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by fefaluna_

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“In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain the old pain.”

— Mary Manin Morrissey (via quotemadness)

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I’m nothing. I’m nothing but a waste of space. A annoyance. A burden. A failure. A disability. A disorder. A freak. A monster. A unlovable. Unwanted. Worthless piece of garbage that will always be just that. Nothing at all.

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Lunar Phases

🌑🌘🌗🌖🌕🌔🌓🌒

🌑New moon:

New beginnings

Cleansing

Creation

Resetting

🌒Waxing crescent:

Strength

Fertility

Healing

Creativity

Manifestation

🌓First quarter:

Attraction

Bonding

Taking action

🌔Waxing gibbous:

Energy

Strength

Renewal

Determination

🌕Full moon:

Power

Psychic ability

Celebration

Rejuvenation

Divination

🌖Waning gibbous:

Cleansing

Protection

Gratitude

Closure

Repelling

🌗 Third quarter:

Transition

Balance

Calming

Release

🌘 Waning crescent:

Banishing

Removing negativity

Rest

Surrender

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Im not saying this is a suicide attempt but if I dont wake up tomorrow I want you to know I am sorry I didnt write individual letters. It would of taken too long and i would of started to sob and it would of ruined it all That Im sorry I ever had to hurt any of you. That the monsters in my head finally strangled what was left of the voice in me. Know Im at peace now because now they cant hurt me anymore and i cant miss her anymore I cant be in pain like this the kind not even oxy could try and fix I have been in agony longer then I can remember and maybe I just need some god damn fucking peace and maybe the only way I see it is through a coffin I wish I saw it any other way Im sorry Im so fucking sorry

Im sorry if I die tonight (via late-nights-and-daydreams)

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it's never too late to start your day

insomnia got you sleeping in until 2 pm?

that's okay. get yourself some coffee and go thrift shopping, no one will know

anxiety got you staring at walls until 8 pm?

it's going to get better. start a load of laundry and take a hot shower, so you go to sleep clean

depression keep you locked in your room until 11 pm?

it'll be alright. drive to walmart and buy some nice candles for your night, you'll wake up with something new

you don't have to start your day in the morning. i start at 5 pm sometimes and let me tell you, doing something almost always feels better than doing nothing. it doesn't have to be big or important. it doesn't have to be too much to handle. it's enough to wash your face, or comb out your hair. if you feel tired, it's enough to make a list of things you want to do tomorrow. don't let the clock hold you back. it's a piece of glass and plastic. you get to decide what a day is.

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You're not stupid, you're sick. You're not lazy, you're sick. You're not weak, you're sick. Let's stop treating symptoms of mental and physical illnesses and disabilities as if they were character flaws! It's not your fault if your symptoms make your life harder than it ideally should be. Don't beat yourself up about things outside your control.

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(Georgia O’Keeffe, in a letter to Russel Vernon Hunter, from Georgia O’Keeffe: Art and Letters)

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I can’t help but feel disappointed. There should be more to this, something more is needed.