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having ptsd suuuuucks

i feel gross and icky and like i wanna claw off my skin. it’s fine i’m fine

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a good way to flirt with me is listen to halsey. i’ll fall in love instantly

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hi i still exist

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When you accidentally say the q word (quest) and your knight starts gently clanking from their happy wiggles like now you've done it, you have to send them into the dragon's lair or their helmet ploom will droop and they'll start waxing sad poetic in the moonlight

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time to vent about my love life once again

or well to sum it up: i can’t do causal and i need to stop thinking this time is different. it’s not. i get attached too easily and then get my feelings hurt when they don’t attach back. i’m almost 30 years old i can’t keep doing this shit

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"he's inscrutable!" to you. I can scrute him

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i really love when my bestie and i are having an active convo and i can see them typing but i type faster so i’ll say some out of pocket shit and i can just see them stop typing

it’s golden

i’m so funny

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sterek goes so hard bc it is basically two traumatised in different ways kids who are plunged into more ongoing trauma and have to learn very quickly to trust each other. like, they are thrown together by their situation, yes, but them pairing up in the way that they do isn't entirely by chance bc despite the initial bickering etc there is a lot of decency of character going on in their interactions, and them both having to very quickly decide whether or not they should foster loyalties, and trusting each other early on might be their only option but becoming friends is not. and this decision pays off in spades bc altho they are very different beings with differing traits they are also incredibly similar; two sides of the same coin, you might say. and i think they discover that even tho they are opposites in some respects, they are the type of opposites that absolutely complement each othersʼ personalities and strengths and weaknesses, so perfectly that they end up coming together like magnets despite everything that could've gone against them. bc once you realise you have found the one person who gets it like nobody else does, and you are able to communicate via mere body language and hilarious conversations with eyebrows, and can give each other shit while taking each othersʼ shit, and be as sarcastic or deadpan as you like, and become quietly and then very obviously supportive of each other, and become each othersʼ anchor, then each others everything else, you're then able to understand each other on such an inherently base yet heightened weird and wonderfully special level that it is just so, so magical and so, so beautiful that it's like the universe must've intended it, but you know that it isn't actually fate or destiny or anything else like that bc it's actually just two people who chose each other every time, again and again and again.

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i love this cat so much

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i just wish staying alive and well wasn’t such a fucking fight for me

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today was so rough tbh. genuinely sobbed for an hour during work so. yay

so i gave myself permission to just chill tonight. i didn’t have to be productive or do anything except eat.

this has included:

-talking to 2 of my besties

-smoking that sweet devil’s lettuce

-listening to twenty one pilots

-making one of my besties read a story i’m working on

and now i’m gonna get all warm and cozy in bed and listen to the wind waker soundtrack

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worked a full 8 hours today and still managed to load my dishwasher, cook dinner, and take a full shower (which basically means i washed my hair). plus walk my dog twice, feed all the animals, and give them some enrichment time tailored to them. my dog got belly rubs, my kitten got playtime, and my cat got cheek scratches and words of affirmation.

they’re happy

i’m happy

it’s all good

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cat tax

the door to my closet doesn’t fully latch the way it’s supposed to. my orange kitten has figured out that if he throws himself at the door he can knock it loose and get in. his goal? my dog’s food thats safe in a container that he hasn’t figured out how to open…. yet

there’s a box with a latched lid under my desk that i keep his treats in because he’ll eat them all if i let him. he’s learned how to worm his way into that box…

he is getting close on learning how to open my bedroom door now.

y’all…. i’m being outsmarted by an orange cat… wtf

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the door to my closet doesn’t fully latch the way it’s supposed to. my orange kitten has figured out that if he throws himself at the door he can knock it loose and get in. his goal? my dog’s food thats safe in a container that he hasn’t figured out how to open…. yet

there’s a box with a latched lid under my desk that i keep his treats in because he’ll eat them all if i let him. he’s learned how to worm his way into that box…

he is getting close on learning how to open my bedroom door now.

y’all…. i’m being outsmarted by an orange cat… wtf

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one of my friends is very insistent we’re friends and yet this man wants to get me a snow globe from paris and is insisting we facetime on my birthday

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finally got a zelda tattoo let’s gooooooo