daysofanaddict

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“I entered the new year with the worst habits, the worst physical health and my lowest point mentally.”

— watch me fuck it all up this year

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Jan 1 2022

[daysofanaddict]

12.30.21 12:15 am.

I just took a small piece of my sleeping pill to make me sleepy

Hopefully just a little bit, and I had the last couple sips of wine to assist

I work tomorrow, in 8 hours.

I smoked a little bit of heroin earlier, didn't feel much.. smoked a decent amount of meth

Feels amazing, I can feel how the heroin softens the edges of the meth high,

So im not wired, but I feel alert, awake, happy

I'm in bed but I want to get up and write, or draw, or do my nails.

I'll never be okay, I can never seem to kick these drugs.

I should have stuck with alcohol

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Friend make sense of me, Friend make sense of me.

[daysofanaddict]

Relapse.. relapse... on m and more. Now h added into the mix. This is a hell I know all about yet I still won't stop. It's going to be too late then I'll want help... why do I do this to myself