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Reblog if you’d ask me on a date if you saw me at the gym wearing this 🤭🎀

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I have one confession to make I'm on government assistance and have no job I'm so I'm basically classified as a loser and I am afraid to admit it most times but it kills me and everytime I try to make my life better I get run arounds and more questions and just spin my wheels I've had thoughts that no one should have because those actions do nothing but hurt people but I know it's useless to vent into a void of nothing and to people who don't care about my mental health because they have thier problems and not to a professional but I would literally come apart at the seams with years of emotion I haven't been able to show because I'm shy to talk to women in person and I'm a jobless loser that gets money from the government and I just attract women that only want money why can't I attract one's that just want to hang out have fun see where things go from there.

Sorry to blow this out there I was laying in bed trying to sleep and I just needed to vent this out there.

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So out of the many things and kinks I have Inflation I the main one seeing a chick inflate her belly either with water, air, or other it's been my main kink I have interest in I also love watching a bbw inflate thier belly too I would still love to stuff a bbw but right now I can only do inflation of bbw or chubby chick.

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Reblog if you love giant enormous round belliesX3

New videos on OF:)

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Well I'm gonna take a hiatus mostly because I just need to fix myself and now I'm just not enough to cut it I'm not good with tech and apps so I'm just gonna take my leave and go into the dark for a bit

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Who is gonna be a good boy for mummy?

Reblog if you want your piggy submissive 🤭

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Reblog if you love heavier girls like me 🤭

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If only my money issue wasn't one I am out of work and struggling to find new work and I know that there is someone that'll see this and think wow what a loser and yeah I am a loser I collect welfare I make my money last me for what I can I get my weed my food and also my internet and rent insurance whatever i have left is for whatever else is needed or if nothing is needed I'll have a bit of fun with it but one thing I'll never ever pay for is sex if a woman likes me let me the first option not the last one and only be interested in me for me not my damn money I get it I need it to help the woman I desire to grow and get as big as she wants or I would want but I struggle to keep myself fed most months and it kills me that everytime I put myself out there and the place I applied to just over looks me or sends me an email saying "we've found someone more qualified to push carts" so I gave up and then fell into the work agencies had a job for a year and a half at a factory in a small city called Ajax but had to take a personal day because my father was sick and asked me if he called me at anytime or if I had called him on my lunch break so I called him asked if he was doing ok he was still sick and asked if I could come home and take him to the hospital so I did I start getting ready next day and I get a call saying "oh have you left home yet" I say no "oh good well company X isn't gonna need you anymore they are shutting down a line for a bit" I say so what does this mean "well we'll call you to come by the office for another placement" a fuckin week goes by I call them they fuckin for got to call me in to redo paper work and I get a placement in my old city Oshawa and that lasted a week and I was out the door plus the year and a half job was a 12hr shift 7am to 7pm and then 7pm to 7am and then the next factory was noon to midnight and then I went jobless through out the pandemic tried getting a job during it but as most people know not many places were hiring new people and then they started hiring again I got lost in the shuffle and then I was a mover for about four or five months not sure but was still housed for a bit then homeless then fired because "customers where complaining" I know why it was because I was showing I was homeless then came the odd jobs being homeless (in separate post) then I left Oshawa to where I'm at now worked at another agency but a strike happened and work was hard to come by so I told them to call me when there was work and they haven't called and my number isn't even the same as they have it and now I sit at home get high listen to music and play the odd games and eat when I need to and keep my place clean and keep my hygiene up and my clothes clean I'm not saying any of this to complain or wine or sound like a useless piece of shit or as what I called myself earlier a loser and that's the only thought that'll cross my mind everytime I see a woman and that's been like that ever since I went homeless and now living in a place (that I have paid through the city) and I can't shake that loser feeling and maybe that's because I'm almost never outside because I feel like I don't belong outside I've side it in other posts I feel like an outcast outside my apartment if I try and be nice most people take advantage of it and others abuse it and some respect it I want a world where I can go and do whatever I want get what I need and only what I need then after is fun or wants I know it's rare to find someone with a somewhat stable mind nowadays and especially at 28 I grew up earlier then most because my parents where divorced and my dad needed me to grow up fast and I only had to have part of a childhood and then at the end of grade 8 I started to get a beard and then by grade 9 I had a full on beard I looked like a grade 12 student.

Ps: I'm high and I rambled sorry I'll try not to do it next time 😔

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SO YOUNG & OBESE 😍

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I painted those and took this photo long before going homeless and now having my place for at least 2 or 3 years now not sure but I put them in a storage unit in the city I left behind in 2021 for a better start in a new one closer to family that actually cares but my inner feelings and thoughts of myself are on those masks because that's all I faced growing up one of people I knew in school wanted to shoot me for no reason and I only talked to him once and was nice to him and I had my dad on the odd occasion say shit no father should say to thier kid I also had a random stranger who wanted to start shit but I fought back that time so yeah and those inner feelings and thoughts of myself because that's what people wanted me to do was die or not exist and also the hate are still there slowly eating away at the non emotional showing shield I hold up every day.

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you can see the exact moment my brain breaks 0.0

quickie womb inflation on my c4s link in bio🩶

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There is one thing I never really tell anyone but I have had my ex girlfriend beat the shit outta me because I was going to meet with her but then my grandmother had to go back to the hospital after 16 hours of being home (because the hospital missed an infection she had in her gallbladder on some blood work she had before coming home) so I was almost there when my father called and asked me to meet him and his girlfriend and my grandmother there so I did but after I met with my ex and told her what had happened and she got so pissed off that she started to beat the shit outta me outside of the local mall by her place (I lived in a small city that had some dying malls in it with one big main mall) she wasn't drunk that time but then the next time she tried it she was drunk and she tried accessing me of not loving her enough but I spent almost every hour of the day talking to her over video calling and then she tried to beat the shit outta me again at a park but I grabbed her wrists and told her to stop and that she was hammered then she had her dad threatening to beat the shit outta me without letting me explain my side of the whole thing so after that whole ordeal I have very bad trust issues and I've slowly gotten over it over the years but I have learned to keep to myself because of that ordeal.

Ps: hey there two posts in a day well that's because I wanted to share something because of the crap I've been through isn't just homelessness it's also my ex girlfriend beating me and family deaths (which I'll get to at a later date) and so called "friends" that are just users and not friends.

Hopefully who ever sees this has a wonderful day and that you for reading this.

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So everytime I feel this depression I've had for so many years there are times where I wish I could find the moment in my life where this depression started I've tried seeing a shrink never worked so I just started to suppress all feelings like sadness,  anger, and on the odd occasion happiness but everytime I get depressed I get myself to try and be happy but I feel like I never deserve to be happy because I'm a guy that has irl friends but they are older then me and then I have my Xbox friends and both work and unfortunately I don't so I guess this depression comes from not doing enough or something like that but still I feel unwanted by most people I feel like an outcast so I just sit at home and just keep to myself I know that sounds creepy and weird but I don't really bother people where I live I don't talk to many of the people here but the ones I have are nice and all but I am living on my own with no one else and I just want to make new friends irl that will treat me like I belong and that are around my age and smokes weed and likes to just chill and guys and chick's but I live in Canada so that is the only problem or not.

Ps: to anyone who sees this just know I am blowing off more steam because I felt like it today.

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So it's been awhile I was homeless for a bit then I finally got my place but every day I wake up I feel this feeling (depression) I know all too well and I get the urge (to cut) to do something that I'll regret after because I feel nothing but pain but I feel like I deserve this pain and because no one will ever care and I want it all to end but I can never do it I keep going when I want to stop but I've been waiting for the right person to come along in my life but they never do I end up attracting the wrong people and end up being used and then thrown away like trash but then again that is all I ever was is like a toy used till not useful and then tossed in the trash I wish I could find some woman that would like me for me and smoke weed at least so I can stop smoking alone for once and if she games that's awesome hell if she likes sports instead then that's awesome likes wrestling awesome if not that's fine I'll just show what I like and see what she likes but I haven't had the touch of a woman in a few years now (I know I sound pathetic and like a loser but here me out) mostly because of homelessness and now that I have a place I want to have a woman come over have some fun~ or just chill out smoke weed listen to music then I'll let the woman stay the night but she can have my bed and I'll take the couch if we were smoking weed and listening to music and if she wanted me to I'd hop in bed with her but that is only if it is the fun~ option. I know I sound desperate in this but to be honest I am at this point it's taken me a lot of time to think and think and I just can't keep waiting for the perfect woman. Ps: to anyone who sees this please know I am depressed and needed to vent my frustration and will eventually move to self hate.

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happy dff 🥰 I’m feeling heavyyyy. how yall doin? 😈😮‍💨😈🩷

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