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before i disappear again for the unforeseeable future, i want to give a little sneak peek of something you will see soon on my ao3 (and maybe wattpad). formula one street racing mafia au! hehehe. both accounts are linked in my pinned in case you are interested.

first of the series will be called girl unspoken, when it comes out, also in case you are interested!

love you all so much! i have read all of your sweet messages and i might answer them later but until then, i am keeping them to look back on when i'm sad because they are so so lovely :( pls take care of yourselves & pls do not think of this as a goodbye for realsies, because i desperately want all of you to keep in touch if you want to! all i'm also on is linked in my pinned<3

series title from the song below the cut!

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never kill yourself. may your path be blessed and prosperous with lights shining through, no matter how dim they may seem. love your writing and hope to see more on other platforms, thank you for sharing and being here 💝

this is so lovely :( i'm taking this quote and putting it on a sticky note on my forehead so i never ever forget and everyone who reads it too also takes it to heart!! thank you for being here too :( i am excited to hopefully not disappoint!!

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i am so sorry people are so cruel, glad you’re still here & wishing you everlasting peace and love, babe, you truly deserve that <3

are u kidding thank u :( !!!! i am taking this manifestation and halfing it and giving you some back bc i wish you the same hello!!!

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I’m going to miss you so much <3 please take care of yourself and I hope that anon goes 💥💥💥

hehehe dont tell anyone i said this but me too! hahahaha but i am going to miss you too!! pls also take care of yourself drink water eat ice cream do self care!!!!! everyone!!!

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im gonna be on for a lil bit tn before i disappear if anyone wants to chat or say heyyy <3 much love to all of you!

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omg! i will miss you so so much! i was usually anon but since we’re saying goodbye 😭🫂🫂 i was the #1 dbf supporter and i loved all your work 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🤍🤍

aaaaa thank you :( !!! you can still see whatever i manage to conjure up on other places such as ao3 (or wattpad but i really am there like twice a year </3) and both are linked here!! ty for all the love & kindness over these few months<3

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hi! this is my first time logging on in two weeks, just to check up on things as i said i would before i fully disappeared. one week into my absence, you decide to send an exact verbatim cause for the reason i left in the first place.

tw for discussions of suicide

last year and this year, i tried to kill myself twice. four times in total. i've gotten everything i could ever want and had it all taken away from me and had nothing countless times in between and during these dark periods of my life.

never once, ever, until seven months ago when i joined this website, have i been told to do this. and in seven months, i've gotten it four times. if i had a quarter for each time, i'd have a dollar, when i shouldn't have even one. no one should.

i bring all of this up to remind so many of you of something that shouldn't even be needing to be said. no one owes you anything. not the celebrity you wish to behave like the version of them that you have in your mind. not your coworker, or peer, or even your best friend. definitely not the real person behind the computer screen of someone who, at the very least, you choose to keep up with. whether following or being a casual viewer in the orbit of the person you message.

i am twenty three years old. i have a bunch of puppies and i want a bunch more. i write a lot of the time, and read sometimes. these are all of the facts that you know for certain about me, and that is it. you do not know the struggles that i go through and neither do i know yours, though i assume you have plenty with the casualty you and so many others have with telling strangers on the internet behind an anonymous tag to end their lives.

what would you have done if i had killed myself over this message? if everything i've gone through so far, testing my strength, was completely tipped over the edge with this message? what if someone else you told to kill themselves' lives did? would it not weigh on you that your cruelty to someone that you don't even really know besides your own perception, was so affected by your blatant disdain for human empathy and kindness, that they ended their life? would you not feel guilty that you wallow in your misery and get to live on but that person that you hurt didn't?

i literally do not care what any of you think about me or my decisions. i truly do not. the thing that hurts me the most in any sort of death threat or hateful message i receive is the way that it is done so callously.

people are told to get thicker skins instead of instilling a sense of empathy and love in the ones who grow up to make monstrous and hurtful decisions. when did it become so normalized for people to want to hurt others; an action that doesn't even bring the person peace afterwards? even if you have the intention of lashing out to disregard your own hatred, that is never the case.

i truly hope you find peace within yourself. everyone manages their hurt and their pain differently, but it is not an excuse to use it as a weapon. and it is certainly not your right or your authority to dictate the fate of the people you yourself surround yourself with.

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hi everybody <3 i've come to the conclusion that i don't think tumblr is the place for me. it's been a very eventful seven months! i simultaneously cannot believe it's been that long, and that it's only been that long. 1,657 followers, so many lovely people that i've had the honor of meeting and getting to know, and probably just as many theme changes for me hahaha.

i just wanted to say that i love all of you. every single one! i'm still planning to keep this blog up and everything on it so you guys may scroll through if you want to see my writing still. i might make a masterlist for it before i officially log out, but knowing me, this is something i will definitely forget to do, so my most reliable source for finding my writing will be to go through this tag.

i also give every single one of you permission to add my discord, jensensprincess. just tell me who you are afterwards so i know who reached out!

other places that you will be able to find me include my ao3 account, jjmaybank. my wattpad, sug4rspice, is incredibly inactive but i'm on there once every 8 months or so hahaha.

thank you guys for the love over these seven months! it was incredibly helpful in my mental health struggles for the last year, too, so i will always be grateful for you for that. always! i will still probably log on occasionally (this & pinterest are my go-to's for jensen content!) and if you guys want to continue camp daylighted, you so can! i will log on, too, for that if it's still going.

but other than these things, i'm gonna log off <3

xoxo, dahlia!

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found my new fav roblox game and slayed in it 😛 call me the queen of roblox cake off immediately!

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just discovered max verstappen i’m afraid i need him carnally

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thinking about dbf!jensen long and hard today….need that

speaking of things that are long and hard in the same sentence as him is so true. permission and requesting to know all of your thoughts on him. i will leave the parting comment of the fact that jensen’s countdown looks are so in tune with dbf!jensen i will provide more details later if i remember 🙂‍↕️ i am very passionate about this!

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i’ve tried it didn’t work 💔 sorry to disappoint!

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took a nap and woke up wanting to suck off an old man 💔 diagnosed as a stage four whore fatal condition terminal diagnosis no cure

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praying to god to rid and spare me of these sinful thoughts in my head rn

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looking down at me btw

oh there's going to be a Jensen Ackles shower scene

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so glad to be able to finally post about my man 🩷 we've been secret for a while now and i'm so grateful to be able to come out about the passionate steamy showstopping spectacular incredible jaw-dropping heart-stopping ass shaking category 7 earthquaking sensual seductive beautiful immaculate man i've been hitting it raw with on the daily!

Jensen Ackles in the Countdown trailer

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GUYS 😭😭😭😭

it’s 4 am should i make chocolate chip cookies someone be honest (and say yes)