deathwolfsys

[deathwolfsys]

Our sources don’t make us monsters. ~ 🐺

Friendly reminder that this blog IS a safe space for ALL PROBLEMATIC ALTERS / SYSTEMS.

This includes :

introjects with problematic / controversial media.

abusive / violent / self harmful alters.

introjects of real life abusers / murderers / political leaders.

systems who deal with other demonized disorders.

alters who enjoy things like gore / true crime / problematic media.

alters who don't want to change / get better.

i can't think of any more but i appreciate all of you, we all deserve acceptance. anyone is welcome here.

if you do not like this BLOCK ME! it's free and a click away. Some of you need a reality check, i would love to argue with those who don't agree with this post.

[deathwolfsys]

You know, I may be arrogant but I know when I’ve fucked up. And I certainly hit the mark this time. In my brief moments of confronting with the writer of our system I got so engrossed in talking about myself and my story that I didn’t notice when my queen asked something of me. This lead to me ultimately and her righting feeling that I ignored her. Even if it was not my intention.

We saw the vent but didn’t understand it until she told us. Dani knew something was up but didn’t know what to do and still doesn’t. And I feel like an ass and don’t know how to fix it. I’m great at being brutal and snappy but I’m not good at fixing things.

~🐺

[deathwolfsys]

I think I’m front stuck with another alter who I don’t necessarily get along with. He’s not like co-conscious to the point I can interact with him but he’s a memory holder of the times from my trauma. And while the memories are all good they’re triggering for me and I’ve been under perpetual panic attacks.

I can’t reach inner world rn because of it. I’m scared and I’m not sure what to do. ~ 🎨

[deathwolfsys]

Think we need more appreciation for hosts who are out there 24/7, doing boring chores/routines/works,, to top it off with stress and reoccurring trauma/triggers if any yet kept on going. They’re literal heroes.

Oh, plus don’t forget to treat host by putting spotify on loop and a comfy blanket (maybe throw in some headpats too)

- j

[deathwolfsys]

TW: gore & going through severe intrusive thoughts & emotions.

Please scroll if you are sensitive to these topics.

I’ve taken away the last safe place I had by allowing people I trust into it so when I panic and try to hide I’m still found out because I have no where left to run. It’s not about them in a bad way because truthfully nothing they’ve done is wrong but it’s the way my intrusive thoughts harass me and tell me they’re all going to leave because of the MISTAKE THAT I AM. And I know it comes off as guilt tripping which is why I bite my tongue until it bleeds shaking and backing into a corner. But when I’m confronted I cannot bite my tongue off fast enough. I tear into my arms trying to escape but I can’t because I told myself lies and they have the right to confront me. I open up in fear and tell them what’s happening but I can’t begin to apologize enough and try to hide away because I know that I’m doing. It comes off as guilt tripping even though I try to explain it’s those DAMN THOUGHTS. They LIE TO ME. And they lie so well that I begin to loose track of what’s actually real. I want it all to end I want to tear my heart out and make it stop hurting. The words are nothing but excuses I give for my own mistrust caused by thoughts that are my own but are out of control, why won’t it stop? Why didn’t I bite my tongue off and run away? Why do I keep hurting her like this? I can tell she’s mad at me. At least that’s what her words read across the screen. They stab deeper then my claws do and I want to hide in shame. I’m sorry means nothing. And she has every right to be mad. Because I couldn’t keep it inside and I couldn’t hide it away from her. Even anonymous failed me. Rip my heart out. Rip it out. Make it stop hurting, dig deep as if the bone isn’t there and just take IT OUT. I don’t know whose these words are. I don’t know what’s real. Which of these thoughts are my own and which are the ones that are forced upon me despite my suffering? I am the cause of my own suffering. And it bleeds out onto others contaminating them. If only I hadn’t opened up. If only my safe place was far away from everyone. Maybe then I would stop hurting them. Maybe then I would stop hurting me. How do I fix this? How much blood will it take to make things right. Rip it out. End the suffering. I failed my system. Rip. It. OUT.

[deathwolfsys]

I am 100% that prosecutor. I don’t mean it honestly. Like I don’t try to snap but it happens. Been trying to be better about it -🐺

It’s all “we support systems!” And “we trust systems!” Until a persecutor does something that the system as a whole has apologized for and made amends for or a protector sets a hard boundary that someone doesn’t like.

It’s always “we love systems!” Until a system steps out of someone’s idea of how systems should act.

[deathwolfsys]

Highly doubt the others will see but system had a panic attack because of Twitter (not anything unusual considering it’s FUCKED) but they’re stressed about it so I said fuck it and hit it for the night 😈

Not sorry. If y’all see this it’s for your own good JFC -🐺

[deathwolfsys]

just because an alter (or person) is hypersexual doesn’t mean you can make advances on them or say sexual stuff to them without asking if it’s okay first. being hypersexual isn’t a fucking invitation. especially when (in some cases, not all!) being hypersexual can be a trauma response. particularly for osddid systems.

this should be obvious but i guess it’s not for some people!

[deathwolfsys]

“Am I broken? Am I flawed?

Do I deserve a shred of worth

Or am I just another fake

Fucked up lost cause?

And am I human? Or am I something else?

'Cause I'm so scared and

There's no one there

To save me from the nightmare

That I call myself”

~Broken, Anson Long-Seabra

This song hits deep 🐺

[deathwolfsys]

We had an odd experience last night. The body was awake but dreaming simultaneously causing hallucinations to occur.

It felt like we where able to connect with each other more freely and see each other clearer for a split moment. Like the way we front is almost like a VR experience.

Or it could’ve been just a dream. We may never know ~🍃

[deathwolfsys]

Do you ever just have days where you remember nothing and then something small feel like it’s poking at a really important memory and you just can’t grasp it and then you see it everywhere and feel like it’s supposed to be super important but can’t remember why?

Cause pastel rainbows are doing me in right now. ~🎨

[deathwolfsys]

Our husband made a note of my eating habits. It was poking fun in a good way I just know it was good for the system for him to remember our names and begin to tell us apart. ~ 🐺

[deathwolfsys]

Full System List

Dani - any/all - Host / Trauma Holder

Seven - They/Them - Gatekeeper / Co-host

Alex - She/god - Protector / Prosector - Non-Human

Draeko - He/Him - Caregiver / Inner helper

Panda - She/her - Trauma Holder / Regressor - Non-Human

Mason - He/Him - Memory Keeper

Bruno - He/Him - Stressor - Fictive

LK - He/They - Pet Regressor - Fictive

[deathwolfsys]

Innerworld ~ honestly piccrew isn’t bad when you’re just discovering who you are but can’t fully express it the same because of the body, though we try to work out comfortable clothing for all of us ~🍃

[deathwolfsys]

DeathWolf System Info Center

❇️All about the system & Blog!❇️

❓Who Moderates?❓

🎨🍃🐺🏳️‍⚧️ - (Mods in order: Art, Weed, Wolf, Trans)

We only allow 18+ alters to moderate. This is mainly for the safety of our younger alters. There is an exception with one moderator who is ageflux due to having different forms.

🐶 -Puppy mod has 2 main forms, her adult form and regressed form. She will not post when regressed.

ℹ️ Mod Introductions ℹ️

🎨 Dani (aka Art Mod) ~ Any/All ~ Genderfluid Poly Pansexual ~ Host / Trauma Holder (possibly last of core) “Hello my name is Dani and I am the host of the system. I am a furry, artist and aspiring taxidermist. I love to pick up new crafts and skills, I am married to the body’s husband and generally seek out positivity, recovery and happiness not just for the system but for others too.”

🍃 Seven (aka Weed Mod) ~ They/Them ~ AroAce Agender ~ Gate Keeper / Co-host “Sup, names Seven. I am the gatekeeper of the system. I chose to be the weed mod mainly as a joke cause I don’t really care for emotions and rather just chill out. I am a kitchen witch and vegan. My hobbies include vibing and stepping in when emotions become too much for the others. I like to keep the peace but don’t cross me. I don’t fuck around.”

🐺 Alex (aka Wolf Mod) ~ She/God ~ Bigender Autoteratophiliac (am monster that enjoys the attention of non-monsters) ~ Prosecutor / Protector “Hey I’m Alex. I am the death wolf, non-human monstrous wolf of death. I don’t really have any hobbies IG, I mainly collect knives and hold grudges. I was one of the first alters to appear and my protectiveness is what stuck with the name cause I became an outlet for a lot of the trauma. I am quick to snap especially when it comes to the system. Oh and uh I’m a carnivore so me n Seven don’t really have the same taste *snickers*”

🏳️‍⚧️ Draeko (aka Trans Mod) ~ He/Him ~ Pansexual Trans Male ~ Care Giver / Inner Healer “Hello, my names Draeko. I am a trans man who recently came out about being trans as of writing this. I enjoy writing and reading and I am dating a headmate. I may not be seen as much but that is perfectly alright as I am mainly here for support. I suppose I am fairly shy overall as well.”

🐶 Panda (Aka Puppy Mod) ~ she/her ~ Cisgender Heterosexual ~ Ageflux Regressor / Trauma Holder “Hiya! My names Panda Pup! I am the systems ageflux puppy! I have two forms as mentioned before; my adult form (Anthro adult consenting) and my regressed form (Feral puppy don’t even think about it). I am here cause I just wanna spread positivity and love mostly. I care a lot about people and think that everyone needs a friendly face! I like pets form people I know and especially from Dani’s hubby who is really sweet and I love him lots. That’s all from me!”

❌ DNIs ❌

❗️Please note that our DNIs are for our own comfort, we ask that you do not interact or attempt to start anything simply because of this section. However questions are okay if genuine.

Pro-Contact / Neutral-Contact Paraphiles

People who consume CSEM / Beastiality

Racists, Bigots, LGBTQIA-phobics, White Supremacists, etc

Anyone who harassed people, makes excuses for harassment, and especially those who tell people to kys.

(These are subject to change at anytime, so what was once allowed may not be any longer.)

✅ What We Support ✅

Safe coping mechanisms!

Furries & LGBTQIA+!

Oddity Enthusiasts!

Littles!

Non-humans!

And More (having memory issues please hold)

🔶 Maybes? 🔶

These are things we are not sure about and prefer to remain neutral due to conflicting information

Syscourse / discourse - We are fairly new into the community and are still learning. It’s not that we dislike endos it’s that we dislike the stress that we’ve seen come out of this segment and have a hard time understanding it. So no we don’t have any issues with people based on their plurality. We simply don’t want to be dragged into the middle of it.