dalish-empress

[dalish-empress]

i have not been able to get this idea out of my head n finally got around to sketch it. they would def do each others eyeliner n trim their under/side cuts together. idk if ill finish it, im so rusty, but i need to draw them being domestic more

[dalish-empress]

i have not been able to get this idea out of my head n finally got around to sketch it. they would def do each others eyeliner n trim their under/side cuts together. idk if ill finish it, im so rusty, but i need to draw them being domestic more

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I am moving to a new account, I still wanna keep this one as an archive bcs got like over a decade worth of stuff but I don't have the heart to get rid of my old theme n redo everything n I want a fresh start, n since I haven't rlly been active here for like 4ish years it's easier to just remake. honestly its mostly just gonna be abt dragon age rn 😭 will go through follow list at some point to refollow ppl who r active n still into dragon age but feel free follow new account as I will probably forget to.do.it anytime soon

dragon age rlly was enough to make me come back to tumblr after what 4ish yrs, i cannot shut up abt my rook n taash. i love my little gay nb4nb they/thems im

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copy paste from my twitter for context, veilguard has me back on my dragon age bullshit to the point im getting back on social media hfjdf. i have so many thoughts, any spoilers will be tagged, this is mostly spoiler free

unfortunately just finished veilguard n no spoilers, but the ending ruined the entire game for me idk man I'm so upset it would have been such a good ending was it not for some stupid unavoidable choices. i wanted a me2 ending, not me3. literally just feels hollow now

I was making new rooks n planning my new playthroughs before, but now idk if I ever want to pick up that game. was it perfect? no. but it was so good up until the ending. it's like bg3 for me now, ruined by an ending where my choices barely matters

n wtf is up w the pacing of the romances??? there's barely any acknowledgment of the romance itself other than a few npc conversations n wtf is up w the timing of the sex scene?? the last thing I wanted at that point was for my rook to get laid like wtffff 😭

there's slowburn, n then there's whatever tf this is. "mature romance" my ass it was such a wasted potential 😭 loved all the companions but the pacing was not it n the romances they had w each other made much more sense

idk I hope I'll feel different after the shock has settled but rn im ranking the ending worse than me3 on launch bcs despite getting the best ending I think, it feels so hollow n meaningless. even origins allowed a somewhat happy ending

very vauge spoilers im actually fine w the overall ending for most of the old companions, this is solely abt companions in veilguard, all of this for nothing n then not even letting it be abt decisions throughout the game but a stupid choice at the end u can't avoid.

it rekindled my love for dragon age n then took it all away again ngl 😭 I was out here defending it for the first 60 hours of the game but im abt to jump ship bcs maybe some of the critics were right when it came to the writing. 10 yrs of waiting for this, idk what to say

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n like I feel the same w books? like my childhood favorites I've read countless times. all the books I have now I read once I'd I even finish them at all. like its all the same soulless quickly produced fill it w as many tropes as u can shit. think the last ya books I read n genuinely loved was a dance of thieves n cruel prince bcs they kept me engaged. most of the suggested books on booktok r so bad n all the same 😭

I need an essay on why media just doesn't hit anymore. I know movies/TV the past 2 years is bcs the strike n what lead up to it. but like games n books too. n idk if it's bcs im not a kid anymore but none of them just has a big impact on me anymore? I listening to my soundtrack Playlist n like games which soundtrack I still listen too r like games that had a big impact on me. like there's obviously dragon age n mass effect where I was so into it n like Fandom too. n other games I remember made an impact where it still.makes me feel nostalgic just listening to the soundtrack is dying light, mirrors edge, far cry 3, deus ex, metro last light, assassins creed 1-3, dreamfall chapters, skyrim n doom. cyberpunk a little bit as well just bcs of the setting but the story was a huge letdown. saints row n borderlands still hold a special place too but in a diff way. n like most of these games weren't groundbreaking but they hit a spot. even baldurs gate I played for like 2 years in early access has felt disappointing in its full release n despite my 300 hours I just can't finish act 3 bcs the story's end feels so disappointing 😭 I just wanna feel what I felt for dragon age n mass effect n the early assassins creed games for something else man. at this point I'm only playing indie early access survival games bcs any game w a story lately just falls flat

[dalish-empress]

I need an essay on why media just doesn't hit anymore. I know movies/TV the past 2 years is bcs the strike n what lead up to it. but like games n books too. n idk if it's bcs im not a kid anymore but none of them just has a big impact on me anymore? I listening to my soundtrack Playlist n like games which soundtrack I still listen too r like games that had a big impact on me. like there's obviously dragon age n mass effect where I was so into it n like Fandom too. n other games I remember made an impact where it still.makes me feel nostalgic just listening to the soundtrack is dying light, mirrors edge, far cry 3, deus ex, metro last light, assassins creed 1-3, dreamfall chapters, skyrim n doom. cyberpunk a little bit as well just bcs of the setting but the story was a huge letdown. saints row n borderlands still hold a special place too but in a diff way. n like most of these games weren't groundbreaking but they hit a spot. even baldurs gate I played for like 2 years in early access has felt disappointing in its full release n despite my 300 hours I just can't finish act 3 bcs the story's end feels so disappointing 😭 I just wanna feel what I felt for dragon age n mass effect n the early assassins creed games for something else man. at this point I'm only playing indie early access survival games bcs any game w a story lately just falls flat

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heartsick prints | high res on patreon

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coming back to tumblr bcs twitter word limit n i am so normal abt bg3

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so I might be autistic which tbh is kinda great n a huge relief bcs it means that there's actually not something fundamentally wrong w me but that I'm just built different 😎 apparently 2 of my adult cousins r also getting checked n I've been going through my family history w ny mom n my childhood since she was the one who brought it up. I've been looking into especially later in life diagnoses from adult cis women wich pretty much describes my entire life along w getting diagnosed w bpd first n the fun combination of adhd n autism. anyway since it's not official yet, only my doctor agreeing that it could be the cause n wanting to check for it, I don't wanna idk get my hopes up? but it would feel nice to have a word or term to explain I guess me lol.

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girls after withstanding a lifetime of perpetual trauma

girls after they break their favorite mug that costs 69¢

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Hawke has the rizz

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bro the combination of bpd, adhd n ptsd is so fun sometimes. n by fun I mean that I completed my bpd therapy n its technically "invisble" by now meaning I can control it n im super self aware. but adhd n ptsd also come w moodswing n triggers that acts like my bpd episodes n im just like I know exactly what I'm doing n why n it's just so adhkddjkd being in an episode n psychoanalyze myself like hmmm interesting. anyway exams/finals n big assignments for class is terrible bcs I still haven't gotten help w my adhd only meds n I tend to self medicate w nicotine n booze during these periods bcs i still don't know how to study 😎 I'll start studying well before but it's literally me staring at my documents for hours each day n not being able to write anything down before the week before bcs I literally cannot form any thoughts unless it's a deadline.

also i've started taking commissions for 3d assets which is great bcs now I can actually finish projects bcs of the deadline afjehkg

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You all talk about wanting more representation for sad pathetic wet rat women in media when She has been staring us in the face this entire time

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trying to ask my loved ones if they're registered as organ donors n what their DNR is w/o worrying them 😭 legit just been meaning to fill it out sincer I got my drivers license 4 years ago

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trying to explain cis friends how misgendering hurts is just gg

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normal ppl: oop this didnt occour to me ty for providing some food for thought

mentally ill bitches: IM BEING CANCELLED

getting canceled by other vr chat creators for making an announcement regarding the use of vitiligo on avis w several articles by n about ppl w vitiligo asking ppl to do their research before putting vitiligo on cow avis n in general research subjects before making avatars representing other groups

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like this is the announcement i made that has some big creators panties in a twist saying “fake woke ppl r cancelling them”. at no point did i say we should shame ppl i just encouraged ppl to do research hjsfj. but they’re the same ppl who r saying black hair is too complicated bcs its too high poly n dark skin isnt something ppl should feel forced to put on avis

getting canceled by other vr chat creators for making an announcement regarding the use of vitiligo on avis w several articles by n about ppl w vitiligo asking ppl to do their research before putting vitiligo on cow avis n in general research subjects before making avatars representing other groups