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I'm drawing these in art clas...

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This is unrelated to my last post. . .

Still somewhat related due to it being brought up in the conversation I had with my dad

Being so adamant I'm neurotypical?

It confused me

I'm not diagnosed with anything nor will I put a specific label but I'm pretty sure I am not neurotypical , and not just saying this cause I'm unique, everyone is, everyone's different.. I feel differently different. Too different.

I don't think it's a big deal whether I'm neurotypical or neurodivergent in general. There's also nothing wrong with being neurotypical at all. Doesn't mean you are boring or anything. I just don't think I am 'neurotypical'

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Talking about "politics"(kinda but not really) eith my dad is scary because I think he will hate me for my views but he doesn't but it still feels like he is heavily disappointed in me even tho I gave the most in the middle take . I just want people to like not be horrible to people tbh I want a good life (hottake)

I just want people to lowkey highkey not care about what others r doing as long as it doesn't harm society lowkey let's focus on bigger things

Dad was like "Elon didn't do the bad guy salute he was just reaching his heart out"

I was like ok but even so in general it's still kinda weird based around the history in salutes like that in politics I think no one in that position should do that lowkey retire it it's wayyy too similar and there's a lot of other salutes (still photos don't count btw :/) + add context to what's happening.

Nervous slip ups can happen obviously but can't we all just agree salutes like that are weird when you minus the context so let's maybe not

I don't care that much to even look deeper into this or anything politics I'll just throw in my 2 cents (not worth a lot but still something) but its not like I'm completely clueless. I know most basic things... i think... My cat for president.

Politics = "nesascarry . But uncomfortable. Sometimes just plain stupid." Its so extreme now. Let us breathe and have good livesssssss

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It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr

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After reading julius ceasar for school I understand the song Brutus by the buttress better than I had before, and I'm obsessed with it I think. In a comment it said thst juliius put up a fight against the assassins until he saw Brutus and gave up and MAN that makes the betrayal much more interesting. Inspiration for ocs so thanks history

I think the Julius Caesar book is very interesting in it's plot, atleast having some historical accuracy and makes me wanna be a history nerd. Shakespeare is BORING to read when it's not a play so reading it was difficult but having my teacher explain it is helpful yet still boring

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Still need to do this

I need to rant about the visual novel and album hope left me at some point. It's so great.

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Currently i am reading The Chosen by Chaim Potok, as a school assignment

It is not very rich in its story, though I only just got done reading chapter six, but the storytelling is different. It's vivid and smooth and feels right , like I wanna take a picture of each page as it's well written. Sssoooo well written... I can understand how most of my classmates think it's boring and dont want to read it, and I was like that at first too, but reading the words and not just the story is a skill to learn. Im inspired by this writing style even if I don't really follow the story.

Edit/correction: Not to say the story is bad in itself, I definitely do not think that, but most people in school don't want to read unless it's action packed which The Chosen is not really. I find stories like this fun to read though.

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Aaaaaaaaa

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Things:

My wall

My apple seeds in the shape of a heart my mom gave to me taped to my wall since I was little

A plushie I don't have

A shirt I kinda have but it's not that long

Me my fursona a genet

My weighted blanket

My bed

ok drawing this was calming cause I was crying all day over two things, ones a friendship thing no one needs to know except me and them and the other is being a shut in loser for my whole life,,

This piece was kinds meant to show that with a tried childlike vibe cause I'm stuck young mentally

I've always been online kind of, like I started being online probably when i was 6..? 7?

I'd watch lps and minecraft videos and stay up late secretly...

Then I got catsim and met my first online friends .. it was in 2016 I think

Skye is one I'm still upset about, I'm still upset I want to find her to know she's ok

My friendgroup then were older than me I'm guessing, and they were real depressed and displayed such by what they would say. I'd try to help and cheer them up but it was scary by some things they'd say. I still love them.. I remember harper and skye and that's about it.. honestly then I did kinda have an identity crisis somehow or someway, I'd pretend to be different people that's embarrassing..sorry catsim friends I'm much happier with being just me now.

I remember me and harper pretending to throw candy at eachother in the game lol??

And skye taught me about thst one egg riddle

And there was the wall, the sink, the hammer

Yea but then there was a catsim glitch going around where you couldn't join multi-player anymore and it happened to me and I was little so I didn't understand I could just.. delete the app and try to find them again which would be better than just waiting everyday and crying for it to work lol.

The first time i harmed myself I was fighting a gorilla boss and my grandma was stressing me out

I got her sharp comb

Whys she have that comb it actually is painful😭

Then I got roblox that year too and met new people in 2018 who some I'm still friends with!! Yippie. Our friendgroup was shakey to say the least lol, there were fights alot that I'd just watch and not say anything. It's silly thinking about it. Uh anywyas yea and then a friend suggested I got discord and made an account in 2019 and then Instagram in idk what year but yea and then it's always been like that m

I find it hard to keep friends because of the way I am

It's hard for me to talk to someone alot and end up not talking to them for some days even though I don't mean anything bad by it I just feel overwhelmed... sorry abt that meow!

My irl friends are cool, they are few though

I've always been a "weird quiet kid" in school with not much friends, in elementary school I had like 3 friends in total counting the one that moved in 1st grade

Whej that friend moved I didn't have any friends so at recess I sat on a bench and watched the other kids play and sometimes pretended to have an imaginary friend lolol

Did I mention my family trauma yea thst happened story for other times tho heheh

But yea the friends I have now are cool but we barely go out and do stuff well atleast with me maybe? I don't go out alot unless it's to school or wherever I'm dragged by by mt family ir to let my dog out and that's about it

I stay indoors and stay in my room

I draw and write sometimes...!!!!!!!!! Obviously

But yea that's what makes me a loser/loner in life but it's whatever I know no different

It's also hard to go out in summer cuz I have a strong hatred for the heat ..... and in fall I'm in school so i don't rlly have time 0_0

Actually frshmen year I got a friend who'd drag me around to places which was the first time ever but sheeeeeeee isn't someone I'd like to be around

Anyways uh j know I'm not the only one with this life so I don't feel too bad but comparing to all my friends I'm kinda just yea idk I'm kinda spacing out

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I feel like shit I'm not talented at anything other than creating ideas but I can't do anything with them maybe I just need to work on my patience

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Sometimes I'm afraid to express my opinions or feelings

Scared how others would feel

But i know everyone is different, thinks different

I don't think anything extreme

It's okay of people do

Not everyone needs to tolerate anyone

I sometimes am just too nice of a person, and that itself can be terrible

It's best not to think everything is said out of hatred

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