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dear god it’s been so long since i’ve been on here. So i gave a shot at recovery and clearly i’m failing lol. Seeing how disordered i used to be sent me spiraling and now i’m backkkkkk!! Get ready for this cause i’m still just as mentally unstable 😙

p.s i’ve missed you guys 😭❤️

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what a crazy thing, time.

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going through the phase

“did this shirt get bigger or did i just stretch it out?”

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a nic buzz hits different on an empty stomach

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i just wanna lose enough weight that my dad stops trying to get me to do different diets with him :/

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bro the way a nic buzz makes me feel- i love it so much, it’s almost more addicting than hunger pains lmao

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YES OMG PLEASE PUT A TW FOR YOUR MEANSPO THIS CAN BE SO HARMFUL FOR THOSE OF US WHO ARE JUST NOW STARTING TO STRUGGLE WITH AN ED

I am really seeing a huge increase in meanspo that is not proceeded by a huge TW above it in the thinspo tags. I feel like this is due to an influx of people from ED twitter, so I feel like I have to explain to y'all: that is not how we do things here. Do not post meanspo without a TW above it. Please just respect that some people don't like meanspo, and it should be contextualised within BEING MEANSPO rather than just your personal opinion about people with BED, bulimia, fat people etc., because if you just make it seem like your personal opinion rather than a tool people can use if they want to to motivate themselves, then you are actively shutting out people who are really struggling with eating disorders and re-enforcing the idea that they are not "sick enough". Please just put a "TW MEANSPO" above your post. It's what we do here and have done for a long time. It's harm reduction and community care.

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i kinda like being used for my body, it’s kinda rewarding lmao

i’m still gonna lose more weight to be used even more

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i guess you can call this a progress photo 😅

hw (187) to cw (157)

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used to think appetite suppressants meant it’s make you full, now i know it means it just doesn’t make you hungry

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i wanna make new friends here so:

interact if-

- under 18

- have an active ed

- can talk to each other about our ed without judgement

- has insta or snap (might start a gc idk)

- have a cw of whatever honestly lolol

DNI IF-

- over 18

- pro ana

- body shames ANYONE

- homophobic or racist

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FUCK GAINING WEIGHT CAUSE OF A PERIOD

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just got done crying at girls bodies on tiktok, 10/10 do recommend 👍

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getting ready to try this for a month! might die!

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i’ve officially come to realize that CAKE is now a fear food for me 🙃

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i’m gonna actually kms, i had chinese today and a bag of candy. brb just gonna jump off a fucking cliff 😀✌️

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NEW MONSTER IS POGCHAMP

please don’t say anything about my fat hands 😔🤚