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"I-I shall fulfill my duty! This is for the prince heir! E-evil dragons are not my bussiness!"

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Shadow Milk tasting the berries in Eternal Sugar Garden So cute!

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Hoy rompi con mi novio

Hoy finalmente paso...

Mi novio cruzo una linea que no esperaba, siempre jugo con mi cabeza, pero cuando quiso afectar a mi familia, sentí como se me rompió el corazón.

Mi familia no es perfecta, tenemos muchos detalles y peleas, pero no significa que no me importen; quiero mucho a mis hermanas que me acompañan en el dolor de crecer en una casa donde apenas podíamos jugar, a mi papa aunque haya sido negligente, intento ser padre y se que no fue perfecto por que el tampoco tuvo un padre que le enseñara este tipo de cosas y de verdad lo ha intentado en tratar de apoyarnos en lo que podía entender de paternidad. Incluso con mi mama, es complicada y agria nuestra relación, pero no le deseo mal, de ella aprendí todo los errores que posea y todos sus malos hábitos me han ayudado a tener paciencia y ser un soporte para mis hermanas cuando las cosas se ponían difíciles.

Quiero mi familia, sin importar que sea un desastre...y mi novio, quiso quebrar mas eso...

Se que es mi culpa, siempre fui sumisa con el, siempre deje que saliera con la suya cada vez que me lastimaba y le creí una y otra vez que ya no iba a ser esta persona que quería someterme a el, que quería usarme, que quería manipularme para que le perteneciera a el, sin importarle si me lastimaba o me hacia menos.

Duele horriblemente esto, realmente lo amaba a pesar de todo, me encantaban sus detalles de palabras que siempre usaba como "perfecta" o que cuando se emocionaba empezaba a maldecir o que se preocupaba por mi cuando notaba que tenia un mal día o que escuchaba mis quejas, sin importar que estúpidas fueran.

A veces me pregunto si no soy yo la que estoy mal? No soy yo la que esta siendo muy sensible? o sera que estoy dando mucha prioridad a mi familia y lo estoy sacrificando a el? o tal vez realmente nuestra relación esta siendo toxica o debo dejarlo ir? No lo se, sinceramente no lo se; una parte de mi quiere pensar que esta pensando en mi, que tal vez se esta arrepintiendo de lo que estaba haciendo...pero otra parte presiente que no es el caso, que lo hizo para que me enojara y rompiera con el, que esta mejor sin mi...por que no era perfecta, nunca fui perfecta, tenia miedo de salir lastimada y al final...tal vez yo lo lastime mucho que se harto de mi...

Y lo peor, es que mi corazón esta buscando por alguna señal o pretexto para volver con el...que estúpida...que estúpida estoy siendo...aun quiero creer que podemos resolverlo, que quiero abrazarlo, disculparme y volver a estar juntos como siempre habíamos estado...pero se que volveremos a lo mismo, a las promesas de cambiar, a volver a lastimarnos... yo... como puede hace la gente para dejar de amar a alguien sin que duela tanto? No lo se, sinceramente no lo se...

Voy a guardar la taza que hice de nosotros, sera lo mejor para ya no pensar en eso...me volví dependiente de el, eso lo se...pero no pude evitarlo, me había enamorado profundamente de el, aunque nunca me lo creyó, aunque hacia pucheros diciendo que era muy buena para el para que lo mimara...

Tal vez deba dejarlo ir, mi corazón aun quiere estar con el, pero como van las cosas...tal vez sea yo solo la que quiere estar con el...la que aun no quiere soltar lo mejor que me había pasado en mi vida, en ser amada y que alguien me mimara y me cuidara...

No se si es lo mejor, a este punto no me importa...solo quiero...dejar de llorar mientras escribo y ver que pasa en el futuro...aprender de este dolor y tratar de seguir adelante....

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Hollyberry is one of my old favorites and now that there was this Eternal Sugar event update, it made me love her more; She is more than she seems and one can not see all the emotional baggage that Hollyberry has because she usually seems happy, positive and always trying to protect others, we see how much she loves her drinks, but now the juice she always drinks has a new meaning, that her only means of escape to relax, but that also brings her consequences … I will not deny it, as a mother and grandmother she undoubtedly failed, but she also showed that things are not so easy for those who carry the title of hero and the expectations of her kingdom on her, when she returned from the war, she was not well, but she did not have the time to rest from the physical and emotional wounds because her kingdom depended on her and even, she put aside her hobbies and desires because she was always busy fixing the problems of her citizens and the conflicts caused by the nobles, and the worst was when she could return to do what she liked, going out to have adventures, she paid very dearly with the loss of one of her granddaughters, her memory and that One of the dragons will take over her kingdom. And now the worst part of this event happens: Hollyberry's shield breaks, because she can no longer hide behind it, and she's locked away in a place where she can't be found and can't do anything. And now, with the next event approaching, I can't wait for her character development.

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I still haven't got her, but at least her drawing turned out pretty...

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When I had to deal with the tedious tasks in the Shadow Milk event (because that mtherfker never wanted to come out through the gacha and I literally had to spend 250 spins to get it as compensation), I was stuck in the arena tasks because I didn't have any of the seasonal cookies, because I had just returned to the game. I was super depressed because I really wanted to get Shadow Milk and I had already worked hard to stay stuck there. I prayed a lot to the cookie witches for some hope or some seasonal cookie that would come out, whoever it was! And guess who came out…

Yes, Burning Spice Cookie, my first beast cookie, appeared randomly in the common gacha… like a miracle. And not only did it help me with the final tasks of the gacha, but this powerhouse beast helped me advance in the story section that had been stuck for months. In the canon story, he'll be a jerk and a psychopath, but seriously, how much it helped me to have him when I first returned to the game and how he continued to help me in the following events; that's why he's my destroyer hero who has his own section in my kingdom.

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Sometimes I feel like PV needs that special friend who's always asking if you've eaten yet.

Dialogues: Oc: Wait, PV, when did you eat? PV: Huh? This morning… OC:It's already five in the afternoon. PV:Oh, really? OC: Come on, my treat. PV: Huh? It's not necessary. OC:Believe me, it is.

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I tried to draw in a manga style and it turned out to be something else... I dont know that it is, but at least is nice :)

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I am a person who self-sabotages a lot, it was hard for me to realize it and more work to work on it. I thought I was hopeless until I met my stubborn boyfriend, who literally chased me and hasn't let go of me even showing my ugliest sides. How I love him and feel like he's the love of my life 

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My boyfriend is like truthless recluese, so I became obsessed with him I love him so much and the fact even he asked for a drawing of us kissing, make me love him more

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Happy Valentine Day!!

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Spoiler alert... Shadow Milk Cookie doesnt like being in the friendzone?

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This crazy mtherfker...

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I don't support this ship, but the fact that my boyfriend likes the color blue, while I'm a naughty little gremilng; this emphasizes that in this world there are no coincidences...

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Happy New Year Thank you for visiting my page and thank you very much to my followers for so many years together! Have a nice year and enjoy a good cup of coffee

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My attempt to draw Yukine with the design, for the Bleach Soul Puzzle game. I cant wait for the game, I LOVE PUZZLE GAMEESSS!!!

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Second attempt! Difference of three years!? The Lineheart is better, but the eyes...THE EYES!!

My attempt to make an anime-style drawing of Yukine