knows everyone and his meat is huge!!! my best friend likes him more than me and they're doing things without me and i'm so sad about this in a really abstract way, can i please have a bagel

her soon-to-be husband comes home in the middle of this and is like, yeah he's cool and knows everyone and his meat is definitely huge. LOVE that guy!

her brother she pretty much raised shows up at her workplace and is like, remember how i was experiencing jealous thoughts and feelings because the coolest guy i've ever met with the biggest meat isn't paying attention to me and is new besties with my best friend? i may have caused bodily harm about this and yes i did involve your almost husband as a co-conspirator

approximately 2-to-3 business days pass where she experiences quiet. maybe too much quiet

her brother she pretty much raised comes over for a fourth time and is like, i lied to my best friend who i was just telling you i was angry at and s l i g h t l y injured because he kept hanging out with this other guy i was trying to hang out with and totally unrelated but i went on this date with someone and lied to my best friend about it and oh yeah it's the same guy but that is so besides the point it's not even worth mentioning

justice for maddie

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He went to the grocery store 😭 he unpacked a coffee maker 😭 when buck could have just suckled from his perfect tits 😭

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I love mess I LOVE MESS dumbass4dumbass best dynamic of all time

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Bucktommy gifmakers I am so sorry for the work you are about to have to do but OMG THEY ARE DOING IT